Hello all,
I'm just home. The contractions stopped at about 4am after a lot of drugs/ steroids.
One miraculous thing is that exp was there and actually v supportive, rubbing my back and holding my hand. I'm hoping he has come to realise that I don't need a relationship but a friendship where we can be parents. This is a huge step forwards for us!
I'm gutted that last night happened after we spent a nice afternoon chatting, sorting garden and packing some of his and his sons things up from the house, then bam emergency hospital run 
The care was amazing but it freaked me out that they were getting ready for her and explaining the risks to me and exp etc. my whole insides now ache and I feel like I've been in an emotional washing machine not knowing if she was going to come or not.
Had another placenta bleed and the scan showed her to be breach but pushing down, and the contractions - ladies prepare yourselves, not for the faint hearted!
Off for a sleep after being up since 5am yesterday :-)
Exp coming to walk dog later - all good, every cloud right??
How is Xmas?? And all the rest of you? xx