D'y ever wonder where the time goes....

[bubby64]

...When juggling kids, family, home, school and work?
I know, I know, feeble effort, but I really don't know where my year has gone! Its towards the end of February now, past half term for most of us, and I don't even seem to have blinked!
We were celebrating DH's birthday today, and I'm sure he had his last one only a couple of months ago, or thats how it seems to me.
As for the years since my 2 were born, well, they seem to have gone in a blink of an eye.

' Today we signed a DNR on our son's life & we told two more sons their brother was going to die. Definitely qualifies as the worst day ever. Joel said today that he felt his heart was cracking. I'm watching my blue-eyed boy losing his battle and feel that my heart is cracking too.'

Estar if you read this (and I can understand totally if you never get round to it) my heart is cracking for all of you.....There are no words....there are no gestures....there is nothing - nothing at all that I can say or do that will make any difference to your family. I feel heartbroken for you. I am sending my love - but even that feels useless xxxxxx

I just realised what DNR means - really, really wish I hadn't

Estar hoping you and your family find some strength, thinking of you all x

Devastating

Not sure when your quote was posted shabs, but estar has just posted that after a rough night D is stable again! long may it continue, I'm praying that they get their wish to get him home for a bit do they can all be together.

I'm out so can't c+p

It was her friend who posted on her behalf and I think it was late yesterday. I just noticed her latest update. It must be so difficult for everybody. I hope that a miracle will happen. Can only imagine how hard it is for everybody xx

Oh no, so sad that Estar and family are having to prepare in this way.
I am dreading looking at her status at the moment.

2 days of English SATS down, to days of Math to do. Mike is really not well, but still went in for exam this am and was sat in a sepetate room with a sick bucket He couldn't do them on another day because he lives in the same house as another child who has done the exam, so couldn't stop "collusion" !!!

Morning girls xx

Trips - as always, I am thinking about you today and wishing I was closer (in miles) to you - so that I could help in some way. xxxx

Estars latest blog - just posted on FB

Morning girls xx

A much better night - Daniel is much more settled and I got eight hours sleep! Thankyou so much to all of you who prayed in the night - you were covering that shift!

This mornings message from Estar.

Praying for Daniel, may he have the peace to go into Gods waiting arms, and also for my little Hannah and Rebecca, who have the joy of being safe in them already.

Goodmorning girls, I am here and exhausted. I have been keeping an eye on Estars blog, its such a long long process for them all, and even though the end is inevitable and heartbreaking, I know that the worst time is to come. The years of missing him:( Bless you Daniel xxx

Well its been quite a week. First of all H had his op late on Weds evening, they had to remove 25% of his lung. He is ok, and may indeed be home tomorrow.
My mum. We were all called to a meeting at the hosp on Weds at 1030am to meet with the surgeons. We were told there is nothing they can do, all her main arteries are blocked, her smaller ones are trying to compensate. They are not going to amputate, even her toes which now are all dead. So, today we have to bring her home, manage the pain will drugs and basically wait for her toes to drop off. She will go to the hosp once a month for them to check for further deterioration, it will happen. They have provided many aids for her home which will help, a care package starts this evening and we do the rest. Today is my first day off in 8 days, I have had to leave the kids alot and they haven`t exactly been good. I will have to go up to London tomorrow to bring H home. Oh boy do I ever need a holiday. Nice to be back, have missed you all. xx

Morning girls xx

OMG Trips that sounds like Victorian times....just going to send your Mum home? How bleedin' disgusting. Mind you they are doing the same with my Mam - pack her off with some tablets and hope that her and my Dad dont strangle each other in the meantime.....NHS best health service in the world....'my arse!!' H hoping to come home home tomorrow???? Dont know how you are keeping going to be honest......thats without thinking about the kids!!! Distance is so frustrating - just wish I could do something to help.

xx

I have made my coffee so strong (for some strange reason) that I will be bouncing off the ceiling in a minute - still drinking it though

Hi Trips- Must admit, it doesnt surprise me about your mum, it often happens if the person is too frail to operate. the toes do lose all feeling as they die, and so will drop off without too much pain. Glad H has got through his op ok, but you are still having to work so hard.
Shabbs - Have you been in touch with the Altzheimers Society? They can provide a lot of help and advice, even doing things like providing a "granny sitter" so your dad can go out for a few hours on his own or down the pub with his mates.
Well, Y6 SATs now over. My 2 are surprisingly confident on what they have done, even tho J says he failed the spelling test (always his weakest subject). They have both surprised me with their knowledge in the maths, managing questions that I thought would completly flummox them (an ajudicator here on mumsnet have let us know each day some of what they were set ). We have said we will celebrate by going to the local Agricultural Show and Funfair tomorrow.

Evening girls..............................I GOT TO SIT IN TOTAL PEACE AND QUIET IN FRONT OF MY LOG FIRE FOR 2 WHOLE HOURS TONIGHT :)
Made the most of it as have to be up, get three kids organized and be on the 10am train to London to bring the patient home, and I thought I would get a break whilst he was in hospital

Goodmorning.............oh why can`t I sleep in? Opeless!! Off up the smoke, back later xx

Morning girls xx

Safe journey Trips - why does it always suprise me when I hear how far London is from yours???? My only excuse is that I chose History and not Geography in my options at school

Hope everything has gone well Trips, and H is now home. Also hope your kids behave themselves and help you out a little.
Knacked and broke after a day at the Show, but all, including dogs, enjoyed themselves. Got a sunburned nose tho!!

Back home and knackered, literally on my knees. Spent a total of 7 hours on trains today, could just about been in Florida in the same time. H is ok, but looks sooooo pale, not surprising when you think 3 nights ago at this time he was in theatre! He was abit snappy with me, and I snapped back once, just soo tired. Spoke to my mum when I got home tonight and she sounded awful, very down. Now got to be up on a Sun morning before 6am to get James off on his trip..............................I am too old for this malarky!! Night night xx

Oh Trips - my dear, dear forever lifelong friend....how can I help? Is there anything at all that I can do? xx

Morning Shabs, morning girls...............up with the larks again. James left at 630am I came back to bed but now am wide awake. H has coughed alot during the night, hopefully today he will look more like his grumpy old self!! Well after turning my light off at 11pm I was just dozing off when the phone rang next to me, jumped out of my skin. It was my Mum, she never ever phones me late, she had fallen out of her chair at 9pm and couldnt get up. Her care worker had supposed to be there at 8pm and hadnt turned up. At 9.15pm care worker arrives to find her on the floor, says she is not allowed to lift her so calls 999! Ambulance men promptly arrive and put her back!! She then spends 20 mins just rabbiting with me saying how tired I am and have to get up early. Put the phone down and it rings again, it was my brother to tell me what had happened as she had phoned him first. He is a real worrier, and asks me if I am going down there today to be with her as he found her hard work y/day..................there were 4 of the family there!! I said no, Harry is tired and I cant leave him its too soon. He then tells me my other brother told Mum that I would be coming down to see her today!! I feel the next few weeks are not goung to be good!! Aint life grand :o

Hope you are ok trips

We watched the Olympic torch leave Cornwall last night on it's way to Devon!! Due to a torch thing the children did we had a prime spot on the Tamarac Bridge (which connects the to counties)