Oh no....what a nightmare for you! How the heck did that happen??? Is there nothing you can do to redeem the hols? Or is there any kind of alternative you consider? Maybe camping?
I'm feel really bad for you right now. If you're asking for valium rather than alcohol or soft drugs, things must be dire!
I'm sure your little boy will understand about the holiday. It sounds like there's been a truckload of stuff going on for you both these past few months. It may not be the best news he's had for a while, but he'll probably take it much better than you think. Especially if you're straight with him about why it's happened and why you can't provide an alternative right now.
Maybe you can make some kind of plans for the near future? Try to put something together for him that he'll enjoy...the free stuff that the UK has to offer. Cheap National Express fares, museums/science parks,park parks, etc. He can maybe help you plan things out.
Kids are much more resilient than you think and you have to focus on DS as he's the main thing that matters right now. You'll come through this. And though cliche's are generally crap, a set back is sometimes just a set up for a come back. Maybe that elusive lucky break is just around the corner for you??
I'm sending hugs...Netmums styley...and the denziens of Mumsnet be buggered. If they throw me off because of it, so be it!
You look after yourself. Your son will be fine. He's got a great mum who obviously cares about him an enormous amount. That's what he'll remember when he grows up, not a cancelled holiday!