Where have all the fit, interesting and available men gone (part 28)

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lilac where are you????!

Might be joining you on the spinster sofa!

Am feeling really down atm. Pretty sure it is a reaction from mum dying just before Xmas, but my world seems very empty. So much of my time and energy went into seeing and caring for her. I suddenly have loads more time, but I feel very alone, with all my energy going on looking after others and no one to there to look out for me.

Have just come back from taking the kids skiing and I pottered round the slopes alone, wondering how many more years like this I will have to do.

This will be my 3rd year since ex left and whilst it gets easier, there are times when I could really do with a cuddle. Not sure dating is the answer though, dont feel robust enough to deal with inevitable let downs right now

Seeing Matt tomorrow night prob. Attempted to meet both unicorn and pixel but neither could. Well attempted to meet Matt too but that went awry.

Morning everyone.

woke up to a missed call in the night from separated bloke - must've been out on the town. Text him to ask what he wanted. No reply, hmmm!

anyway lazy day today and night out with girlfriends tonight :)

elastamum - i know how you are feeling. Im entering my 3rd year alone too. I was looking at holidays abroah last night ( not sure why, cant really afford it)
But even if i could, there then would be no point anyway. It would just be DD and i, and once shes gone to bed, id be stuck in the hotel room from 8pm.
So caravan in the UK it is. Again.

Dogman has text me this morning to confirm stuff for tomorrow, and he does still keep checking my profile out daily.

I still feel less than enthuastic.

Hey too kool where are you? Im going to be caravanning this summer too! The prospect doesn't really fill me with joy but its just about the only option I have at the mo

i was thinking of norfolk.

Ive caravaned for the last few years. DD thinks its wonderful.

But im just feeling a little bit tired of all the responsibility for it all being on my shoulders, then , when shes gone to bed, its just me. Id like someone to share a glass of wine with, to have a natter to. etc...

I replied to dogmans text. He said ' hi tookool, how are you? We said 10:30am at xxxxxx didnt we?

i said, hi, im good thanks, you? yes, thats what we said, still ok?

and ive not heard anything back for almost 2 hours.

I left it about 15 mins after he text to when i replied as i was in the shower.

Does he not want to now?

Oh crap. Very old standing order gone into xh savings account for £230. Kinda need that money for living and stuff :( XH will give it back, but obv it'll take time to transfer!

Oh no. Does that see you short?

Dogman text back, all set for tomorrow, wish me luck and shall report back.

Flame that's the sort of thing that happens to me - hope you can get it back soon.

TKS - look forward to hearing about your date

Elasta sorry to hear you are feeling meh think its bound to be hard/different/difficult emotions for a while - my friend lost her mum last year and its been hard for her I know. Thankfully I haven't had to face it yet.

I ended up ranting at exh via email and then he emailed and phoned me back defending himself. That always messes with my head tbh and I almost end up feeling sorry for him. But then I realise that's ridiculous and give myself a slap.

We went to look at a flat today about ten/fifteen mins drive away. They couldnt show us the two bed showed us a studio. Think I may have had a reasonable chance of getting it however ds1 said he would be scared travelling back from school to it (we do have some rather dodgy 'gangland' areas near us) and there was no parking or residents parking permits issued. Also its a change of boro and so would mess up ds2s sec school application.

TBH just testing the water and good to know schemes like taht available (HA intermediate rent)

Just going to drop boys off at exhs - both said they don't want to go but they are going. Not sure what Im going to do but need a bit of headspace till tomorrow.

Just booked our holiday for this year. Going early July to celebrate my big birthday which is actually end July but the prices go up too much so will just go away in England for a night or two for the actual day.

Was looking at hotels that looked nice then checked out trip advisor!!! Just decided that whilst we have been on some super hols and have been very lucky with the lower budget end I want some luxury for a change so booked a 'Thomsons Platinium' get me! 10 nights, Tunisia as it somewhere we have never been (just DD and myself). Also booked Crowne Plaza on the airport for the night before. So excited .

Hi all

Lou hope you are feeling better.I had an awful stomach bug last week lost so much weight in one week i looked awful.Not nice.Your Dp sounds fab though looking after you.
Does your ds2 have autism?Sorry if we have had the conversation before.Did you find it hard to get motability.I get it at the lower rate for ds1 but wish i could get help with a car for him.The fact he hasn't been run over is just pure luck as we have had so many near misses.
Hope you had a good birthday.

Eve Ooh date sounds good.Let us know how it goes tonight.

Tookool Hi.I just wanted to say don't be disheartened.It may take a while to find a decent man but its better than just settling.Hope you have a nice time tomorrow.

Mily So pleased for you and TLM.He is rather yummy.

Sorry to anyone i've missed out had to skim through as soo much to catch up on.

Oh forgot to say another one on the detox here.This week is going to be a week of salad and excercise.Got a couple of new workout dvds which are really good.

hi beaut, yes i am feeling much better thanks

no ds2 has cerebral palsy, he uses a wheelchair as he will never walk

we have been getting higher rate for mobility and personal care, but they have decided he should only get middle rate for personal care this time, so i am going to appeal it

the upside is he appears to have been signed off indefintely, so shouldnt have to fill the forms in again

ooh dp just called and told me he has bought me a breadmaker (said i fancied getting another after being without for years)

Hello all

Have skimmed through, loads of catching up to do!

Started new job on Tuesday, staff are lovely, kids are coming round to my way of doing things and yesterday pm had two TAs and six year 6 kids blitzing the pigsty of a classroom I inherited, they did a fantastic job.

TLOML was here last night, just keeps getting better and better

Welcome to MrsS01 and zany. I'm one of those who says don't give up on internet dating, it can be frustrating but I figured that if I'm normal enough to be on a dating website, there must be normal guys on there too! I met TLOML (The Love of My Life) on Lovestruck in November and have never been so happy.

Lou Ah i don't know why i thought he had autism.I have tried to get ds1 in a special needs pushchair as although obviously he can walk its just so dangerous.But he is having none of it.Your ds should definitely get high rate for personal care.I work with special needs children and all those with cerebal palsy in our school get higher rate for both.Ds1 gets higher rate care for his asd.I even got them to double check the form as i didn't feel he needed it.I work with children who in my opinion have needs far greater yet get less help so it's all wrong how they work it out.

Those forms are a pain.Ds1 is due for renewal next christmas.I took a photocopy of them last time though.

I'm not doing very well atm, I haven't heard from friend about tonight so presume it's off . He seemed so keen in the week to get it set up too. Oh well never mind, feeling a bit rough with sore throat and chesty cold.

eve - coudl you phone him and rearrange as you don't feel well?

Eve when did you last speak to him?I agree with Aurora call him to rearrange.

I'm not feeling too bad, it isn't flu yet!

He's been in touch and it's still on. Not meeting until later as he's working. Will just find a nice chinese or indian, there are a few within a five min walk.

Beaut is everything OK with you and your nm, did he make any decisions about moving?

Eve i thought i wrote about that but couldnt have hit the post button

On new years eve we had a long chat and i decided to go with him.He was offered a great job with more money and better long term prospects.I hate where i live now and i think whether i stay with DG or not the boys would be happier there.

However,on thursday DG had a bit of a wobble as he found it hard with ds1 over christmas and said he needs to do more research on autism.We spoke,we cried and i got ridiculously drunk and was sick everywhere.Not my finest moment.

He left to take a load of stuff up north and i fell asleep in the lounge on the floor.When i finally made it to bed he had left me voicemails and texts saying he loved me and had made a stupid mistake and that he was on his way back.He didn't come back that night as i hadn't replied he presumed he had messed it all up and that i wanted space.

He came here after work yesterday saying that he loves me and that he just panicked that he wouldn't be enough for us.We have decided that for now as he starts his new job on monday that we will take the time apart to see how we really feel.I will make a few visits up there and decide within the next month whether or not to go ahead with the move.

eve - hope you have a good night out.

kdk - is your date still on for Sat?

elasta - sorry you are feeling so down. I can't think of anything to say that doesn't sound utterly glib and trite because I haven't been where you are, but I do feel for you and can understand where you are coming from. I often get that is this it feeling?

I am feeling very blah and meh at the moment. Went to visit FB for a bit which usually cheers me right up cos he's good company (etc) but I just felt awkward and kinda weird, like I shouldn't be there.

Then I went out to see a film and get some food, which I was looking forward to. Was surrounded by families/friends/couples and just felt like a big weirdo sticky out sore thumb freakazoid so went home.

Also had an email from bloke I've been chatting to on OkC who seemed (past tense for a reason) like a pretty decent sort. He has met someone and wants to meet up with me if it doesn't work out! What the fuck???!!!!

Anyway, feeling decidedly sorry for myself and pissed off right now. Apols for rank self pity but need to put it somewhere.

I mean he seems to want me to wait around for him, in case that wasn't clear. What a winner, hey.

Also lilac glad to hear things are going so well and lou am dead jel of your breadmaker! Sounds lush.

Janos, cheer up love. Hope you start feeling better, at least it's the weekend.

Beaut, good idea to give it some space. Whereabouts approx might you be living, is it Manchester? Not that far from me, I'm up in the lake district.

Got an hour before we meet up tonight, I'm starving!! Better get a banana to soak up my small glass of red I'm about to have.