Mmc

[yellowmellw]

Went for my 12 week today and baby had stopped growing at 8+4. They are giving me a week to see if things move on their own. Don't know how to feel but so feel guilty

[Ladybug84]

@Pamplem00se
That's great news!! I'm keeping fingers and toes crossed for you! Keep us posted xx

I've been quietly following this thread. It's great to see good news come in ☺️
I'm currently on the last days of my period. This is the second period since AF finally made its return in February (miscarriage was in August). Cycles are back on track, So we're ready to start TTC again. I hope it happens quick like the last time and that this time all goes smoothly. I'm sick of all the bumps on the road I've had since last summer 😓
happy day to you all brave warriors xx

[Michelle0507]

I hope things work out for you, be kind to yourself.

[PineapplePrincess]

@Pamplem00se - yay!?! Oh wow, fab news - so excited for you. Completely understand your cautious approach however. I have fingers and toes crossed, but still quietly sqeee-ing.

@Michelle0507 - hope everything is progressing smoothly with you guys.

We’ve had a bumpy first week. Baby got readmitted to hospital this week due to severe jaundice. We have narrowly avoided a complete blood transfusion, his bilirubin levels were so high; but three days on phototherapy, jaundice seems to be reducing and we’re hoping to get home tomorrow.

Needless to say I have been an emotional wreck, convinced that everything was doomed and we were going to lose him somehow. I think the rollercoaster last two years is catching up on me.

[Michelle0507]

Oh no @pineappleprincess, so glad he is better.

What did you call him? Apologies if you said and I missed it x

[PineapplePrincess]

We’re thinking Gabriel (or Gabe the babe) for short, @Michelle0507.

[PineapplePrincess]

@Michelle0507 - can I ask how you made a referral for counselling; was this via your GP? Tempted to do the same, although I’ve cried on so many midwives this week they may refer me themselves.

@Ladybug84 - good to hear your cycles are back on track. Sending baby dust your way. xox

[Michelle0507]

@PineapplePrincess I just went on the internet and did a referral for Trent PTS who are local. Midwive dismissed it and told me I wouldn't be maternal if I didn't worry - she's an idiot.

I like it! The only name we've agreed on so far is Seb. The other half isn't even willing to consider any other names now, wish I'd never said it. Lol

[Pamplem00se]

How are you all doing ladies?
So I'm just over seven weeks now and had a reassurance scan last week and everything looked fine. Unlike all of my other pregnancies (including three successful ones!) I've had no bleeding at all so now find myself worrying about the lack of bleeding! Sods law!
Have another scan next week which I'm keeping my fingers crossed for.
I feel pretty dreadful (all day nausea) which I didn't have with my miscarried baby so I hope that's all a good thing.
Ho0pe things have settled down for you @PineapplePrincess (Seb is a lovely name!) and that @Michelle0507 you're finding the anxiety eases as time passes.
xxx

[PineapplePrincess]

Hey @Pamplem00se, glad to hear things are going well; and sending positive thoughts and best wishes for the next scan.

I was never quite sure whether multiple scans were a good thing - it was good to have the reassurance that things were progressing as they should, but my nerves were shot leading up to the scans each time.

My nausea was horrendous this last pregnancy, ended up signed off from work. Had really bad ‘morning sickness’ with first DS too, so I would definitely take it as a good indicator.

We are beginning to get a bit more settled and find a routine these days. A few bumps with BF and having to top up with formula, then finding out Gabe has a protein allergy (just like his big brother!). Switched to medicated formula, so hopefully that works!?!

Hope all is well with you @Michelle0507. xxx

@Ladybug84m sending heaps of baby dust your way. Hope you are doing well. xox

[PineapplePrincess]

Hey guys - how are things going...?

Hope pregnancies are progressing well @Pamplem00se and @Michelle0507.

We’ve hit the 12wk mark, healthy, happy and growing like nobodies business. Maternity leave is flying in and I’ve actually found myself contemplating trying again - madness I know, must be hormones going crazy!?!

[Michelle0507]

Hi, I'm good thank you 34+2 and growing nicely. My bump measures small but on scans he is big apparently, so I'm having scans every 4w next one is 11th June. Huge anxiety around birth etc so I'm due to start under a team at the Hospital.
Mat leave starts 21st June! :)

Hope everyone else is well x

[Pamplem00se]

Hello lovely ladies!!! What a sad time it was this time last year. I'm 16+4 today, feeling movements and finding out what we are having on Saturday! I can't believe you're already at 12 weeks pineapple princess. Can emphathise with the wanting one more.... but we are well and truly done after this one (#4!!) And it hasn't been an easy pregnancy.
Michelle - home straight and baby will be here in no time. I'm glad that they're taking your worries about childbirth seriously.
Xxxx

[Pamplem00se]

And I'm having a boy too ladies :) xxx

[PineapplePrincess]

Ooooh exciting!?! @Michelle0507, you must be due any day now - if you’ve not already had baba. Hope all is going well.

Eeeeeee! @Pamplem00se, glad everything is progressing well. Movements are so comforting when they come. A little boy too, how lovely!

I can understand you stopping at #4. I’m so tempted to try again as I’d love a girl, but not sure I could risk another boy (too much testosterone already in this household!!!)

[Michelle0507]

Hi, sorry haven't updated you Seb William born 3rd July 6.55am 7lb4oz. I had lots of reduced movements in the last week so we were induced. I went in 8pm Mon nothing happened so they broke my waters at 11.50pm Tue and labour started at midnight! I was given morphine sadly it didnt suit and I dont remember much of the labour, I had to go to theatre for a 3rd degree tear. I woke up hours later having a panic attack as I couldn't feel him moving inside I didnt even know he'd been born. Sent home the next day but couldn't cope so we went back in for 3 days. Still struggling some days I'm waiting to be seen my perimental health who will hopefully support me for a year.

Hope you're all well x

[PineapplePrincess]

Congratulations @Michelle0507 - so glad Seb made his arrival (lovely name btw).

Sorry to hear it was so traumatic - I hate the way birth, breastfeeding, etc is made out to be the most amazing, lovely and natural thing; they are far from it. They are hard work and physically and emotionally draining - something no one warns you about!?! That on top of the trauma of previous miscarriage is enough to break the strongest of people. I know I was in floods of tears at various points during the first month or so.

Hope you are getting the support you need and are managing to bond with Seb despite all the challenges. Don’t be hard on yourself, we can be uber critical of ourselves during these first few weeks and months - as long as baby is alive and growing, nothing else matters.

If you want to chat, even just to let off steam, give me a shout. xox

[Pamplem00se]

@Michelle0507 thrilled to hear of baby Seb's arrival but so sorry you had such a traumatic time. I'd been wondering about how you were doing over the last few weeks. Like PineapplePrincess says always here if you want a chat.
We're 24 weeks here and I'm hot hot hot in the sunshine. Thoroughly fed up of being pregnant but very pleased to be beyond the point of viability. Have a busy few work months before maternity leave now. Funny to think that in a little over three months time we will all have our boys after our trauma last year xxx

[Pamplem00se]

@Michelle0507 @PineapplePrincess how are you both doing with your not so little boys? Two weeks for me to go now (have a section booked!)... with my Mmc I've been pregnant for 48 weeks in the last year and a half or so... utter madness. Anyway after being so desperate to be pregnant I now want him out!!! Still have another week to go at work though!!!!

[PineapplePrincess]

@Pamplem00se - SQUEEEEEEEE!?! Ab fab news, counting down the days now!?! Do you know what you’re having?

We’re doing well. Now 7.5 months and thriving. He’s currently sleeping next to me as he’s feigning the cold in a clear attempt for cuddles. I’m such a pushover these days!?!

Back at work now, slowly ramping up my days to full time. The time really has has flown by.

Must admit I’m enjoying second time round. Not sure if it’s just relaxing into it, after stressing with your first; or just truly appreciating what you’ve got following the rollercoaster of miscarriages.

{{{{B.I.G. HUGS}}}}

[Pamplem00se]

@PineapplePrincess it's a boy!!! Totally ready for him to arrive- had the worst nights sleep ever! (I might soon be eating my words! Other three were horrendous sleepers as babies but fab now!). Oh my goodness to being back at work! I'm going to.go back as enjoy my job and it's only part time. Also doing an open university degree which I'm not.putting on hold so we will see how that goes!!!!! Will post when he's here:) xx

[Michelle0507]

Hi ladies,

We're okayish I have PTSD and anxiety from birth so I'm under the perinatal team. Seb was being treated for CMPA & Reflux ended up in Hosp last week seems it's just reflux and the milks were making it worse. It has been so so hard and I wont lie I haven't loved being a Mum sadly but hopefully coming out the other side. Seb is 16w today, moved him into his own room Mon night and he is doing well. Lovely to see the updates x x

[Pamplem00se]

Oh @Michelle0507 that sounds really tough. My youngest two had multiple delayed reaction food allergies and horrendous reflux. The impact of the lack of sleep is huge (and the not knowing - by my third we knew what we were dealing with which made it much more straightforward to manage). It sounds like you've some good support in place though. Also, pretty normal to not enjoy the tiny baby bit, especially when you're doing it the first tim3 with a massive learning curve, so I really hope you're not giving yourself a hard time about that xxx

[PineapplePrincess]

@Pamplem00se - Yay, it’s a boy!?! Three boys all round! Hope the last week of work went well. Exciting times - I’m so pleased for you. xox

@Michelle0507 - sorry to hear things have been tough. These babies really know how to put us through the ringer!?! Always here if you need to talk. xxx

[Pamplem00se]

Corin Rufus was born at 2.34 this afternoon by c section. Ours was the fourth of the day and a miserable long wait plus lots of tugging as he was undiagnosed breech. A pretty unpleasant experience where my heartbeat dropped v low but totally worth it. Xxx

[PineapplePrincess]

Squeeeeeeeeeee! So glad he arrived safely. Sorry to hear about the stressful arrival, can’t have been pleasant. But baby cuddles will be well worth it.

Love the name. He’s so gonna rock that.