Evening my lovelies. Well, I have had a completely rotten arse today, for no apparent reason, and I think I have a bloody internal pile which has made it feel like a shard of glass is lodged up there..... (no shame emoticon) Have slathered copious amounts of anusol about the place and am feeling better now.
Almost hit the bastard roof earlier when I decided to call and chase up the young peoples housing/support folks who are supposedly looking after ds1's application for supported accommodation. Bugger me if the freakin' idiot women hadn't done totally the wrong thing. When we had the initial assessment, and they agreed to put him on 'the gateway' we specifically asked that all correspondence came to me, and stressed how dangerous it would be for ds if it went to his address as we couldn't vouch for the reactions from unstable family members who would see this as ds betraying/snitching etc. Well yep, you guessed it - they'd sent all the correspondence there, and then discharged him as he wasn't engaging with the service. I spoke to ds who immediately freaked out, because he hadn't seen anything, and is terrified my mother has stolen the mail and read it (entirely plausable) and worried he's lost the chance to escape. Gah. I'm so fucking livid. I have aired my grievance on the phone today to the duty social worker, and will speak to the manager and the original fuckwitt tomorrow morning first thing. I think a formal complaint is in order, as we stressed it was a safeguarding issue not to contact ds' address under any circumstance. I can't quite believe this has happened.
On a much more positive note, I have this evening been put in touch with a breeder of chihuahuas who has a few girl pups we can choose from.... they are insanely beautiful, and I can feel all smug about it cos I went through the proper channels and spoke to nice breeder lady people and everything, as opposed to going and buying off pets4homes like a knobhead and my divine dp has said he will pay for it and I can pay him back, as he's more wedged than I am as a lowly dog walker. The only snag is the woman lives in flipping Bedforshire.... a mere four hours drive from mine
but fuck it, I don't mind a road trip. Looks like it may be happening imminently.... eek eek eek.
On the food front, I am very much in the swing of things - just keeping on keeping on. My body is so unforgiving that if I stray one whit from the course of correctness, I immediately gain. If I stay on the path of righteousness, the scales go down down down. I'm currently around the 107 kilos mark, down from 109 a couple of weeks ago. I think that's steady and sustainable.
I did have a terrible 'I am an ugly pig moment' today though, when a friend emailed me with a photo she'd taken of us. I feel quite pissed off with this friend at the moment. She's been very unsupportive of my woe - fine fuck that, we'll not discuss it. In the past she'd been vehemently anti technology, until she got an ipad and joined instagram, and is now doing wanky selfies all the fucking time and trying to get me to join. She took a selfie of her in my car and me driving. Obviously I couldn't do my special pose or anything, but she said it was great. Cue me opening my mail and there's a picture of her looking awesome, and me looking like an escaped troll. I am not exaggerating, I am very capable of loving my photos when I look hot, but this was just appalling. I'm seriously hacked off, and not going to let her take anymore.
On that note, I took another selfie of my nekkid self. And correct me if I'm wrong, but this pic feels like I have gone 'jumbly'....
Phew.... that was a mega shit shout. I have had no time to do nuthin' proper.... that's half term with the kids and work getting busy! Excuse my self indulgent ways.