Woohoo! Shiny new thread for us all. I've brought chocolate biscuits and a mug of tea. Had to put the whisky down unfortunately...
Can't believe how much has happened in a few short hours. I'm sorry if this post covers a lot of ground that has already been covered here while I've been in loonville, but I've been trying to catch up with both threads, so this could be a bit of a jumble, much like my head!
Thank you all of you for being so bloody marvellous. It's lovely to have the support here as I daren't even tell my Mum in RL!
Welcome hairy and battery. Sorry you had to join us, particularly on a day that felt very me, me, me. I'm sure I've spoken to you both on previous threads before. Hope neither of you has to stay here too long.
frazzled How sweet are you, squeaking at work? I was actually going to change my name for the announcement (you know when you fantasise about this sort of thing for months before it happens!) , but it came to it and I was just too scared of jinxing it. I'll get there when I dare to believe it might happen! You are a brave lady taking on the Christmas lunch. Sounds like my former job! Hope they start behaving for you, or you'll have to just threaten to cancel Christmas!
Love the Victorian Chimney sweep analogy btw. My DS is exactly the same right now!
Julez Bless you for making your DH think you'd gone insane by telling him some random cyber woman's pg news! I'm so impressed with your bump, which seems to be taking over the world. No wonder you've had a hard time sustaining such a little chubster!
Thanks for your kind words and s Coconuts. I know my name seems a bit miserable right now, but I really feel that to change anything might jinx everything. Funny how I'm suddenly the world's most superstitious person!
TBH never having a diagnosis only really got me down last week when I was told my progesterone levels were normal, because it was the only thing that had ever been abnormal and a normal result made me think I had been fine for ages, but still couldn't get pg. I'm not sure what's worse: having a problem with a name that you hope can be fixed, or a process of trial and error to try and get to the bottom of an unknown issue.
Now I think I've always been a miniscule step away from peak fertility and just needed rebooting. I can't help but wonder how this might have been if I'd been given Clomid last March when I initially went to the doctor. Certainly makes me wish I'd been a little more pushy at the time and I urge you to do the same. I'm really sorry about your hideous appt. No wonder you feel down and I'm irritated with your doctor for making you feel even worse. There might not be an absolute cure, but there are plenty of people with PCOS who have got pregnant, so why shouldn't you? Posh Spice is a prime example of a woman who struggles with this condition and has conceived 3 times, although I'm obviously aware that she probably has access to some top flight healthcare. Have you considered seeing another doctor and telling them that you've been ttc for 18 months? This should not have to be a case of put up and shut up. It's your body and your life and, as this doctor said, the condition can't be cured, so what does it matter if you're young? It's not going to go away just because you get a bit older. I really would see someone else. Don't give up without a fight.
Just read your next few posts and it is just a reminder of everything that irritates me about GPs. They are NOT specialists in fertility and have no real idea about fertility drugs anymore because they aren't able to prescribe them. I seriously think they are rationed on the amount of people they are allowed to refer, as they seem to be very good at fobbing off women with this problem. What I would say is that if you are not ovulating, this is a medical problem in itself, regardless of whether or not you are TTC. Long term, this could present with other health issues - as you've already discovered - including osteoporosis and cancer. A lack of ovulation at this stage basically puts you into a menopausal category. Women going through the menopause are given HRT to cope with it. Why should your case be any less important because you want a baby. How very dare you for wanting your body to do what it's supposed to! Sorry for the rant. This is one of my biggest bugbears.
FWIW I think it's great that you are getting a gynae referral. With any luck that is a foot in the door and I'd badger that gynae consultant to death about the fact that you are also desperately TTC and have been for a LONG time. Emphasise that point as much as you feel able and don't feel remotely afraid of having a bloody good cry on them. You may very well find that your predicament is heard in the right surroundings. I'm not sure that the pill would do anything other than put your mind at ease right now but, even if gives you a bleed, it is comfort that things are working on some level. You have my every sympathy. This sucks and I fully understand how hard it is to find anyone in RL who cares or get it. Keep talking to us and stop thinking your problems aren't valid. They are very valid and supporting each other is what we're all here for. Hugs.
Lunatic I am quite barking mad at this point, but in a really happy way. I've been doing a lot of daydreaming! Yesterday I didn't really believe it. Today, I had a hideous moment when I tested with FMU and got what looked like an evap line, which led me to believe I was having a chemical pg. The horror of potentially losing my pg after only a day was greater than I ever imagined. When I'd calmed down and needed a wee again, I tested again and realised that the first one had been dodgy. Silly internet cheapies! I've also had confirmation from a digital today. Somehow seeing the word 'pregnant' has given me permission to start accepting it and I may even ring the ACU to let them know tomorrow, if I feel brave enough. I've only done 3 tests today, as opposed to the millions few I did yesterday. Thank you massively for all the s and teary support.
Mummy I'm getting there. It's all a bit surreal. I keep having to tell myself it's happening and even then I'm paranoid everything will go wrong in a few days.
banana I'm with Mummy. It might be a bit of a horrible thing to do, but I'd pee on a stick and rule out pg first and foremost. This could just be your body's irritating way of flushing itself out and getting back to normal, but I really empathise with the emotional rollercoaster that it puts you on.
Waves to digi, Lady, mumatron and everyone else I may have missed.
I eventually had to tell DH my news over the phone because he's away until tomorrow and I couldn't take another 24 hours of silence. We haven't been able to have the excited announcement that we had last time, although I think we both expected that really. We're now trying to be as rational and pragmatic as we can. Ha! Today I am 4 wks and 1 day (by my estimations). I reckon I'll get a scan between 7 and 8 weeks, which should be just before Christmas. Just need to try and stay sane between now and then. It's quite mad that if this works, I will have seen this baby as a follicle. It's also a comfort to know that, unless the egg decided to be a cheeky one, that there's only one in there. Now I just need to see a hb - who am I kidding? - when I can hold the baby in my arms I might just believe it. Right, will try to stop talking about it now.