Evening/morning.
Just SMS as am having a bad time just now with the chocolate. Should NOT have convinced myself that having a little 85% was ok, it wasn't. :(
But have just had to try having leeks as spaghetti instead of courgette, as DH used my last courgette in the mince thing (he said, despite having seen me fry up my "courgetti" for the last several times we've had it, "Oh I didn't realise that's what you had"
). Anyway - leeks, cut lengthwise into strips no wider than 1cm, fried in butter until they've softened, then add a little water and keep cooking until the water is gone (sautéeing, I suppose!) makes a pretty decent alternative. Just as well!
But have also been heavy on the wine - even went wine-tasting yesterday (which was fab, I have to say, and we went to a vineyard that had a "buy 6, get 6 free" offer on so got a great deal on some very decent wines). I'm going to pay for it on the next weigh in. All I can do though is say "tomorrow is another day" and start again with the willpower and no sugar/wine/chocolate. I'm staying off the other carbs - no starches, no pasta, no spuds, no bread - just having serious "chocolate" issues.
I know I've fucked up massively and screwed my sugar addiction again - I know I've self-sabotaged and I'm not impressed with myself. I have also now realised I have a lot more emotional attachment to sugar/chocolate than I actually realised, which is a step forward I suppose - just need to work out how to deal with that. :(