Hi everyone, I don't know where to post this message. I got a Christmas present from fellowmumsnetter yesterday! I remember receiving an email asking me for my address but I was a bit scepital, think I watch too many 'Real Hustle'.. so I asked weeonion and GMM about it, they told me don't worry it's not anything dodgy but then with so much in my mind I just forgot about the email and didn't reply. I don't know how but someone must have tried and this present finally arrived...I just want to say THANK YOU. REALLY..it really put a big smile on my face, knowing that there are people out there thinking of me and there are people who are very caring and very kind.
Those I have not met, I want to say thank you and hopefully we will meet very soon.
I have to admit that I am not in very high spirits like most people would at this time of the year but I am not miserable, I do cry but i do smile and laugh..I think that's the only way to live my life.
I put up a Christmas Tree and bought a bauble for James. I went to St' Mary's church in Great western rd on Sunday, there was a service organised by Yorkhill for parents who lost their children, it was very good, I am not a church person but it was good. I also went to Robin House on Wed to visit all the staff and Jim Jim's wee friend and his mum...he's 16 months old now and everyday is precious to his mum..I got to hold him too, it was lovely, his mum took a pic for us. .His mum and I talked and shared alot...I think we shared similar views..our sons made us better people and we have both come to terms with their condition...it's unnatural to see your child died before you and when that happened to you it's harder than anything in life , I am trying to upset anyone but having the chance to see your child growing up healthy and happily is priceless, really.
I promised Jim Jim that mummy will be strong and be brave just like you and I really don't like myself feeling depressed and being miserable so I am trying to live my life just like everyone else, and just like all of you I love my son more than yesterday but less than tomorrow.