Hello there you lovely lot.
Well it's been another unbelievably hectic week and I'm being so bad at keeping up contact . Just back from work after heaving 14kg worth of cardboard box up 4 flights of stairs for my imminent move. Well hey, I need the exercise.
belle hope you don't mind me shoving my oar in here but I've read your posts and can see you are feeling down. Gymboy sounds like a prize cunt. I realise that sounds rather harsh but his behaviour is right out of order.
Now to overshare!
I had a similar 'to do' with my now and forever exbf. He instigated getting back together (end of August-ish) and was coming out with stuff along the lines of 'Oh, lets take 'DS' out somewhere together', 'I really want to go on holiday with you', 'I just love being with you' and (clincher), 'I always hoped things would work out between us'. Suffice to say there had been issues before which led to the end of the relationship. Detailed on previous single threads which I'm sure you could find if you wanted
Well, more fool me and hmming and soul seraching and what have you, and after lots of lovely thoughtful behaviour on his part which made me think he was making a real effort to change I thought 'yes, give it another go'. At this point his behaviour just changed. Not that I announced 'Hey we are now officially back in a proper relationship now' but somehow it did.
Anyway after a week of this 'behaviour', after I quite reasonably demanded to know what was he playing at acting the twat, he announced 'I just don't feel I can be in a relationship right now'.
I was incredibly hurt and bloody furious (with him, also myself - but MAINLY him) that I had given him another chance and allowed this to happen. He was bleating away in the backgorund about how he still wanted to see me - the fucking NERVE!!!! I told him exactly what I thought of him, not politely either, and told him never to contact me again. And, well, I haven't heard from the spineless tosser since.
Blimey that's become a bit of a rant and all about me which was not what I really intended but just want to say well we are all guilty of making excuses for bad behaviour where men are concerned. I know I have been and did and really identify with how you are feeling.
You know what? You are worth SO much more than this loser (he is a loser) can give. Don't let him dictate how you feel. And remember your lovely DS loves unconditionally.
After reading back I am not sure what the point of that is at all but just wanted to offer some heartfelt support and solidarity.