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Recurrent miscarriage testing and beyond.. Part 6.. Over here!

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orangebowl · 28/12/2012 18:55

We have filled up the last thread so here is the next.. Deep breath and grit your teeth for the roller coaster of emotions that continues... Hope tea and butterfly and all find it!

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teaandchocolate · 02/04/2013 11:51

I think a small amount of blood looks like a lot when its coming out. It could easily be the bleed coming away. As you've already had a bleed diagnosed and the pregnancy was fine I would definitely not give up on this yet. Try to stay positive as it will help too get through the next few days and look after your DCs. You need to rest and give your DCs a big cuddle and just hope it will be ok...but, as I'm sure you are doing, prepare yourself that it might not. You've got further than you have before though and you have DCs already so too know you CAN do it.

LandsN · 02/04/2013 11:59

Thank you tea luckily my dd loves a cuddle even though my ds is too old for that now or so he thinks! I really hope it is just that and I am over reacting but I think that I have realised if I always think the worst good news is brilliant but bad news has already sunk in if that makes sense!! Thank you all so much for your support xx

teaandchocolate · 02/04/2013 12:02

I am the same!! The only reason thinking positive is good is that it might help you sleep/relax. Although I always get my head around the worst case scenario and find that helps in a way x

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orangebowl · 02/04/2013 12:44

Oh Lands- Friday is such a long time away.. Can you pester them to get it earlier? I think if you go to your GP and say you have bad stomach cramps as well as well as the bleeding they are obliged to see you faster..

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LandsN · 02/04/2013 13:10

I did think Friday is along way off but they don't do a clinic on Thursday and I have no one to have my 2 tomorrow and I wouldn't take them with me. The way I see it though is if it is going to happen before Friday I there is nothing a scan or hospital can do for me so I am better off just seeing how it goes till then, doesn't help that dp is working night but then again we need the money and I can just rest as much as poss! anyway I can always refer back to my mumsnet support lol thanks everyone it really help xx

twentythirteen · 02/04/2013 17:07

Just logged in for a quick catch up and am staggered by the number of posts so sorry if I'm brief!

Baking, I'm sorry about your upcoming anniversaries, they can hit quite hard. Can you prepare for them in anyway? And Tea oh dear we have had a few down days amongst us lately. And yes of course I'm sure I'm both pg and with twins, because the world is perfect and I get what I ask for! Instead I'm having more cm, didn't have any earlier in this cycle so am back to opk's to see if I'm ovulating late. Grrr.

Oh LandsN how worrying, I wish you (all of us) could have well deserved straightforward pregnancies, the clotting is disturbing. I hope the sofa time and dc cuddles ease a bit of the pain and that Friday comes soon. I feel quite emotional at the moment and have to admit I shed a tear reading your posts. The turmoil is hard to keep on top of isn't it.

twentythirteen · 02/04/2013 17:08

I'm so sorry my posts seems flippant now, I typed as I read, sorry, my thoughts are with you LandsN.

GuppieK · 02/04/2013 21:14

LandsN, I just saw your latest posts and I feel so gutted for you that you're going through this. Echoing what others have said, I don't think it means it's all over but I know that you'll be thinking that because of how it's happened previously and I would be the same. The bleeding is horrible and scary. It's shit that this is happening to you and has happened to us all before. You're very brave to hang on until Friday to know although your logic makes sense. There's nothing they can do, it's just whether you can hang on not knowing one way or the other. Hope you're doing okay at the moment. I'll be hoping for you.

LandsN · 02/04/2013 21:19

Hi everyone feeling a bit better tonight thank you for your posts if I get any pain I will demand a scan earlier if not will just hope Friday might bring good news!! Still bleeding but it has stayed brown now since lunch time which makes me feel a bit better xx

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orangebowl · 03/04/2013 07:17

Good that bleeding is now brown Lands and hopefully tailing off. Let us know how you get on today. X

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LandsN · 03/04/2013 07:52

Morning all bleeding is still quite heavy today but is now a dark red I am just going to spend today doing nothing and see how it goes x

butterfly86 · 03/04/2013 16:08

I'm at work so just a quick message for Lands to let you know I'm thinking about you and keeping my fingers crossed everything is ok. This pregnancy has been such a rollercoaster for you let's hope the baby is just a little tinker and giving you a fright! Hope friday comes around quickly for you x

Hope everyone else is ok I'll catch up properly when I get home!

twentythirteen · 03/04/2013 16:37

Hi LandsN I tried to check in from work but the thread is now too large for my phone manage. How are you doing? I'm sorry the bleeding is still going.

LandsN · 03/04/2013 22:11

Bleeding is heavy tonight still no pain ATM think it is too much to be coming from bleed I have already decided if this pregnancy does survive this baby is going to b really naughty hope everyone else is doing ok today xx

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orangebowl · 04/04/2013 07:39

Hope you got some sleep Lands. Most definitely a naughty baby! I am of work today and its school hols so my day will be split between errands ( need more heparin injections so pharmacy visit!) and doing something fun with DS. Just worked out I have 12 weeks I work left till I finish for Mat leave- counting down!

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LandsN · 04/04/2013 16:25

Wow 12 weeks will go so fast I did manage to sleep last night feel soo tired at the mo nervous about scan in morning but at lest it's early don't think I could wait all day still bleeding but a little less now just preying everything is ok and when she said large bleed she meant 5 days of bleeding large just seems so much to loose hope u r all well x

twentythirteen · 04/04/2013 17:35

Def a very naugty baby LandsN! Good luck for tomorrow. What you wrote reminded me of that often quoted description of how little blood we actually lose during af, like a tablespoon or two. I was never able to understand that and how it seems so different, so much more. Maybe this bleeding of yours is like that. Fx.

School Shock at 12 weeks! And am jealous in a good way!

I am cd 17 and 4 or 5 dpo, 6 dpo at a stretch, I don't like how confusing it was this month! I woke up feeling hungry and emotional, as I would with pms, and today started growing two massive pms spots, so I'm feeling less hopeful as previous pregnancies haven't felt like pms. I'll know for sure late next week. In the meantime I dreamed last night that I had a baby, a newborn, and it kind of lived in a bathtub, was a reasonably floaty/swimmy baby, and a tree had grown into the house but OH worked out how to remove it, which impressed me, but when he then thought he could repair the damage caused by the tree I thought he was overestimating is diy abilites! I think this signals the official start of my 2ww madness... oh dear!

LandsN · 04/04/2013 19:06

Ok twenty I never heard that which has made me feel better thank you I can't wait for tomorrow the mixed emotions are too much x

teaandchocolate · 04/04/2013 19:43

Yes Twenty that's what I was trying to get at - a little blood seems like loads when its coming out. Wonder what vivid dreams about babes and trees mean?! Sure it's all probably anxiety related. Hate the 2ww mentalness. Everything is a possible pregnancy symptom if you Google hard enough. I think that pms and pregnancy symptoms are really similar an just because other pregnancies were a certain way doesn't mean much. Although no point in speculating I guess.

Lands I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. Keeping everything crossed that its good news and it was just the end of the bleed. You're being so brave and together about all this.

Wow School 12 weeks is nothing. That's just amazing. Did you have your 2nd 20w scan by the way? Presume all was ok? Have you got a big bump?!

I was feeling very depressed and despondent yesterday morning after no smiley face & because my acupuncturist was talking about clomid the day before. However for some reason I tested again 4 hours later and got a smiley!! Then again this morning & it was really strong. So presuming I ovulated today? Feeling a bit more hopeful now. Although its Cd22 its probably about normal for me. I just hope that really long cycles don't automatically mean mc. Keep forgetting that getting pregnant doesn't even mean that much to me. But as I've said I need to be in it to win it!! I think I'll be on holiday when I test which is probably a good thing whichever way it goes.

Bakingtins · 04/04/2013 19:56

LandsN thinking of you tomorrow. - everything crossed for good news.
Hi to everyone else.

LandsN · 04/04/2013 20:44

Thank you everyone you are all so kind I don't know about brave I just feel that if I crack at the moment It might be for nothing tomorrow will be the decider just hope so much it is ok and tea I do remember you saying that now it just seems so much it's crazy to think it could actually be so little!! Hope everyone else is having a good evening my ds is staying with a friend so only dd at home so just chilling in front of nick jr xx

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orangebowl · 04/04/2013 21:05

Hey everyone. I'm on phone so sorry if I miss anyone...

Lands.. What time is scan tomorrow? (Sorry if you've already said). Will be thinking of you.

Twenty- crazy dream indeed! That did make me giggle! Grr for 2ww

Tea- Yey for smiley face! Somehow feels better to see that doesn't it- kind of like you're in control? Well did for me Smile

No I haven't had my 2nd 20 week scan yet- it's a week tomorrow. And yep I'm finishing work ridiculously early! (will be 32 weeks) but got 4 weeks of holiday to use so using that then starting mat leave. Oh and re. "Have I got a bump"... You could say that! It's huge! So much bigger than with DS. Don't think I was this big with him until 25 weeks at least (though hard to remember).

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LandsN · 04/04/2013 21:11

Hi school scan is at 9.30 but if I am early the are normally running ontime/early which is good will update as soon as I know anything x

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orangebowl · 04/04/2013 22:07

Just had to do one more post to make the thread up to 600! Can't believe we've posted 600 posts!

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orangebowl · 05/04/2013 10:24

Thinking of you Lands. X

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