It is one o clock in the morning, I need the night shift to mind my worries whilst I sleep....

[NaomiFromMilkShake]

I am 50% of the way through chemo. (second time around)(different primary)

My DS (18) has just been diagnosed with depression I think me being diagnosed again was the tipping point.

Due to above I am having to delegate Christmas, it will get done, it did before just not my way.

DH retiring in three years, should be more than enough to live on, but at the moment I am worrying (Like I couldn't worry about that closer to the time)

Sausage rolls, my job, ditto mince pies.........if they don't happen my DH and my DS will suck it up. Just me worrying.

DS struggling in college and have to go to a meeting on Wednesday

So if some of the night shift would like to come and mind my ,worries whilst I attempt to sleep, it would be gratefully received.

Feel free to add your own, just writing that down has helped.

I can't cope with knowing he's gone.

@hannayeah I am sorry for your loss. Be prepared for happy moments, sad moments and unexpected moments where it hits you like a brick wall. The one week moment was particularly hard. The funeral is tomorrow and that is bringing its own specific difficulties. I am finding it hard to see or talk to my remaining parent, they were divorced for over 25 years. And don't go and see 1917 without industrial strength tissues. My DCs wanted to go and I agreed. Amazing film. Not for this week though.

I’m so sorry @bettybattenburg

For me it was my older brother. Gone too soon and under tragic circumstances.

My own parents divorced 45 years ago. I understand what you are going through.

But also, look for good things. Some will come. Little miracles. Angels around you in the form of everyday people who show up when you need them and do exactly what you need then go back to being normal people leading normal lives.

Thinking of you @HannaYeah. I’m so very sorry for your loss

Still thinking of you @bettybattenburg

May you find peace in your dreams until you find peace in your waking hours x

@HannaYeah and @bettybattenburg
I’m thinking of both of you, I’m so sorry for both of your losses.
Here to take any worries for the night, Havelock is tucked up next to me purring in anticipation.

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@NumbersStation were you kidnapped by aliens then? If so, I am now very worried and shall need to hog Havelock for my ownself tonight.

Knock three times if you are safe and sound. ;)
Shout HELP very loudly if otherwise!

Knock knock knock

As you were Havelock. Was called out and clearly sent a consonant distress signal in error!

I am here and floating about. And I here to help in any way I can. Calls permitting

Phew.

Okay, then we have a good group on duty - me included - so send us your worries, your fears, your tears. We're here to help you through the dark bit.

Popping in to offer a place for any worries under my cosy knitted blanket

Hi All, day is done. I’m not really fit for duty but also no new worries to lay down.

I know this is probably a bit unorthodox but could we maybe wish for sleep for my brother?

Having a bit of a time of it - I’m sorry I can’t explain - it just isn’t my story to tell. He is a lovely man and I’m proud that he is my brother. But he needs a really good run of sleeps to feel better in this world as he is exhausted carrying the weight of the world.

My grateful thanks x

I will send him sleepy thoughts.

I’ve got him @NumbersStation.

I’m touched and grateful. I’m working on this too. I just don’t want him to break and I think sleep is restorative in so many ways. It is just too big a job for me alone as it causes me to worry also. Thank you

I'll send him some sleepy nights too . Many shoulders make cares a little lighter x

Thank you to you and Madame La Spot x

It’s that time of night again. I have my little purry worry warrior with me ready to subdue any problems while you sleep.

The funeral starts in an hour and a half.

@NumbersStation you obviously care so much for your brother. I hope he has a good peaceful sleep.

Handhold here @bettybattenburg

Handhold here for you as well @bettybattenburg

I'm sorry I've been off this thread for a while, I've been here in the background but just quietly. Sending you so much love Betty and Hanna, I don't have any words for navigating that kind of loss but I hope some quiet peaceful moments find you soon. Hang in there. Lots of love to everyone else on this thread too, I'm loving the cat photos and the compassion you all have for (relative!) strangers. You are good folk x

@NaomiFromMilkShake will you start a new thread for when this one fills up? Maybe in a quiet part of MN?

@bettybattenburg so much love and support coming your way, oh, and

@NaomiFromMilkShake start the new thread only if you are feeling up for it. Otherwise, one of us will do it. Haven't heard from you in a while, but hoping you have had no need of WG'ers, which is best news of all.