Fed up with not having anyone to share the burdens with.

[Solo]

Bit of a self pitying thread really, but it's taken me a very long time and I can now say with conviction that after being on my own for so long...

I am fed up with the burden of being alone.
I am fed up with struggling on my own.
I am sometimes lonely.
I have no single parent friends or single friends at all and my 'social life' ha! what a joke is visiting my widowed Mum or visiting my Brother.
I miss my Dad terribly.
I can't get a job.
Not one 'friend' has spoken to me so far this summer holiday (except one that lives on cloud fluffyland in her mansion and that really cheers me up because shopping is her passtime!).

I could write a very long list of problems and yes, I know we all have problems, but I just don't want to do it on my own any longer, I don't want to face the problems on my own :( I could cry right now and need a real 'man hug' and I don't care who knows it!

my laptop that was supposedly repaired for the not cheap sum of £80 has been returned, and it's no different . It still doesn't connect to the power cable. I got the recommendation from the trading standards Web site too.

I'd already spent £40 on a new cable. not sure whether I should try and fight to get my money back and just suck it up and buy a new one. Without a laptop I can't start my next ou module that starts next month. The car and laptop have pretty much nuked my last savings over the last 12 months. arse.

Surely it's the company who didn't repair its job to taken it back and actually fix it? Makes me on your behalf.. could you get a 'loaner' from them to tide you over?

Technology is great when it works but I hate it when it doesn't as I just don't know enough about it to understand why it doesn't work.. I haven't have a massive stash of patience so I get quite worked up about this sort of thing... grr!

fush it's a local chap who runs his own pc repair / support business. I'm not sure I want to go through the hassle of getting in touch again. I'm mulling it over and will speak to trading standards when I'm not at work. If it had worked, then broke again I wouldn't have been so pissed off. But it didn't work at all when I turned it on .

I'm thinking of compiling a spreadsheet of mn-ers to ignore in the run up to the election. The 'I'm all right jack' group are out in force.

Good evening
Sorry re your computer Meglet
Hello everyone else.
Feeling supremely sorry for self this week and grateful I can come +say that without feeling bad for doing so!
Ex is visiting DD here as he is 'between flats' which is fine but means I get no time to just, well, 'be' I guess, and this could go on until the Summer.If he doesn't see her here, however, he doesn't see her so I should be glad he is making the effort I guess. I am also stupidly tired and have a pile of work to get through....but want to sleeeeeeeep.
It's a hard week this one
Have a good evening.

Heff - that sounds hideous.. could he not just take her out for a but to give you some space. How old is she? Could they possibly go somewhere for a couple of nights as a bit of an adventure maybe?

oh and Meglet - a fellow Twin Peaks fan, hooray

what with Bob and American Werewolf I'll never go in the garden after dark again. I wimped out of putting laundry out after dark again yesterday.

Hi all :) Fush I'm glad to hear your friends lo is getting better

Meglet you are right, but I avoided fb for the same reason...all the puky lovey dovey bits about mothers day...I do know some sickeningly smug marrieds that would have definitely written things like "was woken up by my gorgeous babies this morning with homemade cards and brekkie in bed and my wonderful hubby all smiles...I'm such a lucky mummy!" and I'll bet if I go and have a look, it'll probably be word for word!! lol.

hey everyone. just coming in to have a moan really! this week has been awful im so tired and feel really down. just wish dd was an easier child. feel bad for saying that, when i am looking at her now beside me being as good as gold eating her pancake like an angel. but she has drained the life out of me. at least i will get a break soon, i will get some energy back, then repeat the process next week.

howto it's hard when they've been such a nightmare isn't it. I too feel crap when they've perked up and I'm still shell shocked! have you got a break at the weekend?

I've ripped up the patenting rule book and am now pretty much letting 6yo dd sleep in my bed. she's having dreadful problems going into school or activities do I think it's best if she's with me as much as is practical.

parenting jeez, WHY did they invent auto text.

meglet thanks i think its right to trust ur instinct with these things isn't it. i let dd do loads of stuff now i never would have imagined that i would think was a good idea. i get a break from 9 today till tomorrow. i will do nothing. im just too tired. i hope it IS just the terrible 3s and not something 'wrong' like some proper behaviour diagnosis. cos seriously her behaviour has always been so challenging its not a new thing.

Howto - my DD was pretty easy going and then she turned 3.. It was like a switch was flicked and she became this demanding, stroppy, dare I say it, rude little madam! She is slightly better now but I think 3 is way worse than 2 so I would hope it is just a stage for you and it starts to get a bit easier for you Since exh left, I do all sorts I would never have done with him here including the bed thing - DD was in with me again last night and I can't say no as she is lonely or sad.. how could anyone say no to that!

DS has gone down with sickness & diarrhoea in the night so it's a day of nursing ahead as he lies looking all 'woe is me' on the sofa! To be fair, my two are rarely ill so I expect he does feel rotten but there go any plans I had for the day... I don't work Fridays so it's normally spent feverishly doing the things that small people make difficult. I might get him into the car to the post office to pick up my new X-files box set as they couldn't deliver that yesterday but beyond that - duvet day!!

Happy almost weekend everyone!

Oh Howto excuse the language but I remember with horror the fucking awful threes! Never really had terrible twos but the three year old version of my dd was vial - hitting, kicking, spitting at me, it was as if an alien came down in the night at possessed her! BUT it DOES end - honestly, you will get your dd back again. Even my dd can't believe she used to do this when we've talked about it since she's got older!!! And if you're run down it makes everything so, so much harder, so definitely crash and look after yourself now that you have some 'you' time. And I totally agree - do whatever you have to do to get through this, she won't want to be in your bed when she's 17!
Sorry to hear your ds isn't too good Fush - but kike you said - perfect excuse to take time out!
Had my gym referral today and can't believe that (a) My anxious arm shaking started in there and I started crying, and (b) my weight - same as it was 12 years ago when I was 8 months pregnant so I have a lot of work to do seeing as I had a bit of weight to loose before I fell pregnant too.....oh well, I suppose we all have to have a starting point..... Dd was at the pool with school spectating the house swimming for a while and I was made to promise I wouldn't go and look for her!!!! The lady who was doing the referal's dd was also there but swimming and her dd had said the same so we made the excuse I was being shown round so we could look for them - my dd wasn't there, but hers was and wasn't too chuffed to see mum staring down at her!!!
DD's dad made me and dd laugh last night. Between now and sept he's booked 2 weeks off during the school hols......to go away with the ow to a couple of weddings without taking dd (and I was the 'bad' one as I wouldn't ask the school to release her 2 days early so she could go to what I've since found out is ow's friends wedding - no chance!!!), so yet again all the childcare is falling back on me. I pointed out that I have a limited holiday period like he does and did he realise that 99% of my holidays are used when dd is off school so pull your bloody weight you arse. When he'd gone I vented, then straight away apologised for bad mouthing her dad in front of her. 'It's ok' she said 'He thoroughly deserves it - I don't know mum, 7 billion blokes on the planet and you chose him to be my dad!!!'

This morning finally got a text - he's booked 1 week off.....1 week out of 10..........

aaaah, your dd fos .

hope you find your confidence in the gym. If I could share my gym addiction with you I would!

1 week out of 10 - what a low life but sounds like your DD has the measure of him which is all you can ask for really. I hope you're able to get things sorted.. I am the same in that all my leave covers school holidays - I don't ever do anything for me. I will have Tuesday nights covered over the summer - but that's it.. no idea what I'm going to do if I'm honest but I'll get through it - I always do and this is the third summer of no support so should be used to it I guess!

DS seems a bit better and has had a jam sandwich & a yoghurt - probably the worst things to give when they're puky but I have no idea and he wanted them.. bound to appear out one end or the other before bed, I expect (sorry, bit grim )

My Friday night will be spent ironing, watching X-files (did drag DS out but he wasn't impressed and slept the rest of the school day away ) and listening out for DS summoning me.. and I used to think going out drinking with my friends with the possibility of some nice sex at the end of the night was more fun - what did I know!

you never know fush he might be ok with that. stomach bugs are funny things.

I had a productive evening. I waxed one leg when ds was in the shower and then other leg while dd was in the shower. it's the only time I can do things because they can't fight when one is in the bathroom.

Got a busy weekend coming up. Could be nice but I'm a little worried it's too busy and the house will go to rack and ruin.

Sadly Meglet - it all reappeared as I took him to bed He's really not right, love him so am about to head off for another super comfy night on his floor - no DD in my bed yet.. musical beds round here, I tell you!

Night all - may you sleep so so well.

Hey all, been having computer/internet/phone problems here! I thought we were supposed to be in the 21st Century..

Just thought I see how everyone's going? DD is sick again Bloody cough is back, but can't ring up the GP till Tuesday as it's a public holiday here on Monday. Hallelujah! So I'm going to start painting the inside of the house. Sorry to her your DS has had D&V Fush

Hope you all had a lovely Mother's Day. I will try and catch up on everyone's news once I get a chance.

Oh and Meglet, DD won't be able to find out her final results until January. It's going to be a long year. It's just so hard to see your DC struggle when they put so much effort in and then they fail :( though the maths's teacher said she has probably scraped an achieved, thankfully.

Hey all! it's my birthday today and I don't know what to do with it! it'll most likely be just Dd and me...any cheapo ideas? Lord, I feel old!

happy birthday solo!

is it going to be sunny where you are? do you have a car? trip advisor might have some cheap ideas.

happy birthday Solo! can u get the bus to a different town and go for coffee/ cake look round shops? then have a movie night? i hope u have a lovely day whatever u do xx

Happy Birthday Solo , and for later x

Hmmm - what to do that's cheap & fun.. is it nice where you are? Sorry, not sure how old DD is but are there woods or somewhere to ramble? You could head off with bikes and wellies and have a nature walk with either picnic or hot drinks at a pub halfway round?

Hope you got some treats, cake and recognition from your little ones and your family - you deserve it!

does anyone else suspect that their dc's are really bad at interrupting them when they're trying to talk to other adults? I'm sure mine are dreadful, I'm lucky to finish and sentence and they will also interrupt the other adults . and yes, I do tell them it's not ok and tell them off.

I'm sure it's because they're used to having my attention all the time, they can't comprehend seeing mummy having a conversation . drives me loopy and really embarrases me anyway.

Thanks for the wishes and ideas. Dd is 8. I think we might go and have a cream tea.

Meglet I agree with you, kids do just interrupt these days. I can be not talking or on the phone for hours and Dd doesn't say a word. The minute I have a call, she's needing desperately to talk to me! drives me crazy and I find it so rude. I tell her off too and have taught her not to interrupt, but it falls on deaf ears! grrr!