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Recurrent miscarriage support - tests, treatment, trying again - thread 8

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Bakingtins · 01/11/2013 07:35

Welcome everyone, pull up a chair! A thread for anyone who has suffered multiple miscarriages and is in need of company, information, moral support, tea or sympathy.

Can I suggest we start page 1 with a recap of where we are all up to, because my fuddled head can't keep track?

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Justonemoretime · 15/11/2013 19:13

Just had one of those moments when everything is great, I feel positive about life, job etc. And then I see a post on FB about how wonderful it feels to feel your baby kick for the first time and I feel like that's something that only gets to happen to other people and I want to have a little cry :'( Feel happy for that person as they have not had a trouble free time, but, still.

Hope everything is OK Tanny? It's always on a Friday when its more difficult to see a doctor, isn't it! If you're near London, there is a walk in EPU at UCLH (Euston) between 9 and 12 noon, you have to check in via A&E. Fingers crossed all is well.

Hot bath and glass of wine tonight, I think (hopefully someday I will wish for those treats and be denied!).

Waves to everyone.

Purplefrogshoe · 15/11/2013 19:24

great news butterfly keeping everything crossed for you tanny Wine for you just , i have removed all my pregnant friends/relatives from my news feed as it was too difficult

butterfly86 · 15/11/2013 19:34

Yes hb was there too I know we aren't out of the woods by a long way but it was nice to have a good scan for a change :)

Tanny I had quite a bit of backache and cramping a couple of weeks ago and still keep getting twinges it's really scary but it can be totally normal I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

Squiz boo to the heavy af but yey to a good lining :)
Just things like that are shit even though it's somebody else's good news, somebody I know whos's had a mc but is now struggling to get pg again posted last night "the things some people take for granted others are praying for" it's so true.

Justonemoretime · 15/11/2013 21:12

Thanks lovely ladies, I really appreciate the support I get from this forum. Great news butterfly btw. Somehow the stories on here are hopeful, probably because we've all been to the dark side. Cheers! X

LateBloomer414 · 16/11/2013 00:12

Hi all, sorry for the radio silence this week. LandsN, thrilled to have your news- what a robust boy! Waves to everyone else, on mobile with a glass of wine in the other hand.
This has been such a hard week for DH. After a great week last week when he was feeling somewhat like a normal person, he started going downhill last weekend. Last night was probably the worst we've had since his cancer diagnosis in June. He was up every 30 mins vomiting and just generally freaking out- he's so worried the cancer has spread. Rationally we know they got everything and nothing could have survive the nuking he got with chemo and radiation. But he was as scared as I've seen him. Today was better and we had a couple friends come round tonight for takeaway which was a wonderful bit of lightness- he did perk up. I know in my head he will be ok but my heart is aching when I watch him suffer as he has been. And honestly I think the fear of having to go through it again is worse than the physical symptoms that have come back with a vengeance. Needles to say out brief visit to SexAgain Town has been cut short which is totally ok. We aren't allowed to TTC until Dec and so, like you Squiz, i was wondering if we should bother. I think we will will, but not on purpose, just kind of letting to happen. Of course this will all need to happen in my childhood bedroom as we'll be with my family at Christmas. Hopefully they've learned how to knock Smile
Sorry for the me me me post, just feeling like we've been put back by a number of weeks and hate seeing DH suffer. We keep remaining each other how lucky we are -and we are- but it feels like we are under that shower of shit again. Boo.

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Bakingtins · 16/11/2013 07:31

Sorry to hear that LB hope it is just a temporary setback. Has he seen his doctors about it? I guess the poor guy is vulnerable to every bug going. Hope next week is better.

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Justonemoretime · 16/11/2013 07:33

LB, sorry to hear you and your DH had such a rotten night. Hope the worst is over and he's back on the mend.

JBrd · 16/11/2013 09:07

LB ((hugs)) So sorry to hear you've been having a hard time, you deserve a medal for the support you're giving your DH. Hope things improve quickly for both of you x

squizita · 16/11/2013 10:40

LB sorry to hear you and DH are having a tough time. It's that fear of it returning that sounds so scary, even though rationally it's OK. I hope everything gets better soon - has he an appointment soon for reassurance perhaps?

tannyLoo72 · 16/11/2013 10:59

LB this sounds like you are an amazingly strong and loving couple. So sorry you're going through this.

Justonemoretime · 16/11/2013 11:01

How are you doing this morning, Tanny?

tannyLoo72 · 16/11/2013 11:20

I think my DH thinks I'm a bit mad. My emotions oscillate between lower than low to cloud 9 and I think he's finding it hard to keep up!

My nausea has returned a bit and I have a few pg symptoms still, but when I POAS this morning the line wasn't as strong as I would like. It was a new batch of internet cheapies and the control line wasn't very strong either.

I'm off to asda later for some proper tests and see what they say.

Thank you everyone for being so understanding. Hmm

Justonemoretime · 16/11/2013 11:22

If there is a line, you are PUPO! :)

tannyLoo72 · 16/11/2013 11:26

Just Grin

squizita · 16/11/2013 12:43

Also Tanny remember the line darkness has as much to do with your wee as anything! One hour your body might be processing the hcg and the line may be faint, the next it's being flushed out via the wee and it's strong. :) Plus hydration and so forth. So a line means PUPO!

nearlyreadytopop · 16/11/2013 14:46

tanny a line is a line.Smile

I have something to share, my period has arrived (explains the grumpiness)Smile Smile Smile . Not usually a cause for celebration but my last one was 6 weeks ago. As dh put it 'I'm nearly normal'Grin. (When not on the pill I have 3 per year)
I want to think of it as a sign that the weightloss and metformin are working. Its making me feel braver about ttc soon.
Sorry if its tmi but I am ridiculously pleased.

LateBloomer414 · 16/11/2013 15:04

Getting back to normal is a good thing Nearly. Tanny it's a PUPO from me Wink
Thanks all for your very kind words. If there is a silver lining here it is that DH and I are stronger and happier that we married each other thank we possibly would have been otherwise, only 18 mths after our wedding. I feel so proud of him. We have an appt with the oncologist this week and she rang us on Thursday after the GP recommended another MRI. She talked us off the ledge but I know he is still worried. He's feeling much better today and I'm grateful for that, I could not have watched him go through another night like that.
We are watching the rugby and I feel this ridiculous need to produce a son for him so they can play sports together. Bring on the TTC days! Oh and we did see the IVF docs last week too - how could I forget! - but it will be the new year until that starts.

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Bakingtins · 17/11/2013 09:23

LB glad your DH is a bit better and hope the oncologist can provide further reassurance this week.

nearly that sounds really positive that your cycles are getting shorter.

Sounds like there will be lots of TTC in the new year and autumn babies for you all Grin

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Purplefrogshoe · 17/11/2013 12:49

tanny PUPO from me too nearly that's good your cycles are getting shorter late I'm glad your DH is feeling better, hope your feeling better just I wonder if any of you ladies can give me some advice?ever since my hcg came back 0, I seem to be losing a lots of hair Confused my hair is really long and I seem to be losing loads at the moment! I have had this before but it was after major surgery! I've never had it after mc or after my dc Shock

squizita · 17/11/2013 13:02

purple happened to me too. I also shed a lot during AF. Think it's to do with progesterone and oestrogen - also some friends of mine get awful hairy when pregnant then get thin fine baby hair for months after.

butterfly86 · 17/11/2013 14:19

Lb hope your dh is ok poor thing has been through so much.

I need a bit of advice even though I should know the drill by now.... I get a lot of leakage because of the progesterone which I'm starting to come to terms with, last night I thought the leakage was ever so slightly tinged brown but had no more so relaxed a bit. When I first got up this morning and most of the leakage comes out there was nothing just normal creamy pessary coloured. Just went to the toilet there and I'd been lying down for a while so a bit came down when I stood up, when I wiped it was definately brown mixed with the pessary stuff :( I've wiped and wiped afterwards and there's nothing else but I'm terrified. When I had my scan (internal) it was a bit uncomfortable so wondering if she caught my cervix as I do have an ectropian or am I just being hopeful and it's the start of something? Im sick :(

Purplefrogshoe · 17/11/2013 15:04

Blush I do hope I don't end up with baby hair, hopefully it's just the hormone thing as you said squizita butterfly sorry no helpful advice but hand to hold

squizita · 17/11/2013 16:06

butterfly call the doc for reassurance BUT I always get brown blood after a fanny-scan (I.e. long after a mc or anything, test scans too) so I hope that is all it is!! Hear it's common.

Purple dont worry, said girlchums aren't harry hill esque... Just moan it's fine and straight! And it clears up soon after.

nearlyreadytopop · 17/11/2013 16:46

purple I cast a lot after ds. It did settle eventually and I didn't really notice any thinness. The hairballs in the plug hole were massive!Smile

tannyLoo72 · 17/11/2013 17:22

Thank you again for your support! I am PUPO and proud!

I have found not having the same brand of tests available really tricky, as I'm producing thin little hardly there lines on my new batch of internet cheapies bastard bloody things and today finally got some more FRER and got a stonking line.

The cramping has subsided, and instead I'm back to nausea and tiredness and farting like windy miller.

All this has made me relax a bit, but I've still got the difficult 6 week mark to get through, and it feels AGES away.

It's a month by date since I started to mc my last pregnancy, and it feels so surreal to be in this position...