One or two. I knew when I conceived DS, and also that he'd be a boy and I told DH and only DH so no one would laugh at me.
I was in the Navy and before I left to serve in the Gulf over Christmas 2007, I went to see my Grandma. We had become quite close since I learned how to drive, and she talked to me about her early life and she was a really, really interesting woman. Anyway, before I left I went to see her. I got a call at lunch to say the ship was leaving early and I had to get back. My GM was stressed about it because I had intended to stay over. I said 'don't worry, I'll come and see you when I get back' she said 'there's never enough time' and I hugged her and laughed it off. As I turned to go, I saw she was crying (I NEVER saw her cry; she was not the type!) and she hugged me in a kind of desperate way, and I remember my throat caught. She said 'oh my darling I'll miss you the most.' I thought she was mixed up, and I said 'I'll send postcards just like I did on the last trip, I'll come and stay as soon as I'm back' and she just looked so SAD. So horribly sad. As I drove away and saw her shrink in my rear view mirror, I knew we'd never meet in this life again.
She died on December 27th 2007, in her sleep; warm in her own bed with the Telegraph crossword half done in her lap, and a glass of whiskey on her nightstand.
She is my guardian angel. I know it. She has watched over me ever since, because it sounds awful; but ever since she died I've been 'protected' from things, or I've been more fortunate than I was before. I immediately realised after she died that the boy I was with wasn't meant for me. I broke it off with him and started dating my now DH. Little things too like having the exact amount of money left in my account to get my car fixed, a totally random job advert being placed on DH's desk and him applying for it and it changing the course of our lives and fortunes forever, a house in a perfect location being made available just as we needed it, after a chance conversation with a friend... Because there is NEVER enough time. She was right. When all doors are closed to me; she opens a window.