Sorry to hear it HM. You can my empathy and a giant tight hug. My DP and me are not really an arguing couple.............but last night it all broke down AGAIN (that must make argument 4 in 7 days).
Its such a busy time right now with plays/concerts/shopping plus we have walls coming down in our new house and it seems everyday some catasrophe ensues. Anyway, when I finally had my bum in bed about 11pm last night, had taken DTs for a wee and just grabbed a mug of tea and my book........ DP appeared with the laptop wanting to discuss a variety of things about noo hoose. My heart sank and I resisted entering into discussions. Next thing I know he's shouting at the top of his voice at me about how I never bloody want to discuss the important stuff and how he has all the responsibility and then starts punching the headboard
I didn't raise my voice. I kept repeating that we are a busy family right now and that that is not my fault and not his fault. I said I would not be blamed for us being busy. I said I do want to talk about it but not right now when I have been on the go non-stop since 6.30am. I asked why he couldn't say "fg, d'y think we could talk about this tomorrow morning, maybe chuck on a DVD for the DTs and do it over a cuppa". I kept repeating that I would not argue with him and I kept calm and quiet.
He shouted and bawled a good 5-10 minutes and bashed about the bedroom. I kept cool but I was shaking like a leaf. Read for a while (well, stared at a book to show I was not upset) and cried in the dark silently because I wanted him to know he would not rile me.
This is not normal for us. Its like the more counselling I have and for all the bits I manage to fix, the more other bits of my life fall apart.
I coudn't go to my appt on Tuesday as DP had to go to Birmingham with work and I had no childcare for the DTs (they only go to nursery Mon, Wed & Fri). So I had to move it. First appt.........26 Jan!!!!!
I haven't spoken to him all day. He worked in his room all morning (playing guitar at one point!!!!!!!!!), he was served lunch and went to the carol concert with me and DTs. He has gone out to post a letter.
I have done the school run, cooked, served and cleaned up breakfast and lunch and about to do dinner. Have done 4 loads of laundry. Took DTs to get DT2s haircut. Made all beds. Went to carol concert and worked hard at keeping DTs entertained (I packed a kit bag of books, raisins etc), I have also managed to do the online shopping for his parents and brother and sisters christmas presents. Emptied dishwasher and soothed DD1 as she is exhausted from her late night concert last night, concert today and dance lesson. And I'm now about to make dinner and make birthday cards with the kids for my mum's birthday. But I'm never interested in discussing the important stuff according to DP
I AM RANTING!!!!!!!! LISTEN TO ME!!!!!! Or don't if you value yourself
The problem is we are prioritising different things. Why can't he see that and just talk to me? [Bastardshitefacebigarsefuckwit]
Ooops, did I say that in this the season of goodwill to all men?