Hi Hjp and anyone else still here, I've used this board lots since my MMC but now things have stepped up somewhat and I don't know where to turn.
A quick (not) introduction.....
I had a MMC five weeks ago today. I was 10+3 baby measured 10+. I had an ERPC the next day. I continued to bleed for three weeks and continued to get postive HPT's, I also needed a week of antibiotics for a suspected infection. After a few calls to the EPU I was asked to come back in for a scan. I was found to have retained products and told only option was to have another ERPC with a camera, to be carried out by a Consultant. This was done two weeks ago and was physically much harder than the first one.
I was discharged on the same day bleeding heavily and passing grey/white bits (awful). I've bleeding heavily since this, had cramps and passed more tissue. I spoke to my GP who got hold of the Consultant and called me back in last week. I had another scan, inconclusive, womb full of blood and another course of antibiotics. I've also been told I've got fiberiods (small internal and external) plus a cyst on my left ovary. I had my follow scan and appointment yesterday. There is a now a mass in my womb although my Hcg has fallen from 64 to 30 in a week. The Consultant has told me the pregnancy has now been confirmed as a Partial Mole and I've been transfered to Charring Cross for follow up and treatment. I have another appointment next week locally to assess my need for a third ERPC with ultrasound to clear my womb if it doenst happen naturally this week.
I'm just so worried, this was my first and much longed for pregnancy, I'm 40 next month. When I thought I just needed to recover from the first surgery then I could try again I was coping although still heartbroken for the baby I'd lost.
Now I'm just terrified. I'm confused as to why it's taken so long to work out what was going on, I've had nothing but apologies from all the doctors about the delays and I've been offered details for PALS to raise a complaint (not some thing I want to do). I'm frightened about future treatment and so worried that at my age any delay in being able to try again is massively reducing my chances of becoming a mum.
My husband has come to my appointments but is adamant I should not be upset about any of this as the Consultant said I'd be fine after treatment. He's not offered much support after our miscarrige past the first week. He's been very angry with me being so upset firstly about the loss of the baby and latterly about all the ongoing physical problems I've had. He's not very forthcoming with shows of emotions usually but this has really broken me. Whilst waiting for my diagnosis yesterday he booked an overtime trip with work and left for a four day trip to LA at 05.30 this morning.
I don't know what I'm really asking, but if anyone in a similar position or anyone who has been through this wants to compare notes that'd be great, I don't have any girl friends who've had a MMC let alone anyone who even seems to know what a PMP is. I just feel very, very alone.