Recurrent Buns Graduates - Pregnancy and Beyond

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Thought it was about time we had a new home for all those lovely ladies who used to frequent the original Recurrent Buns thread, or anyone else who has been through the hideous journey of miscarriage, recurrent miscarriage, infertility, testing etc. and now finds themselves either pregnant and in need of hand-holding (or better yet) with their long-awaited bundle(s) of joy.

I know it perhaps seems a little inappropriate to start a thread in the miscarriage topic but it still seems the most relevant spot for those of us who haven't yet completed the journey - and nowhere else really seemed right or fair to everyone.

I do hope you'll come along and say hello. I do miss you all!

Wow, so much has happened in my absence, I can't possibly catch up properly, but I am so sorry for being so decidedly absent. Can't remember the last time I was so poorly. 3 courses of antibiotics later, the GP threatened a lancing procedure (didn't think they still did that?), or a stronger course of antibiotics and quitting feeding, because any more of these ones I was taking would have resulted in me having jaundice and/ or liver problems. Thankfully, I finally started to get better a few days ago. I was properly delirious for much of the last week and passed out because feeding was so bloody excruciating, but I'm feeling a bit more normal now. Whoever said breastfeeding was the most natural experience in the world was a liar!

digi and LAF Huge congratulations! I hope all is well with you both.

frazzled Can well imagine your upset about work issues. I hope you get it sorted in a way which suits you. If it weren't for money and the need to retain some sanity, it'd be all too tempting to just sack it all in, wouldn't it? I'll pray that you get a lottery win. Did you get on top of the mouse situation?

MummyA Thanks for the advice. I think I may well have thrush now. Hoovering natural yoghurt and considering booking another appt for treatment once I'm certain. Why do we do it to ourselves? It's a bloody good job babies are so cute and lovely. Sorry if you've already said, but I'm so behind - how's the driving going?

Coconuts And you're surprised about feeling overwhelmed and lacking any semblance of libido why exactly? If it's any consolation, I've been decidedly nunlike for the past few months. Desperately out of character! Sounds as though you've had a hellishly worrying time the past few days. Yes, you need to take it easy and yes, online shopping is the way forward for now. Cleaning windows and all other activities can wait, though if you're anything like me, everything seems suddenly urgent when you can't do it. Be kind to yourself. Also, I'm sure your DH thinks you are as lovely as ever. It's just a pity that being pregnant and feeling hideous aren't exactly conducive to feeling up to it! The last few weeks are really tough. He will just have to wait!!!

Julez Oliver sounds gorgeous. I know it's really tough right now, but I'm sending you hugs and hoping you feel better.

Lunatic So pleased L has broken the 15lb mark. Despite the awful mastitis, we have been really lucky that Iz has continued to grow. She's 9lb 7oz now (after regaining her birthweight) and I'm chuffed that, not only have the baby police left us alone, but that she's actually gained whilst I've been so ill. Makes the excruciating nightmare that was feeding her seem so worthwhile.
My wee man starts pre-school in September and I know what you mean about missing them. If it weren't for Iz, I think I'd probably be beside myself.

Waves to mumatron, Juggling and milkyways. I'm sure I've missed loads of you, but Iz is wittering for a feed again. Love to you all. I will try to catch up and be a bit more present from now on!

very quiet here, hope your all ok?

glittery hopefully your feeling better now? give that darling little girl of yours a big smooshy kiss from me.

not much to report, except my lovely little girl has been swapped with a horrid whiney brat the last few days! today has been a bit better so hopefully what ever has been irritating her has passed

have some time to myself tomorrow so will try a better catch up then.

thinking of you, dh and all 3 dc tonight.

XX

Thinking of you and Daisy too LF

LF Didn't see this yesterday, but thinking of you Hugs to you all xx

Hi all, hope everyone is ok.

LF Hope the anniversary wasn't too hard on you all. You, your family and Daisy have been in my thoughts since I read your post this morning.

mumatron Hope you are ok and E is back to her normal self.

Glittery So sorry to hear the feeding has been a nightmare but glad you are feeling better now. My DD also starts full time preschool in a couple of weeks. Not sure how I'll cope with that and really not sure how the logistics of it will work when the baby comes.

milky have already congratulated you on team blue over on the grads thread but I'll do it again here. Great news :)

digi hope these next coming couple of weeks are uneventful :)

waves to julez mummy and frazzled Hope all is ok :)

Eventful weekend here, for those of you who dind't see my thread, my mum was bluelighted to hospital with suspected heart attack but they didn't find a cause in the end and she was discharged, still suffering pains and palpitations, to be treated via outpatients. Worrying time resulting in me dashing over to local hospital to fetch younger brother to stay at mine.

I spent all yesterday feeling really ill, dizzy and weak, nearly passed out in town so spent the rest of this weekend resting up. This morning awoke with cramps in lower belly and back, intermittent and worrying, but that ended up going away after a lengthy trip to the loo (TMI sorry!) Oh how I love constipation

Next growth scan Thursday morning. Secretly hoping for no change at all so they decide to have me in early. Fingers crossed. Otherwise, still 5 weeks to go....

OK, am rolling up sleeves and preparing for an epic catch-up. Have been either stupidly busy, or busy doing nothing with the DSs for the last few days and haven?t been near the laptop - the one drawback of my new not-very-smartphone is that I can read stuff quite easily, so don?t use the computer much, but it?s a PITA to type much so I save my long messages up and then have to do them in a big SPLURGE.

F continues to grow (picked up another centile this week, so on ninth now, although height lagging a bit), DS1 is preparing for SCHOOL wibble sob my baabbbyyy?

Still wibbling about work a bit, but not nearly so much since I found out that my lovely friend is going to be my new boss . A combination of her, OK hours and a nice new bag is something I might even start looking forward to, who knows??

And yet another wibble: F in his own room tonight, for the first time. I?m not ready, but he?s spilling out of the moses basket and also waking up at 5am every day for an hours? chat. I bought DH this reprehensible book called Go the Fuck To Sleep today (getitgetitgetit is hilarious) and nearly wet myself laughing, but it?s not so funny IRL in the wee small hours.

Lunatic kudos to L on the weight front - he?s only about half a pound behind F. Three times SCBU weight is a seriously satisfying statistic, too. F has also given up on crawling, and rolling (only time he ever did it he fell off the bed, think it discouraged him) in favour of trying to walk. Why are these lads in such a hurry? Also I hadn?t realised your DD1 was off to school too. Is she looking forward to it? DS1 is, but I?m a weird mix of proud and petrified.

Have just read your message about Daisy. I?m SO sorry I missed it last night and didn?t think of her on the right day, but I?m tearing up and thinking of you all like mad now. Sending love.

Julez I?m actually staggered by how much O can do. It?s amazing. Especially given how rotten he must be feeling quite a lot of the time, between teething and reflux. These LOs of ours are tough, aren?t they [proud emoticon].
And so are we, of course. How are you feeling ATM?

digital Am keeping fingers crossed that things are OK and your next scan is boringly normal.

mumatron Hope the aliens have returned your lovely E to you. Was it her teeth? And was most impressed to read of all your social activities. My brother and lovely SIL-to-be were here last night for a takeaway and a few drinks and I?ve been knackered all day?

milkyway (Belated) congratulations! Fabulous news! Interesting (and of course lovely) that you?re having a boy - we do seem to run to mostly boys on this thread, don?t we?

juggling mama Congratulations to you too, on the pregnancy and having the patience to wait for a surprise . Look forward to reading your birth announcement.

Glittery you poor love, I got as far as the word ?lancing? and had to stop to register my extreme horror and sympathy. Will now read the rest of your message and hope to god things pick up.

?Right. V glad they did, and you are obv another tough woman. I saw my friend go through mastitis and turn grey at every feed with the pain, so I know what you?ve been through. Am sending a virtual hug even though it was over days ago.

Iz deserves a big squidge for gaining so well and not giving you something else to worry about. Did the Abs make her sick? F was sick for weeks when I was on ABs, to the point that I almost decided to just put up with the tonsillitis if he didn?t stop soon.

Mice officially gone, BTW. Muchly relief all round.

Coconuts Oh no! How?s your mum now? Hope things improve over the next couple of days, and you get the right result at the scan on Thursday.

Waves to lucky and everyone I?ve missed.

Morning ladies!

frazzled which phone have you got? I got my iphone on Fri last week (yay) but still getting used to keyboard, I have made so many silly funny typos when talking to friends on msn/fb lol! I am doing okay, Counting down the days until we can have some routine back and the older two go back to school. A is bored out of his mind and playing up horribly, he has me in tears every other day I swear, and he wasnt happy with ring getting stuck on his finger, broken arm, he sliced his hand open whilst we were at my mums at the weekend which was pretty scary! 4yr olds are mad lol So hes all bandaged up again now with stitches and a bandage to keep it clean!

lunatic Have been thinking of you this week, hope DS and DD are keeping you smiling :)

mumatron hows E doing? I love her latest pic I saw on fb, her hair is amazing! O still has very little! He loves to pull mine though!

coconuts Good luck for thurs, fingers crossed you get what you want!

glittery hope you are feeling better now, sounds real tough on you!! Hope Iz is being all calm and serene for you :)

waves to everyone else!!

Oliver seems to have leaps loads the past week or so, he learnt how to clap hands, crawl and just yesterday pulled himself up on the sofa! Fairly certain he will be walking by christmas!! He needs to slow down!

julez walking by xmas? It looks like he'll be walking next month!

lf hope dd1's birthday wasn't too painful for you all.

frazzled glad you won the mouse war!

coconuts how's your mum? I've been keeping an eye out for an update. Hope all is well.

E is pretty much back to her cheery self. No new teeth so lord knows what the prob was

She's turning into a proper little comedian. She's started to dance when she hears music, it's very cute.

I'm half hoping she gets on with walking before I go back to work next month because I can't stand the thought of missing her first steps

Off out for dinner with the mother later. Should be nice.

lf I'm sorry dd2's birthday.

mumatron she's ok, doing things she shouldn't be and won't listen. Still having th epain and palpitations but the spray stuff is helping until the appts come through.

E sounds scrummy :)

julez definitely sounds like walking may be sooner than xmas. :)

How quick are these babies growing up hey!

julez I just saw the video I'm glad E isn't that quick onto her feet. I'm defo going to enjoy this less mobile time for a while straps eliza into chair

coconuts good to hear she's ok. Does she have a date for appt?

mumatron nope no appt date through yet. I expect it'll take a few weeks, which is unfortunate. I just wish she would listen to me. She cleaned the house top to bottom the other day and cleaned the patio area despite being in pain all the time and even though my bro offered to do it.

And it's even more annoying that I can't help her do it. Just bad timing on all accounts I suppose.

Ah lunatic That sounds just lovely, what a perfect way to mark the occasion. :) Bittersweet I expect, but appropriate and lovely to involve dd1 and L.

lf what a lovely thought, daisy up there, playing with her balloons.

coconuts bit suprised that the appt isn't quicker. I would have assumed heart issues would be dealt with asap. The stress. Must be hard on all of you.

I'm in absolute agony tonight, pain in my jaw. I really need to get to sleep but the pain killers are not touching it. Looks like I'm off to the dr's in the morning.

mumatron I've given my little chunkster a big smooshy kiss from you and she cooed and gurgled. She's just started smiling and it makes me melt. She's such a good baby. I feel very, very lucky. Oh God, I think I'm broody again already. Aaaaagh. Hoping it's just residual hormone overload! How I can possibly feel this way after that birth and the hideous mastitis I have no idea. I'm wrong in the head. Perhaps it's some sort of post-traumatic stress disorder!

If it's any consolation, you aren't alone with the whiney brat saga, though it sounds like E's come out of it the other side now. The dancing sounds really cute. DS is playing up right now. He took ages to get the hang of toilet training, but finally nailed it completely in one week (including dry nights straightaway) only to be having a really bad blip of a day today. I'm trying to remain calm and not shout at him after no sleep whatsoever, but it's not easy when cleaning up poo from the floor for the second time this morning! I really wanted him to get the hang of it before pre-school but, with him being a July baby and one of the youngest, I reckon they are just going to have to make allowances for the odd hiccup. Hopefully, he'll be perfectly behaved for them, even if he isn't for me.

Hope your jaw gets better soon. Doesn't sound good at all.

Lunatic So sorry I wasn't here to offer cyber hugs. I did think of you and Daisy and shed a little tear at your balloon story. What a perfect way to remember her. Felt completely choked at DD1's belief that Daisy is catching them. What a wonderful thought. Snivelling again now. Bloody hormones. Lots of love to all of you. I can hardly believe it has been 2 years.

Coconuts Nothing like throwing every possible worry under the sun at you, is there? I hope your Mum is okay. You really have enough on your plate. Hope you are feeling a little better in yourself, too. I felt at my very worst in pregnancy with about a month to go and then suddenly perked up and felt massively better in the final 3 weeks or so, aside from the twinges. I hope this happens for you (not the horrible twinges, obviously). I can only assume it was because the bump (although low with the weight anyway!) finally shifted and dropped a little further. I stopped feeling quite so dizzy and sick and found I could actually breathe when reading DS his bedtime story. I think big bumps just have a tendency to make you feel strange at this stage, however you're carrying them, but the anxiety about everything doesn't exactly help. Try to find some you time to relax. I know it's not easy, but it sounds as though you need it. Mind you, if you're anything like me, you'll be trying to keep as busy as possible right now. You'll be snuggling your little person in no time at all.

frazzled Yey for F! Wonderful news. Sounds as though he's really coming on in leaps and bounds now. I'm with you on the wibbling about DS starting school. I bought his uniform the other day and he looks so cute, but too little somehow. I'm also spending as much time as is humanly possible squeezing my little lady. She's already the size of a 3 month old and, whilst I know that's great, she's my last and I'm already panicking that I'm not definite about stopping now. I really must get a grip. I'm terrible at pregnancy, truly terrified about the prospect of another labour like that and, given that I've had mastitis with both kids, I'm guessing there's a trend there too. Add to that the anxiety about everything and I can't believe I could even entertain the thought that I'm not finished. DH keeps giving me a look everytime anyone asks me if I'm done. I notice he hasn't booked the vasectomy he was thinking of getting as soon as DD arrived though. He's quite smitten with his little lady!

I was interested in your comment re sickness. I was beginning to think I just had a sicky baby, but maybe there's something in the ab's being to blame. Mind you, she's a greedy little monkey. I think she has a tendency to think that every upset is resolved by feeding. She tends to overeat and then send half of it back at me, but she certainly seems to be piling it on.

Very pleased to hear the mice have gone now. It's horrible to share your home with pests.

Well, the mastitis seems to have gone but I still have a lump in my boob and it's still really uncomfortable to feed - on both sides actually. Not being very experienced with bfing, I'm not sure if that's normal and I should just expect my boobs to be sensitive until I pack it in, but I'm not sure how women continue for so long if it always feels like this. Perhaps I should get checked out for thrush after all. So sick of waiting rooms and medical appts though!

Julez O sounds like a little delight. On the one hand, I can't wait until Iz reaches these milestones. On the other, I just want her to stop at the stage she's at so I can continue to enjoy the newborn snuggles. I have no idea where the past 4 and a half weeks have gone. Blink and you miss it.

Waves to digi, LAF, lucky and anyone else I may have missed. Hope you are all doing okay.

So, DS starts afternoons at school in two weeks and I've decided to go back to work part-time for those hours. Thankfully, I can take Iz with me because it's a family business, but I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't rather just snuggle up with her on the sofa and absorb every second of those newborn cuddles. It all seems to be going far too quickly this time around. I can only imagine it's because I've convinced myself that this is my last chance. I really hope the hormones calm down and I become a bit more rational soon. I think most people I know would run a mile if I said I was thinking of doing it again! Besides, the house is far too small as it is...
Having said that, it felt positively wrong to start taking the pill again. I felt genuine guilt at first. Finding it really hard to switch off the, 'I must get pregnant' mentality.

Don't know if I've done it right, but I've added a pic of my funny-looking little munchkin to my profile page. She still looks nothing like any of us and hasn't lost the crazy hair.

Hello, just a quick post from me. I've graduated from St. Mary's today. I had my final scan there and baby was measuring 11 weeks, 5 days ahead. Baby did a little dance on the screen for me. I'm dumbfounded that I'm still pregnant.

I feel like I'm walking around in a daze. I did go to Topshop afterwards and buy a pair of black maternity trousers. 4 days in Rome have made it more difficult to fit into my trousers.

Fab news, so pleased for you!

My scan is a week today. Still far enough away for me to not be worrying about it

quick one. thank you glittery your picture of your scrummy dd just put a much needed smile on my face. been a few tough days....

Glittery that pic gave me a massive broody-hormone rush. She is a beauty and that smile makes your heart flip. Well done you

And LAF, am thrilled for you. Wonderful stuff.

Just checking in to do a little dance of glee for LAF. I'm thrilled for you. I know how bloody difficult it is to psyche yourself up for scans and also how hard it is to accept that things can go well. Big pat on the back for having the courage to bite the bullet and buy maternity wear. I found that a real hurdle in itself.

This has to be your year. You deserve it so much and I'm over the moon for you.