I feel like my default or natural base line is to be depressed. I feel like I have to put so much effort into not getting sucked into a depression. I can't just coast.
In order to not be depressed (never mind be happy or fulfilled) I have to actively keep in touch with friends, push myself to go to yoga, force myself to eat somewhat healthily make an effort to be nice to my husband. All these things take so much effort.
If I don't intentionally do these things even for a few days then I just get so down and then everythings even harder to do.
It makes it seem like these things can't be enough for me like there must be something deeper that's the issue.
I'm not nesseserily saying this is to do with Neurodivergence.
Anyone else feel like this? Any advice? Is this just normal adult life?