Fed up with not having anyone to share the burdens with.

[Solo]

Bit of a self pitying thread really, but it's taken me a very long time and I can now say with conviction that after being on my own for so long...

I am fed up with the burden of being alone.
I am fed up with struggling on my own.
I am sometimes lonely.
I have no single parent friends or single friends at all and my 'social life' ha! what a joke is visiting my widowed Mum or visiting my Brother.
I miss my Dad terribly.
I can't get a job.
Not one 'friend' has spoken to me so far this summer holiday (except one that lives on cloud fluffyland in her mansion and that really cheers me up because shopping is her passtime!).

I could write a very long list of problems and yes, I know we all have problems, but I just don't want to do it on my own any longer, I don't want to face the problems on my own :( I could cry right now and need a real 'man hug' and I don't care who knows it!

Tardis :( I really feel for you; you are so brave and obviously love your Dd so much. Is there no kind of support group you can join that would know what you are dealing with (past and present) and could help and try to support you? Bruising is awful because it's so visible and people can get the wrong idea often...I want to ((hug)) you.

I don't know if I've mentioned it before on here, but I went through dreadful abuse from my first h. Every kind of abuse you can think of. Some of these men just completely mess peoples lives up don't they :(

Im so sorry, your right, OP this is a self-pitying thread, I never ask how anyone else is.

I do apologise.

Why apologise? There is no need as far as I can see. If you don't want to or aren't in the frame of mind to ask how someone else is doing, then don't and don't worry about it! I'm sure we've all done that! I know I have :) I'm sure you will when the time is right.

And do you know what?! 14 pages on this thread now which started with me hosting a self pity party and stamping my feet because no one was listening to me or feeling my pain! 14 pages!!

Sorry to hear you're feeling carp tardis. I've been told my 6yo DD is not autistic and is fine by the paed who saw her for 2 hours. I have to suck up similar outbursts from her because none of the medical establishment will believe me.

oops, you're probably feeling crap. Not carp, no fishing going on as far as I know.

@ carp! Actually, I might adopt carp instead of crap!

Carp are lovely, as long as the cats don't get them.

I'm so bloody tired. We've got too much on this month and I'm already feeling rough. and I've broken out in spots.

Hope everyone else is feeling chirpier than I am, and if not I'll be glad of the company

:) chin up meglet when you are feeling carp (!) the only way is up!!!

Apparently, putting Calamine Lotion on spots over night helps enormously and very quickly. I can't vouch for it as I'm very fortunate to have never had spots as such. Worth a try though!

Thanks solo. This evening is slightly better. I splurged on my favourite moisturiser after work so my skin should look more human tomorrow. And the dc's have been invited to a last minute party at the weekend so a) I will get an hour to myself, b) I won't have to cook tea that night and c) it might tire DD out enough to make her sleep.

I've booked a couple of gym classes too, not had time to go for over a week and I feel all crumpled up, need to blow away the cobwebs.

The (immediate) future is looking brighter meglet :)

Hows everyone tonight?

want a glass of something brown or grape?

Not too bad tardis if we gloss over the shouting hell that is the dc's bedtime.. I'm in bed eating green & blacks butterscotch and watching 'not going out'. Livin' the dream .

I may even do my nails in a minute.

Anyone got anything nice on for the weekend?

I want to take Mum and Dd to see the poppies at The Tower Of London. We will go very late I think. Other than that...washing, ironing, cooking, cleaning, homework with Dd...

solo did you make it to the TOL?

The DC's went to the remembrance service with Beavers. It meant I could wander along to the main War Memorial service in peace, I've not done that in years.

I did! I went tonight with Mum and Dd. It was very beautiful, even in the dark!

hi just thought id call in. dh just took dd yesterday for a couple of nights. im so tired and so glad to get a break. i want to avoid watching netflx all day, and was thinking of making a kids safe play room, since everytime kids come round they make a huge mess and my nerves are on end. it will be like a project for me to focus on, and means my house might be like the 'fun house' to go to if it has a cool room in it. just need ideas now.
just wanted to get something off my chest too - i really miss the security of doing stuff WITH a companion. i can't rely on mum and dad all the time to come with me to stuff. i am quite independent. but theres certain things that i feel much better having a partner, or a companion, like those times when you go in to a big room of people and aren't sure who to talk to. you would prefer to be with someone than to be stood by yourself waiting for someone to come and talk to you. well, that seems to be happening quite a lot lately, and i know i need to just deal with it, and not let that vulnerable feeling put me off going out.

anyway....hope everyone is good and looking forward to Christmas coming soon. we have to make new good memories with our kids.

Howto I'm glad you've had a small break; it must make so much difference to your state of mind :)

I know what you mean about having someone to be with. This is how I feel about going away for holidays or visiting friends to stay with...I'm going as the only adult, just me. and the kids. Ds is with me less and less these days. He's 16 and doesn't want to come anywhere with me. So it's often just me and Dd.
So, I'm afraid I'm no help and have no answers.

I did take Dd and my Mum to see the poppies at The Tower of London on Sunday evening. Was spectacular.

Just thought I would say hello, glad you're feeling better Meglet. Hope everyone else is good!

Another here who wants someone to go with on holidays etc, DD and I are going to America (First time properly overseas! at the age of 52 though I've been to Australia numerous times...) a week today and as DD is 15 I fear this could be one of the last holidays with both of us. Though my friend and I are thinking going to Australia on a girly trip with DD and her DDs.

Stress levels are sky high here, I'm flat out at work, DD has her end of year exams starting tomorrow, she had a massive meltdown last night due to stress and I stupidly booked flights that left on the last day of exams, so now DD is going to have to sit her science and german exam when she gets back, so she'll probably be have to study on a long haul flight And to top it all off the dog has been quite sick and might have to be put to sleep.

Gosh 1999 enjoy the States. I love how you don't count Australia as aboard , isn't it a 3 hour flight from NZ or something? I love the food in the US, huge salads, pastas and peanut butter M&M's.

Ha! Australia is where us kiwis get our cheap two week abroad sun holiday (A bit like your Spain!) Tbh I don't know why we don't become one big country...neither NZ or Aus one counts each other as abroad.

Yeah it's about 3 hours to Melbourne/Sydney and 4 hours to Brisbane for us but we're at the bottom of the South Island (Dunedin) so we it takes us a bit longer than say Auckland. But DNiece lived in Perth and it was a 9 hour flight home to Dunedin, she moved to Melbourne as she was just too isolated from family.

How is everyone this week? I'm feeling organised because I called tax credits today to check how long I need to change childcare for in order to receive help with costs. Turns out it's 4 weeks (not a calendar month) so I can plan ahead for next summer and make sure the holiday club stretches over those dates so HMRC can help me afford it. This year I was caught out and had to pay the whole lot myself, £300 on the credit card .

As you can tell my day was ultra exciting . It had been on my to-do list for weeks.

anyone near bournemouth?

I'm tired and just off to bed. Very quiet in here at the moment...

Not me smiley sorry...