Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

4ever I might just travel down to you and pop into your EPU . They haven't got a drop in centre near here. They don't even scan at 20 weeks just 12 which I find odd. Back home, (Cheshire), they scan at 12 and 20. I did ask why they don't do 20 week scans, and it's because they say it causes more worry having them, personally I'm worried not having it. But just 10 miles down the road in the next county thay do 20 weeks scans, very postcode lottery
Don't know why I'm going on about 20 week scans....

Hey jools, the 2ww is such long wait, but only a few more days to go, fingers crossed for a BFP xx

vjayyou are sounding better today sweetie I do hope you are trying to take it a bit easy? Maybe we should do a grand tour of epus across the country.
4ever nearly Thursday will be sending you heaps of positive thoughts.
curlywurlee It is so hard to put that battered old practical hat on and wait the 8 weeks when all you want is that baby. My bean snuck in there when I wasnt looking my mum asked me if I had heard about contraception!
jools fingers and toes crossed for you tooo sweetie, things will work out.

Good to hear you sounding positive Vjay! We need a private jet! Proper postcode lottery & strange about the 20 week scan thing , maybe when you're next at the hospital you can try pushing for one? BTW its very good to be thinking ahead positively! Fingers crossed for you!

Thanks mermaid and curly one more sleep! Looked at old ltrs last night and saw that at 6weeks last time did see heartbeat so am hoping will be momentarily reassured tomorrow! Hopefully seeing specialist after will help too.. Got ltr for my ante natal booking apt this morning and on mon got ltr fro 12 week scan which they are doing under the fetal medicine unit cos of the abnormaility last time, so I'm under EPU, Specialist obstetrics (recurrent mc clinic), Fetal med unit and Ante natal! Curly your post about extra support was great and with all the diff depts looking after me I'm keeping my fingers and everything crossed it works for me!

Anyway ladies, had this morning off work as was exhausted & yukky! I mainly post at work so will fill you in on scan & stuff on fri morning!

Big waves and hello to everyone else and Barbie Bon voyage hon! Hook up to MN ASAP if you can draw yourself away from the beach or the pool! xxx

Hi ladies, no time for porper catch up but have had a quick reda through, VJ hope all ok, 20 week thing is a bit rubbish, could you go private? There seem to be lots of places offereing scans, I went to a place that does them from 6 weeks onwards.

Hope all ok

Hi everyone,

On very quickly busy at work today.

vjay so happy the spotting has stopped, sounds like this lo is going to be a handfull. Keep on thinking those positive thoughts.
We don't get a 20 weeks scan either in Glasgow, it really is a bit of a lottery by the sound of it.

4ever good luck for tomorrow hun, will be thinking about you.

vm hope you are feeling better and that DH is doing lots of pampering atm.....you deserve it.

Got a text from barbie earlier, she was at the airport, she said to let you all know she will be back on MN soon.

Need to go for now but take care everyone mm xxx

Hi I can go private for a 20 weeks scan but have to travel to Aberdeen, but I think it will be worth it.
I'm taking tomorrow off work, I feel so yuk and the doctor told me to take it easy, so I will.
vm any news on your next book yet I'm desperate for another good read.
Just had a fab idea for where we could all meet up....Dubai with barbie , I would need to win the lottery first! Unless we get that private jet 4ever is on about then we could be well away.........
It is weird this postcode lottery business mm, Morayshire do the scans but Invernessshire don't!
Oh well, I'm going to bath my wee monkey now.

VJay How are you feeling my lovely, I bet you are going out of your mind with worry I'm very at your ante-natal care! That's terrible service. Love the idea of winning the lotter and having a Dubai meet up!
VM Hope you are taking it easy
MM How are things with you? How is your SIL?
4ever Good luck for tomorrow, can't wait for an update

Mollie waves sleepily to everyone else and scuttles off to bed x

im here!!!!

Hi girls, phew what a hetic few days its been not only for me but for all of you as well.
Unfortunatly i have only one hour of connection until i can sort something better out but as always you were all my first port of call.
As its only a short time i cant comment on you all one by one but i hope you are all keeping well, the scan appointments going ok and you are all resting..and to all my other buddies practing i hope you are using the contraceptives that you should be while having fun!
Its so frustrating not being able to reply to you all, but rest assured i am thinking about each and everyone one of you and whatever situation you are finding yourselfs in right now.
As for me, im sat in the service apartment which is going to be home for the next month, its nothing special but i have put out a few personal things to make it more like home, james is working due to be home shortly and then we are off to explore this crazy town! Its warm but not hot, more like a summers day in england...i still cant believe this is going to be home.
I would love for you all to come here with the babies, however i dont think the other passengers on the plane will like it! so i will come to you.....
Welll ill be back on soon to talk with you all personally, until then big barbies hugs xx

ps thanks mm for passing on my text xxx

4ever just a very quick sneaky post from work (bad curlywurlee ) to say good luck today. I'll be thinking of you honey.

HELLO BARBIE WELCOME BACK!!!!!!!!!

gotta go......

Take it easy VJ, dubai sounds fab but I hate flying!

Good luck 4ever, sounds like you are being well looked after.

Fab to hear from you barbie!

Barbie, just looked at your pix, your tatoo made me cry, what beautiful thing to do hun!

Hey Barbie glad to hear you're settled - catch up more soon..

Curly Thank you!

I'm a big blubbering mess, time is going so slow and I am so scared, just been crying upstairs, trying to sit here and hold it together and be positive and its a massive struggle. Havent got the words to describe my emotions but Im crappin it, nervous, full of anxiety, soooooo scared, desperate to be there, apprehensive, trying desperately to be hopeful, wanna burst into tears... Please god let it be OK... Will see if theres anyway I can post later to let you all know, if not will have to be tomorrow morning, am here til 2pm - longest hour and a half ever . Named lo my ox cos this is gonna be chinese year of the ox - im not chinese tho - but need this lo to be strong as an ox so talked to it this morning in the shower and said 'my little ox you must grow big and strong and mummy & daddy really need to meet you in sept..' and various other ramblings, never dared talk to them much before just in case but figure anything that may help eh? Anyway, am feeling deluded so will stop rambling keep praying, countin minutes and crossing everything... xxxxxx

Hi 4ever I am thinking of you today. I talked to my little bean yesterday, telling bean it has a lovely big brother, then I realised what I was doing! I was trying not to get too attached just yet, but that's impossible. I love it already, just hope I'm not setting myself up for more heartache.

Hi barbie, hope you are settling ok, can't belive you're there already, I remember when you started to talk about it, time does fly. How long will you be out there for?

Hi ginger, I am taking it easy, I had another bleed last night, and the doc has signed me off for a week, so studying at the moment, but will go and watch some telly in a bit.

Hope everyone else is ok xx

barbie, well done on making it over there, and thanks so much for posting and thinking of all of us! We are thinking of you too!

mm, your thoughtful words mean so much to me as always...

Curly, thanks for the nausea-combating tips; I think that bed rest does help, but I get very down and start to feel like a total failure if I lie in bed all day - which is what I have been doing, and how I'm now feeling! But I think this is one battle our bodies are going to win so I'm just giving in.

VJay, I'm thinking of you and hoping you're OK. I really admire you for studying and keeping up with life. Feel I should take a leaf from your book...

4ever, everything crossed for you...

Hello ladies, started to write a post addressing all you lovely ladies, but realised theres no way I can finish it, as then I miss out on a whole new set of threads! so please forgive me if ive missed out on key events! So just quickly:

barbie hope all goes well in Dubai, try to send us some sun, its freezing here

4everhopeful thinking of you, please let us know how today goes....

mermaidspurse and to my buddy scamperT congrats!!!!! [grins] sending all the expectant mn's (vjay, vm sorry if ive missed any1 else) on here lots of sticky thoughts!

Sabs waves to jools blue mollie and gingermumi*..sorry if ive missed anyone

well im on jury service this week, very boring...jus been sitting around, got called up to 2 cases, but then didnt get selected, and then yesterday got selected but the case got postponed as the key witness is ill! dont need to go back until monday

india was fantastic, spent 7/8 in our home town catching up with family, shopping and eating lots, then 3 days in goa just sitting on the beach and not doing anything else and then half a day in mumbai.....the first week there was my crucial week so spent it baby dancing a lot but didnt take my ovulation kits or themometer, just went with the flow...

My AF is due on this sat 17th jan, but i was very naughty and took a test last sunday (first response, which said you can test 6 days earlier) - it was negative

but im so impatient, so i took a test today (clear blue digital) and it was postitive!!!! took another test (first response again) and it was positive too

you ladies are the first people to know after DH...i feel so different from last time...so scared and anxious and not quite wanting to believe it...will make an appointment with GP next weeek if my period definately doesnt appear and then for a 7 week scan at EPAU

Sabs Congratulations fantastic news and so pleased for you - go easy, rest, and smile lots.
4ever everything is crossed and double crossed.
vm do what your body is telling you and you are far from a failure girl.
vjay well done for the weeks rest.
barbie congratulations on your move, glad your there safe and well, enjoy.
my scan date has come through for the 21st, ages and ages and ages and ages. Feeling very weepy today - opps got to take ds swimming, never on time for anything. x

On quickly again at work again,

sabs congratulations hun, sounds like a holiday was the perfect tonic for you and DH......got me thinking now.

4ever been thinking about you, hope your scan went well, let us know when you can. Take care.

vm stop, stop, stop, you are not a failure, just think what your body is doing right now. You rest up young lady remember precious cargo in there, take care

vjay so glad to hear you are taking a well earned rest. Feet up and take it easy hun.

barbie So glad to see you had a safe trip......but must admit a little regarding your sunshine, sounds like bliss. No more fake tan needed for you. Hope your are enjoying settling in.

mollie SIL is doing as well as can be expected. I is so hard because she is in the States so been chatting through email for now, 8 hr time difference doesn't help either. I feel really close to her right now, it's sad but nice that we will most probably bond more over this, just wish it wasn't under these circumstances. How are you doing hun, think about you ofter.

So much for quickly look at the time, big hellos and waves to blue, scamper, ginger, mermaid, curly* and anyone else I have missed. Bye for now mm xxx

Sabs this is fantastic news I am so excited for you - another london lady up the duff!!!

I've been out on a girlie night seeing Dirty Dancing. I'm still a little gutted that Patrick Swayze didn't show up but it was such fun.

Hope you are all doing okay tonight. Mermaid you are always so great at cheering all of us up, I don't like to think of you being weepy (here's a link to a picture of patrick swayze - will that help?! www.patrickswayze.net/Patrick/pat111.jpg )

Thinking of you 4ever. I hope you are okay honey.

sabs OMG!!! That is the best news ever babe, really fantastic . Of course it will feel different from last time, but just try to keep hopeful and take care of yourself. one day at a time...

4ever I will be checking all day tomorrow for news from you and really pray it is good news, could really feel all the anxiety in your last post, which is totally understandable

mermaid is that an early scan on 21st Jan? sad to hear you feeling weepy, hang in there hon, time does go so slow when we are waiting but one day soon all the waiting will have been worth it

barbie wow I can't believe you are really there! Enjoy that warmth hon, its damp and grey and cold here (surprise surprise). Am at the thought of us all on a plane with screaming babies disturbing all the other passengers then pitching up en masse at your place

VM and Vjay* hope you ladies are taking care and resting up

MM it is that you and SIL have had to bond through unhappy times, but glad that you can be supportive for each other, no one really understands the emotional roller coaster of mc unless they have been there. Just think you will take so much joy in sharing in each others happy times in the future too though

jools have been thinking of you on the 2ww, I am also a massive symptom spotter..anything from feeling bloated to looking flushed all precipitated a trip to the chemist for me. I should have bought shares in First Response really

curly its good being bossed around by you! Anyone who tells me to drink peppermint tea and take it easy is welcome to boss away. Although I am being a naughty Scamper and not going to bed early...

Scamper yawns and remembers its not quite the weekend and she does have to get up for work tomorrow (boo hiss)

big hellos to mollie ginger and blue

curly a cross post, I am a big big Dirty Dancing fan, sigh ...

Scamper you would have loved it. Johnny was so NOT sexy though. We all groaned a bit when he first came out (and not in a good way ) Ahh... I shall be fishing out my dvd for some patrick swayze action this weekend!

And isn't it time you were in bed young lady?!

Many congratulations Sabs - SO pleased that lovely holiday worked its magic

No time for more today - am on my fornightly business trip to Wales and drowing in work (and directors far too close to my screen !)

Hope all the ladies up the duff are doing well and managing to spend some waking moments thinking about other things ! I'm on the home stretch of the 2WW - if my cycle is back to normal, I'll either have AF on Monday or be testing Still not convinced there is any hope, but maybe having different symptoms and sensations to last time is a good thing

Hello ladies - just to let you all know it looks fine so far thank God! 6mm with a heartbeat! Im 6w3d today so thats a great sign! DH and I got tearful, we were both wrecks yesterday. So relieved (for now!). Back next fri for another scan as such a stresshead! Off work and posting at home on crappy dial up so hope it works. Specialist was great too so seeing him again in 4 weeks.. he reitterated what Im already doing - absolutely no caffiene. Dont know if you all know that but if not, take tha advice! I been on decaf since the last one.. Thanks for thinking of me everyone, was out of my mind yesterday and didnt know where to turn. One girl at work said to pull myself together and I wanted to slap her, another very good friend said I was totally entitled to feel like that and was very understandable and call her every 5 mins if need be. RL is being more supportive than I thought!

Last but not least - very big congrats to Sabs!!