Ok, I have calmed down................why do I ache all over? Feel as though my whole body (of which there seems to be more of each day), is full of little pains, head, neck, stomach, everywhere. Have I finally cracked up, still feel miffed about you know who! Right............normal service has been resumed.
Went to Kings in London yesterday to see the liver surgeon, it was the Profs registrar with eyes like pools of amber..............huh back to the point! He was very pleased with DH op and with his progress, we go back on the 5th for a ct scan just to look at the liver, make sure its re-generating and all is well. Then unless anything else appears we are discharged from them. Next Thurs the 4th we are back to the oncologist to talk about the next round of chemo. Right, thats DH. Now me, still get this nagging sore side, hadnt heard about the ultra sound appt to do a check on my gynae bits incase there is somethng wrong there. So I phoned the dept myself and got the usuall under staffed, back log reply. She then gave me an appt, the 16th Dec! So I told her I have had this pain for 6 weeks, doc says its probably IBS, but it is worrying me, as I am afraid it could be something else, she asked what, so I told her about Harry and she then said, can you come next Mon at 11.20am! Just want some reassurance. So that gave me the excuse to cancel the counsellor as the appts clash. I phoned the surgery and told the pracise manager the truth as to how I felt after Mon. She was realy good and said she understood where I was coming from and it was no good it it didnt feel right. Also told her how I felt about all the locked doors and sterile cold room, saggy sofa and obvious bow of Kleenex, she said she had to agree that it does not provide a relaxing atmosphere. I am not saying I give up, just she felt soooooooooooooo wrong and just made me feel angry, and I didnt go to come back feeling that! I do need to look after me more, need to find an outlet, thought about pole-dancing...............what d`y think