Triplets, you gave me goosebumps. I did indeed miss you and hope that your health will improve. Here's hoping that the panic attacks can be helped by a bit of counselling (I think thats a great idea btw) and if its more heart/health related then its a great idead for everyone to see the specialist. We're here for you my love, come hail, rain or shine, even if Harry deals with it differently, we can and will listen to you xxx.
As for your painter man, well, its very interesting to hear his comments and I don't want to be blunt but it is, IMHO, of absolutely no relevance what his personal opinion was at the time. There are plenty people, old and young, who pass away in the same way Matthew did and age should not make it suspicious. (My neighbours son died, like Matthew, age 14. She was a nurse and blamed herself for not noticing......crazy, its 'just' one of these awful things) I'm a little angry that he thinks its helpful to pass this onto you now. People will talk about all sorts when a young person dies and everyone is entitled to their own opinion BUT you are a real person with real feelings.
ooh, I just typed and typed without really thinking. Was I OTT?