Elasta - sorry that you're having to go through this - it must be very hard to clear out stuff in this way. In some cases would imagine you find out new things about that person whilst you're also looking back on theirs and your own life. I think I would find it very very hard.
Re the prof - why do they sometimes take so long to respond or get back in touch? And why do we (well speaking for myself here really) sometimes obsess about it. Im still guilty of that from time to time. And really in the big scheme of things its all so insignifcant. Give self mental slap.
In fact after seeing exbf at weekend - which was sooo intenseand overwhelming - Im now suffering from withdrawal he seems to have gone into hiding could just be busy and Im overthinking it). Which Im really peed off about especially as he was saying that I'd seemed distant over the past few weeks and not very communicative. I must also remember it's not all about me.
Saw gay friend on boat today and he was saying he thinks I would let the right man into my life fully. I disagree actually.
Im sort of thinking that I wouldn't really want a live in relationship til my dcs have grown - which is ten years away.
This is for three main reasons -
- think I would be in the middle of clashing males (my ds1 and to a lesser extent ds2)
2)After my exh Im so scared of a man turning nasty/ea after a period of niceness.
- I actually like to be in charge of my own home/decisions. I think when I live with someone I lose part of myself and maybe just the men I have lived with (only two
resent their need to dominate.
But I do like men, male company and most of all sex (pre menopausal hormonal surge 
)