Tonight I haven't slept. My alarm goes off in less then an hour for me to start the day. I have discovered rather a lot of determination to do this right. Do this properly. I need to lose this weight. I need to stop this blood sugar swing craziness. It is not enough to have got to a point where i now eat 3 meals a day rather then avoiding food. It is not enough to know that I need to sleep properly and drink enough water. I need to do this right.
I am about to go find some breakfast. A couple of eggs scrambled with some buttered leeks and a cup of coffee.
I am going to take some baby bel to training with me.
As I shall probably sleep through lunch (let's be realistic), i shall have a very early lunch of a salad - which I shall make before i leave to go. Probably lettuce, celery, mayo, cheese and some ham
I am not sure what tea is going to be but I am thinking that it needs to be something mince based, possibly spag bol kind thing without the pasta. Easy to do for the carb eaters, easy to add to extra veg for me.
Am all stretched out and feeling ridiculously awake atm. I know this isn't going to last but I only have to get to 10am and then the majority of my compulsory part of the day has been done. The rest of it can be done to fit me thank goodness
This re-focus sees me starting from 73kg again. Damm it I am going to lose that last 10kg. I need to. Just one more way to keep the over all pain levels down!!! Perhaps this will even see me finally find some sort of order and structure to the things that most people take for granted; food and sleep. Something I can't even remember when I last managed properly. Probably before my first bout of chronic fatigue nearly 20years ago. God I have I really right royally fucked my body up for so long?
Today is a new day, a new start and a new way!!!