Where have all the fit and interesting men gone part 12a

[lou33]

seeing as there has been discussion about using 13

(not that it bothers me)

i feel sorry for myself my back is still playing up, and i just tripped and made it hurt in the usual lower back place

i'm sure he will realise in his own time. sometimes I think these men need a blinking rocket up their bums..... gymboy certainly does.... but then again he might like that

Lol! I don't think a subtle nudge would harm things though, I'm just not sure how to do this. He's a sensitive soul, writes poetry etc, I need to do this in a way that will make him think it was his idea in the first place.

I like it - that's what i'm trying to say.

plant the seed and then nurture it - it's how men like to work- or so i'm told. lol.

Yeah!! I just need to learn how to plant the seed if you see what I mean.

good morning people what a lovely day it is......

no0t here it isnt

its dull and grey

I am still being sick. DD is at nursery today as she is fine now and I am headed back to bed. This is a horrible virus. I need to be at work really. Aaargh! Hate this single paretning sometimes. Have let ex know and he's not even texted back.

I think it's grey but mild out there in the NW.

Good job NM is away with work, not quite ready for him to see me/ things in this state. Have lost a few pounds though

And definitely no more babies ever. I had severe hyperemesis with DD - am already vomiting blood with this bug - am so glad that NM feels the same. I need a virus every so often, it relieves any traces of broodiness!

it's grey here just in a good mood.

deffo want babies over this side, loved being pg, gymboy says he wants a couple - if it was left to me i'd have another 3/4 I think, however after 3 m/c's and only having one ovary it's weather or not can go thru it all, the m/c's I mean.

anyhow, sorry you're not feeling sop good mousie.

seeing gymboy again tonight at his - lets hope he manages to stay awake tonight huh! lol.

thankfully i was sterilised almost 8 years ago

lou think that you've done more than your bit for humanity with your large brood

nothing new to report here everything still peachy with the bf
{silly grinning teenage girl emoticon}

well apparently gymboy has now decided he's not ready for a relationship at all, but he's scared about the future, is worried about how complicated it could get, can't get his head around DS, is pulling the 'poor me' card cos he hates himself. and all the while i've got angrier and angrier thinking fuck you knob head.

but then again it's another example of me being a muppet, and actually letting someone into my life/head only to have it screwed up/over.

he still wants to see me tonight thou to talk thru everything in person, but have just sent him a rather nasty text so doubtful.

am sat here in tears. why do I bother - and DS is with mum tonight as well.

They are arseholes! he clearly doesn't deserve you belle.

oh belle

dont cry, not over him, he isnt worthy

dont see him tonight he will only mess your head up more, and probably try to persuade you to be a friend with benefits, so he can have his cake and eat it

we will cheer you up

silly song to go with the silly dance

thanks girls.

just feel so shite. i'm not into friends with benefits at all - well aside form the dj. part of this I think is also crying for GBF as well.

love the song.

he's upset i'm angry with him. he's playing the I feel like a bastard card.

he's saying he doens't know how complicated it would get, the more he's texting the more he seems decided.

knew I shouldn't have bothered with men till after xmas. why did I have to be an idiot and think there was a decent one out there?

I hate it when they do that, have no sympathy at all!! A relationship isn't complicated, they think too much, this is their problem.

There is a nice one out there for you, you have to believe this It will happen when you least expect it.

thing is thou I don't know how complicated it would get, I can't promise not to hurt him and more tha he can me, but in the last 13 years i've had some shite to deal with, like most of us have, this is by no long shot the worst, but then again if after all that I was willing to risk it all....

shouldn't have let the walls down.

and to cap it all off GBF is being so lovely as well, without a clue of what's happening there.

Oh dear.

Can't they just see it as a friendship with sex and not being able to see anyone else?? This is all it is really. I'm getting on better with my bloke/'friend', I saw him on Monday, same old ("can't you stay" - at work he ment), then sent me a message on Facebook to say what a great day he'd had with me, we spoke on MSN last night, he's got a brain which helps, he likes to 'discuss' things which is fine by me. The more we 'discuss' the more we have in common though. He's gone home to see his parents for a few days now though so I'll see what happens when he gets back.

It's never easy hey!

not at all.

where's his home? (your chappy?)

Up north.

Newcastle way, far from where I am. He moved here in August to take over a shop as the manager.

cool. least he'll be back soon thou?

yes, he's only gone for a few days to see his parents, he gets really homesick though so he's going to be hard work again when he gets back. I do like him, we have loads in common, he's a fantasic bloke, great bum, attractive, just weary of people. He's really letting me get to know him way too much for it to be just friendship though. I'm not sure if I'm setting myself up for a big fall if you see what I mean.

yeah I do, just goin thru it now.