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Evening ladies. Since we're at 999 now. Was feeling reflective tonight.

I hope God helps you this time Shabs.........thinking of you and keeping you next to me. xx

Rubester, we have missed you on here................hope everyone is ok? Life here is much the same, chaos atm with school, exams, interviews, kids having to go in for catch up session because the school never got their act together etc. Don`t stay away so long next time! xx

Oh Shabs I truly hope he has a peaceful passing and if there is a "God" up there He takes him gently into his arms and carries him to the stars where he and his cherished Grandsons can surround themselves in love, laughter and memories xxxx

Beautiful words Mama xx

Oh Shabs! Keeping you all in my thoughts here too and praying for a swift and gentle passing.xx

My precious Dad passed away just after 9am this morning - myself and my brother were both with him. xxx

My thoughts are with you and your family at this awful time xxx

Oh Shabbs, I'm so sorry, My love is going out to you and your family, he is with his angel family now, no longer in pain or distress, but it still leaves you and yours reeling with the shock of his passing, especially as it was in such a quick final illness.

(By the way, the "trouble" person the other day was me, sorry, forgot to change names back)

oh Shabs :( I am so sorry for your loss. xxxx

I hope his passing was peaceful x

Shabs, I'm so, so sorry. But I'm glad he had your company on his way. Huge hugs x

Shabs...........no words..........just my love and friendship always. xx

Morning girls xx

Exhausted doesn't even cover it. Love my Mum with all my heart but I never realised how exhausting Alzheimers is. I take my hat off to all the carers in the world dealing with this. Just tucked her back in and said 'its Sunday Mam have another little sleep love.' She grabbed my hands and said 'Dont leave me will you.'

Hi. .....thinking of you up there , frustrated we are so far apart. Grab a rest whenever you can, hope your brother is going to get his act together and help you. xx

Hi Shabbs darling. As you are aware, I know how had it is looking after a mum with altzheimers, and its especially hard at the moment. You really need to contact SS tomorrow, they will have an emergency team who should be able to offer you extra help. Also, like Trips said, I hope your brother is going to help as well. Look after yourself too love.((((hugs))))

Brother is sorting all the arrangements for the funeral but doesnt know where dad kept his paperwork.....I know....I have always known....my dad told me a long time ago....part of me knows I am going to have to go down to the house with him and help and part of me wants to say 'I will swap your job with mine for a week. I know I moan about my brother but I feel my life has stopped in the last couple of days.

My best friend, Chelle, messaged me and said 'see if you can escape and have a couple of hours at mine.' Asked my Mum what she thought and she said 'what if I need to go to the toilet?' I told her DH would take her upstairs and wait outside for her till she had finished.' Her answer 'Thats not a mans job I need you here.'

Oh Dad I miss you - you would be going mad about all this xxx

Oh Shabs. There is nothing I can say which will make this time easier. It can't be easy grieving and at the same time having to look after your mum. Definitely get onto SS and anyone who was providing care for her at her home. They should be able to offer help and solutions. It will be so, so important for you to get that time with your friend.

Joshua climbed out of his cot again tonight, every single time I put him back he was straight over again. Dh's response was 'well you put him in superman pjs again...' Stair gate is now fixed to bedroom door.

Morning lovely ladies.

Thinking of you Shabs. Gentle thoughts for all of you.

Going to see about taking dc to soft play today. It's the first day of the Easter holidays and miserable weather. They are already climbing the walls.

Afternoon ladies.

Hope things are going as smoothly as possible for you Shabs, and I hope you find time to visit your friend. Thinking of you all x

Dad arrived today and I gave him the biggest hug possible, he's the only parent I have left and my life would fall apart without him.

A turns 3, tomorrow! In the process of making flower fairy decorations and fairy themed cupcakes and attempting to make edible fairy wings with veg gel...

Made some arrangements for the funeral today. Dad wanted a non religious service - told me 'no bloody god botherers' we have found a man to do the service in a non religious way. Mum, myself and my brother picked a song each that we knew my Dad loved.

Mum wants a brass band recording of the song Danny Boy (my Danny will be heartbroken when that is played) I picked 'We dont cry outloud' by Elkie Brookes - cause thats mine and my dads song. My brother picked 'The Wanderer' because he said Dad always sang that when they were in the car

Glad you are getting things sorted Shabbs, are you getting any help with your mum as yet?

On a different note, I stsrted my new job today, after a very sleepless night ehen all sorts of scenarios went through my head Now my head is spinning with information received throughout the day. Even the 'clock-in' system is high tech, its a fingerprint scanner! The basics don't change much tho, so hopefully I will be up to speed fairly quickly, I need to be, as I am senior on during the Easter weekend, much to my DCs disgust!

going looking at a posh nursing home tomorrow - luckily my brother has seen sense and she is going to be somewhere in the bolton area so I can get to her easily. As yet no help whatsoever.....its very hard but it wont be forever - I promised my Dad when he was taking his last breaths that I would always look after mum but I didnt realise just how hard it is. I feel like a caged tiger!! xx

Evening ladies..........how much sleep are you getting Shabs? Does poor Mum now realize what has happened? Such a huge adjustment for her, poor poor thing. How long were they married Shabs?
Tragic news about Peaches Geldorf, 25, another young life gone forever xx

I have to call my Dad - Harry when I am talking about him to mum - or else she thinks I mean her Dad. I have told her a couple of times - but only when she asks. Dont think she realises totally. Sleep? Oh my word Trips - she talks all night and gets up about 20 times...I am, or I feel like, a rubbish nurse/carer. They would have been married 60 years in August.