I have spent the last three days waiting for enough time to do a proper post! Clearly not going to happen so you?re going to get my half-asleep mumblings here.
I ended up going into work to see my boss on Monday. It turned out to be a really good thing - I was very careful to be positive and helpful, and in return she was prepared to be v flexible. We?ve worked out a compromise which includes two extra half days at work, but getting home in time to pick DS1 up from school. So no time lost with the boys beyond what I?d already expected. Not official yet, but no reason to think it won?t happen (beyond paranoia?). Much happier.
F continues to be enchantingly gorgeous and happy and additionally has slept till 5.30am the last three nights. I picked the No Cry Sleep Solution up in a charity shop and realised I was basically shoving a boob in his mouth every time he whimpered, prob before he woke up properly 
. Now I?m trying not to do that, he mostly goes back to sleep. I don?t seem to have learned much on my second baby?
DS1 mostly adorable, occasionally maddening but always interesting. We?ve done some baking and Lego together this week and it?s been great.
Julez I read your recent problems with my jaw dropping. I?m so sorry. Can?t believe things are still being so difficult for you. Poor poor little O, but poor you too. I?m also stuffing avocado down L like there?s no tomorrow but at least I have the option of other stuff. How is he on fruit? And soya stuff? Was wondering about yoghurts and so on. FWIW, my friend?s DD has multiple allergies but had them right from the off - anaphylactic shock from her first mouthful of dairy, that sort of thing. Hopefully O can grow out of his problems, but God it must be heart-rending and so frustrating.
Mumatron I?m normally a bit defensive of MILs, having two boys, but yours is a lunatic 
. I also read your other thread about your ex with my jaw dropping. Weirdly, I saw the title in Most Active and hoped it wouldn?t be you, and then it was!
How did things go with work? You have my full sympathy, this is a horrible process. All weekend I kept looking at F and wanting to cry.
MummyAbroad so glad things are looking up a bit and you?ve found a doctor, even if they do sound scary.
Coconuts Chuffed about your light bulb moment, although - at risk of slipping into drippy therapy-speak - how you feel is how you feel and you have a right to it. Beating yourself up because you feel the ?wrong? way won?t achieve anything other than making you feel worse. You?re scared because, in our shoes, this is scary. The tons of other fab things in your life are great, but go in a separate box. Or that?s how it felt for me, anyway. Hopefully I haven?t talked you out of feeling better 
, just wanted to say you might be mad, but it?s normal-mad.
Glittery Ow. Owowowowowowowowowow. Love and sympathy and hope you?re feeling a hell of a lot better now. Did you manage to keep feeding? My friend had mastitis and her doddery GP told her to stop. La Leche League later told her that was the worst advice possible and she should carry on to stop the engorgement. I know it was horribly difficult for her, though.
LAF So pleased for you. Sending sticky vibes to the giant bean. And it would be nice to think someone did get a pregnancy glow - I just got fat and spotty?
digital fingers crossed here for you, too. It can and will happen.
Lunatic hope you?re feeling better, the Ads are kicking in and the migraines are kept at bay.
Much love to all and waves if I missed anyone.