Don't think we're going now. I talked about it to him when he got home. He said he can give no guarantees that he won't get drunk or have a few fags whilst he's there. He said it's unfair to spend a couple of nights with his friends and have to be a killjoy to them by staying sober. So I said how about just sticking to 4 pints, but he again made out that he would be expected to have quite a few beers. He said there's no point in us going if I'm going to make restrictions.
So there you go. I dreamt of a nice break, taking dd to her first wedding, getting dressed up, having a posh meal, having people to talk to, seeing London again and showing dd all the sights. But it's obviously not meant to be.
He said we could go somewhere else for a break, but I wanted to get away from dh and dd for a while! Get dressed up, have people to talk to. Yet I would be spoiling his fun if we went and I insisted he stay sober. I wouldn't mind if that's what I was doing, but I didn't think asking him to stick to 4 pints was that bad, or asking him not to smoke (he only smokes when he drinks and I hate it. Esp now being pregnant the smell of stale smoke makes me feel sick and often he's had to sleep downstairs because I couldn't stand the smell). So whilst I give up all these excesses for our child, he cannot give up any of them for me. I understand his friend would want to go out with him, but surely his friend would understand his limit on drinking with me being 8 months pregnant? Anyway, there you go, he won't compromise and accuses me of being jealous and bitter. And so I wonder if I should have taken that medication after all, it might come in handy at times like this.
Or am I really a bitter, shit person? Am I being crap? Maybe they should take me away until I've had the baby, that would solve everything!