Despite my promises to keep up, I'm shuffling in shamefacedly to do another mega catch up. 
mattsmama Sounds as though you are on enough medication to rattle when you walk. Fingers crossed it all pays off. It sounds as though you are in capable hands with Dr Shehata, though I appreciate that doesn't help with the previous losses. Still, it must be reassuring to see some light at the end of a long tunnel.
digi I never actually went down the acupuncture route due to cost, but I was seriously considering it at one point when my cycles were just all over the shop. I am fully expecting them to go utterly haywire again after pregnancy, so I'm hoping to feel that my family is complete if I get a take home baby at the end of this. I don't think I can take the stress again anyway. Ironically, I've been warned that I may be super fertile now that I'm apparently 'working' again. Without a concrete diagnosis of any kind, I still don't really know what my problem was, or why the clomid sorted me out straightaway. I wish I had answers to some of my questions, so I could help others - if nothing else, but they don't seem to be interested in cause so much as effect.
It sounds as though there has been a marked improvement since you started treatment. Mind you, I don't suppose it's much consolation to correct your cycles and assist your conception rate if you then have the horror of mc to dread. There are so many hurdles to contend with when facing RMC and infertility. I don't know which is worse. But, good news on the appt with Dr S. Every cloud has a silver lining. Like you, I always went with the theory that it's better to be having sex than be depressed about not doing it. I also charted and temped like an obsessive maniac. My poor DH has really had his work cut out for him over the past couple of years! Oddly, he still seems to have an awful lot of tolerance. Okay, so I've just caught up and read about your experience with Dr S. Sounds wonderful to be finally getting somewhere. You must feel as though a weight has been lifted. I know it's only the start of the journey, but really chuffed for you anyway. Very interested to read about his take on NK cells.
Hairy That does sound fairly positive on the egg front. Yey for being unusual! I think you're right to go down the RMC route for now, with the knowledge that there is the option of IVF in the future. Hope you had a lovely holiday. As I recall, the LH/ FSH levels should shed some light on the quality of the eggs you have in reserve. All I remember from having my own tested is that they like them to be as close to each other as possible in terms of value, but the fact that yours are in normal range is a great sign. It's also great that you have such a positive outlook on it all. Fingers crossed you get the answers you are after soon. When you mention that they will scan your ovaries/ womb, do you mean that they will carry out an HSG? An ultrasound won't show up anything clearly enough for them to give you a definitive answer on this. Seems a bit odd if they've scanned you a total of 7 times in the past and never considered this option, if not.
Iggi I remember that feeling of pinning all your hopes on one thing. Don't be afraid to fight for a second opinion. If I hadn't eventually given in and done so, I certainly wouldn't be where I am now. I wouldn't take one consultant's view about Quenby as correct. All these medics seem to have wildly conflicting views and it's often just a case of finding the right one for you who will actually listen to your plight. I love my GP, but if I'd stuck with his initial Victorian approach to conception, I reckon I'd never have conceived again! Okay, so I've just read your update on Dr S. That's great news. Hope it helps you as much as it seems to be helping others.
Claire The wait for your appt sounds like hell on earth. I hope you're getting somewhere with them now. What a joke! I fully relate to the breaking down in front of receptionists. FWIW I'm really glad that happened. Obviously, it was no fun for you, but they need to be aware just how utterly dreadful this is for people trying to deal with this sort of thing and have a normal life at the same time.
LAF I'm really saddened to hear how down you've been, but it's not really surprising given all that you've been through. I have continued admiration for your ability to get through the days and the fact that you've continued to pester St Mary's, despite their increasingly disheartening organisation, or lack of it. I always found it so hard to pester people for fear that I came across as a nuisance, but you're absolutely right to do it. You never get anything in this life unless you ask...and then ask some more. I'm not surprised it feels a bit like hitting a brick wall until you get that letter. Without it, there is no means of closure or progression for you and the reaction to you forgetting your laptop sounds so familiar. There are triggers for your grief around every corner when you least expect them. I can relate to having to see pregnant family members very well. Absolutely awful when you're in complete turmoil inside. But...I've just read that you FINALLY got your appt. How behind am I? Wonderful news for you. It's a start, as you say. It's something to look forward to. Fingers and toes well and truly crossed for you and let's hope the next 3 weeks or so past quickly.
kittens Whether it is infertility or RMC you're dealing with, it is utter shite as you say. No one should have to contend with either and I understand how utterly awful the fear of RMC is if you conceive easily, just as I empathise with those who can't at all. It's not exactly peachy being in either camp. It removes all the magic of the BFP for those who eventually get it and all the fun of pregnancy - for those who eventually make it that far. But, I agree with you that it's easier to feel frustrated with people in RL who have no concept of what either feels like. I'm not saying I want more people to experience such hell. I'm just saying that people can say the most absurdly insensitive things when they are still blissfully ignorant enough to think that sex = pregnancy = baby. My own family is a prime example of this! Hang in there and have a hand to hold in the meantime.
confu3ed I cannot believe you are having to go right back to square one after already being at the point where you've received help from a fertility clinic. Can't you get a referral back to the same clinic to pick up where you left off, or do they only assist with conception and nothing else? Seems a bit narrow-minded if that is the case!?
As ever, the whole system just seems utterly barbaric if you don't fit the 'one size fits all' clomid mould that they seem to have adopted. As I said, I STILL don't know what was wrong with me and the fact that they seem against the idea of researching why we have these issues rather than applying a quick medicinal fix (a fix for some people anyway) seems a bit worrying at times like this. Surely the people who helped you to get pregnant in the first place should be seeing your treatment through and helping when it goes wrong. How many other women in your position are being turned away and told to wait, I wonder? It doesn't bear thinking about. Have you looked into how much it would actually cost to go private? I'd be tempted to see a different GP - if yours can't get you a quick referral (preferably a female one, who has a greater awareness of the emotional impact this could be causing) and see if they can't speed things up a little for you. I'm so sorry you're having to contend with this on top of everything else. Talk about dangling a carrot in front of you.
Welcome harrassed though I'm obviously sorry you find yourself here. The 3 miscarriage rule is utterly barbaric in my humble opinion and I hope you manage to find a way around it. I think women intuitively know when there's a problem, particularly when they've managed to have a healthy pregnancy in the past. It almost makes you want to lie, doesn't it, even though one miscarriage is more than enough for anyone to have to deal with.
However, even if you can't get some of the fancy private testing, it certainly wouldn't hurt for your GP to do a few basic hormone tests to check there's nothing awry with your cycle. These include LH/FSH levels (to check hormone levels/ quality and quantity of egg reserves) between days 1-3 of your cycle, testosterone and prolactin (which most GPs will test as a matter of course when testing other hormones as too much of either can have adverse effects on your ability to conceive and sustain pregnancy) and progesterone (to check you are ovulating properly and the progesterone levels rise sufficiently after ovulation to conceive and maintain pregnancy. Hope this helps a bit.
justmee so sorry to hear that you've been given such an awful decision to make. I would echo other sentiments that you should definitely wait for your nuchal results to come back before making any decisions about intrusive tests, which could potentially be more harmful than good. I realise that's very easy for me to say, but you may find that your blood results come back as being low risk. The fact that a nasal bone was present is very reassuring - at least in terms of Downs syndrome being unlikely. Very rarely will a nasal bone be visible at this point if that is the problem. The 20 week scan will give you a much clearer picture of what is going on, although I fully understand that that's a hell of a long wait for you at the moment. Is there any chance you can another scan between 16-18 weeks to see if they can get a clearer picture then?
I've just copied this off the babycentre website for you. I thought it might be of some comfort before you make any rash decisions.
'An increased NT does not mean there is definitely a problem. Some babies without Down's have increased fluid, too. Nine out of 10 babies with a measurement between 2.5mm and 3.5mm will be completely normal (Nicolaides et al 1999).'
Can I ask, were you bang on 12 weeks when you had your scan? If your dates are even slightly out, the NT can be very dubious. For example, if you are actually a week ahead, the fluid increases. This is why you can only have an accurate nuchal test up to 13 weeks and 6 days.
Coconuts Massive congratulations to you on getting to the 2nd trimester. I'm really, really pleased for you. Wishing you a few more uneventful and happy months ahead.
Waves to Mummy and anyone else I've missed. Hope all you new Mums are coping too. I'm missing you all, but I really hope that no news is good news and your babies are all thriving.
Bit of a rotten time at my end. Was in hospital yesterday being monitored because I'm bleeding again. The baby's heart rate is fine. My BP is fine (quite surprisingly, considering I'm a gibbering wreck) and my cervix is closed. All good news, but I'm very frightened. They eventually sent me home and told me I'd be fine because the bleeding had turned brown. Unfortunately for them, experience tells me that any kind of bleeding is not fine in pregnancy. I don't think doctors like me and my general 'awareness' about all this very much. They seem to prefer people who do as they are told and don't have any concept of what may/ may not be wrong in there!
I'm tired of people telling me that brown or pink is okay when I had a week of that before my last mc.
I'm trying very hard to be rational and brave, but I can't bear the thought of another 18 weeks of worry, assuming I get that far. They've told me I'm yet another week ahead of my dates although that puts my fundus height 3 weeks behind and this gave them cause for concern. When I tried to explain that I knew exactly when this baby was conceived due to fertility treatment, they just ignored me. I have been told that this is likely to happen again if I've had bleeding throughout and that, although my placenta is considered to be anterior, it is fairly low. Having said that, everyone seems to have a different opinion - there were two conflicting theories about my baby's heart rate on either side of the same page - and they couldn't scan me because it was a Sunday, so how they can determine where my placenta is just by looking at me is beyond me. I've continued to bleed today, although I can still feel little wriggles. I keep telling the little one to hang on in there, but I feel ever so slightly hopeless about it all, when my visit should have reassured me. It's very difficult to know how often/ when to seek medical assistance when they send you away with the reassurance that it's okay. How long will it be okay for and when should I go back? When it's too late? I just don't really know what to do with myself, but I'm hoping and praying that all will be well, which is all I feel I can do at this point. Sigh. Sorry for the endless waffle! Love to all. xx