Honestly what is going on.
I've name changed for this as I feel a bit silly having my usual username.
I live in a northern town and have been going out as usual. I work as a psychiatrist (on maternity leave) so I'm very used to conflict resolution and don't feel "scared" " easily.
My 2yo son, (today of all days) is going on a pushing rampage! I felt so bad for the kids, as any parent does but I can't predict/prevent everything. I also have a 1yo. It's not usual behaviour for him and I think he is going through a mental leap of experiencing anger.
I am very visibly Muslim and on both occasions the dad's honestly looked like they were going to punch someone. They both had their fists locked tight and one actually flinched towards my son. If I wasn't so normal, kind and apologetic about it, it definitely would have escalated.
I've received so many glaring looks and some racist comments. It's making me feel a bit low. I do empathise with those who are feeling frustrated with austerity and to those from low income families. I'm especially feeling sad because so many of those who are rioting are from similar backgrounds to my patients. Patients who can be kind to me when they see me as their Psychiatrist but racist to me in the streets.
I'm not sure how to feel. I'm mostly disappointed and now slightly anxious. How is everyone else feeling?