D'y ever wonder where the time goes....

[bubby64]

...When juggling kids, family, home, school and work?
I know, I know, feeble effort, but I really don't know where my year has gone! Its towards the end of February now, past half term for most of us, and I don't even seem to have blinked!
We were celebrating DH's birthday today, and I'm sure he had his last one only a couple of months ago, or thats how it seems to me.
As for the years since my 2 were born, well, they seem to have gone in a blink of an eye.

Awwwww Shabs, I get that with Thomas xx
Well a dreadful day at Mums, went into Deal to get her food and prescriptions, up to hers by 11am so my brother could go home. If I had one call today from Social workers, care workers, gps, Ot`s I had 20, all going round in circles and all passing the buck onto us the family.Tomorrow I have to be there before 10am, as 4 diff lots are coming to do an assessment. Got home just gone 7pm, dead on my feet and with supper waiting for me again...............for now dk can go back to dh!! :o

(((Shabs))) and also (((Trips)))
M unwell yet again, v tired despite having a good nights rest, and has a persistent headache, dizzy and nauseated. Also very emotional with large mood swings. Decided to see Dr as this has been hapening off and on for over 4 weeks. GP quite concerned and he also noted M had put on a lot of weight lately despite careful diet ( it has become very noticable when you see M &J together, and i feed them the same food ) He has taken a load of blood tests, wants to see M again Friday. Hope it's just a virus that is lingering on, and not anything else, worried about his weight tho, as he will get a lot of stick when he starts high school if he doesn't trim down. He has a healthy diet, doesnt eat many sweets etc, does football, tag rugby and swimming, I don't know what else to do with him [worried emoticom].

Morning girls xx

Sorry to hear about your DS Bubby. This pre-teen stage is so very hard. I hope the GP can sort him out xxx

Hi Bubby, no good saying try not to worry because of course you will.......it could be all types of things and viral things are a curse. Often they go undiagnosed for ages and sadly they can take ages to clear up. Hope you find him better in the morning and soon get some answers. xx
Girls........what a day here. Spent over 5 hours solid with social workers etc at Mums today. Poor Mum, she was so tired of trying to answer questions, even asked where her stop cock was!!!!! To cut it all short by 4pm we were on our way with her to a nursing home for 2 weeks of respite care. I have to admit when I walked into the home and saw chairs full of very elderly ladies and gents I wanted to wheel her out. She is 84 but she is so young at heart and sounds young, I could see her face thinking this is not for me. Anyway she has a lovely room overlooking rolling countryside, will be safe and well looked after and I hope by now is asleep in a bed, she has slept in a chair for 3 months. So tomorrow I am having a day to myself, it is such a relief. Of course when she comes out we start again, but hopefully the house will be kitted out for her and everything in place.
Estar keeps popping into my head..............xx

Morning girls xx

Hi All. Thanks for your support. M was off yesterday am, but by lunch he was feeling better after yet more sleep, so sent him in for pm school, along with a covering letter to say he is under investigation and I will always try to send him in if he is feeling up to things. He has gone in today as normal.
Trips - This time in respite is just what your mum needs, and she will be all the better after to go home with everything put in place ready for her. It also gives you a bit of breathing space to concentrate on your H a bit more- he sounds as if he is trying really hard to support you despite feeling unwell himself- definatly deserving of praise not reprimand this time!
Estar is on my mind too, I had choir practice on Tue in prep for concert tomorrow, and we sang "Bring him home" from Les Miserables. I was in tears and couldnt continue by half way through. Hoping I can control myself tomorrow.

Ruby - I hope all goes well for your friend, what a star you are as well, working plus helping as much as you seem to be.

Received a card for Estar this morning...whoever sent it, many thanks, has arrived safe and sound and I will forward it asap xxx

Hi ..........Mother hates the home and wants out!! I think if she were in The Ritz she would find something to complain about. I didnt go to see her today but am tomorrow, then I wont until Mon.............need a break. I know I have never met Estar and her family.............but we all seem so close on here that it has deeply affected us all. xx

Trips she once called to see me when she was going to a crafts market near our area. She is tiny and very pretty. She brought her sister to meet me and her DD who was only a baby then. Her DD cried every time I looked at her and when I held her and cuddled her she cried even more I am not good with little girls!!! Estar was funny and kind...not holier than thou IYKWIM - even though her husband is a minister. We laughed and joked and had a brew. I was totally at ease with her. Daniels struggle for survival has taken up every minute of my waking hours and he has also 'danced through my dreams.' Fly high Daniel - fly as high as you can. BUT please take care of your Mummy and Daddy they will need your help more than ever now xxx

Grrrrrr cant bloody sleep..............everything going round and round my head to do with my Mum, worrying about her house, how the hell we are going to empty her sitting room for all this equipment, sofa took 3 men to get in, where do we put it all, urgent late call from Boots re her meds, phone them this morning, phone loan comp re delivery of mattress not now needed, it goes on and on and on. This was what it was like but a million times worse when Matthew died (hate seeing that 4 letter word next to his name), this was what it was like about cancer being here...............feel I shall go mad. Shabs...................strange you should say "fly high" do you know what is on Matthews headstone? We put off getting one put on for 8 months, didnt want to see his name. Then one morning I woke up, a poem came into my head.

Our baby grew, our son has flown
Away from us, our lives his home
"Fly high my child fly high
But know our love will never die".

With simply his name and date of birth, couldn`t put the 2nd June 1994, hate hate that date.

Another poem was

Round and round and round my head
Endless thoughts of you.
Round and round and round my head
Things we used to do.
Round and round and round my head
Forever asking "why"?
Round and round and round my head
Then I start to cry.

I have a book full of poems I wrote, all simply came into my head in the first two years, then nothing.

And now the birds are just waking up..................

Still here..............nightmare!

Morning girls x

No Trips I didn't know that was on Matthews headstone. 'Fly high' just came into my mind when I heard about Daniel.

Sounds like you have had an awful night Trips. xx

Hello girls.

I've been lurking, but feel a bit helpless to post really. Hope things get better for you soon trips, and bubby. I love that song, bubby, sadly, it is quite appropriate really.

Been thinking about estar lots too. I sent a card wed, shabs, hopefully you've either got it or it's on the way.

This poem was on the card I sent -

"The Rose Beyond the Wall"

A rose once grew where all could see
Sheltered beside a garden wall
And, as the days past swiftly by
It spread its branches, straight and tall

One day, a beam of light shone through
A crevice that had opened wide
The rose bent gently toward its warmth
Then passed beyond to the other side

Now, you who deeply feel its loss
Be comforted, the rose blooms there
It?s beauty even greater now
Nurtured by God?s own loving care.

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I know estar very much wants to celebrate his homecoming whilst mourning his loss, so I hope they will like it.

I find it rather ironic that her words on her latest blog, as a mother suffering the worst loss, were a comfort to me, a stranger really. Her strength is amazing, and I hope it continues to help them through the coming weeks.

Chops someone sent me that card when we lost Matt - its a beautiful poem.

Have had one card that arrived yesterday - black pen and the postmark is a place that always reminds me of the Queen

Lol, ole lizzie IS my neighbour

Girls................have literally fallen into bed, its all caught up with me, feel drained...................could someone do the trolley tonight please? See you in the morning............xx

Night sweetheart...

Ooh bacon rolls. I'm so hungry. Need fuelling before tackling the garden this morning!

Adds a few almond croissants and cheese and sweet corn muffins.

I've still not started. Dh has only just got up

Oh well, I'm taking ds1 to the rugby final this afternoon, so will escape before it gets too hot. And boil in the stadium instead!