Hi I'm new (!) and am just looking for some non-judgemental help and advice. Please be nice to me!
I am 12 weeks pregnant, had my first scan today and found out I am carrying twins. If I'm honest I would have to say that I am devastated by the news. I was so happy when I found out that I was pregnant and now feel that all the happiness has been taken away from me and my situation seems so unfair. I just think ?why me??.
I really love babies and was so looking forward to the first year but feel sad that with twins it will be so much more stressful that I won?t be able to enjoy it and am also sad that I will only experience the baby stage once if we only have 2 children which is likely.
I am also self-employed and was planning to keep working part-time after the birth but feel this will be so much harder and that anytime I spend away from them will be doubled as there are two and I won?t have those experiences with a later child.
I am worried about simple, stupid things like how I will go out shopping etc on my own with them. I could really imagine how this would be with one child but the idea seems impossible now.
Even I think all this sounds incredibly selfish and I know that twins can happen to anyone but at the moment I just feel as if I?m trapped in a nightmare and can?t wake up. Looking on the web etc there just seem to be endless people who are overjoyed to find they are having twins and I feel like an alien in comparison.
Sorry for babbling on. I feel like I need someone to give me some objective advice and don?t know where to start.