Pamela thread 6 - Bile Duct Cancer, Continued

[WilsonMilson]

Hi all

It’s Kerr here, I wanted to post a quick update as I’m conscious Pamela hasn’t been on for a few days and the thread seems to have reached its limit.

Pamela hasn’t been feeling so good over the last few days - on a positive note, her bloods seem to have stabilised and, all being well, she might be ok for chemo round 2 in the next couple of days. She had a blood transfusion yesterday which, we hope, will also boost her energy levels. On the downside, her jaundice has returned, the bilirubin levels are increasing significantly. The CT scan at the beginning of the week showed no new blockages and our Consultant thought that some early necrosis of the tumour after the last chemo might be contributing, but nobody really knows what’s causing it. Further discussion to take place tomorrow. Seeing the jaundice is one of the worst parts of this, it’s so clear and obvious when it’s happening yet there’s nothing we can do to alleviate it.

Just wanted to let you know the latest. Please, please keep praying for her - she’s my everything, my world, and every thought and prayer is deeply appreciated.

Kerr

Kerr, I am so so sorry.
Your love for Pamela, and her love for you has shone so brightly through your posts.
My thoughts are with you all xx

So sad for the loss of this brave woman. She loved you so very much.

Thank you so much for updating us Kerr and I am so sorry to hear that Pamela is gone. The photo collage she posted a while back has remained one of my tabs on my laptop and that's how I shall remember her, and remember her I will.

Have no words about the fake thread.

Thinking of you all.

My deepest condolences I am absolutely sickened that someone could do a fake post. I was just telling my husband about how articulate, endearing and brave Pamela was. I'm so sorry for your loss, all my prayers and thoughts at this devastating time. Life is just not fair at all.

Kerr, thank you for taking the time to write your posts Please remember the kindness and positive outpouring of humanity that came from Pamela sharing her experience. This is what matters . Xxx

Rest in peace Pamela, and sending condolences to all her family and friends. She wrote so beautifully amidst her pain and her posts stand as a testament to her life and courage. It was the last flame of a life well-lived and those of us who only knew her through her posts were privileged to share her journey. I’m so sorry for your loss, Kerr. You have many friends here (even if you’ll never meet them).

I lost a dear friend to the same cancer.

I am desperately sorry to hear the news, Kerr, my heart goes out to you, to your whole family.
A remarkable woman is at peace now, I’m grateful to have had the privilege of following Pamela’s writings here, her wit and her sense of humour and her beautiful mind I will never forget.
Thank you.
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I’m so so sorry to hear about Pamela……life can be so cruel and unfair. Thinking of you all.

Pamela was incredibly brave and resilient on such a difficult journey. She fought hard against an invisible enemy and never gave up. She was an example to us all. She was valiant till her material end here on earth. I believe she's started a new life in a better place, one where we will all meet. Until then I have no doubt her soul and memory will be with you every day, every hour and every second for the rest of your lives. Her memory in our heart's will keep her alive. She will live on in Jacob, Kerr, her much loved mother, all her friends and people here on MN who kept her company, held all your hands and prayed for her.

The post I have been dreading. My deepest deepest condolences to yourself Keir, Jacob, Pamela’s mum and the rest of your family and friends. Even though you are strangers you have been in my thoughts so much. It’s absolutely tragic and unfair that your Pamela is gone. My heart is sore when I think of the last words of her last post “I miss Jacob so much” I’ve been looking at my own kids, being so much more patient and loving and reminding myself that everything else is BS. Please take care of yourselves. RIP Pamela.
Love from Banbridge.

Pamela touched all our hearts through her honest and eloquent posts. My thoughts are with you and your family. ❤️

Kerr I am so sorry for the loss of Pamela. She was an amazing woman and a true inspiration. She will live on through Jacob and through your wonderful memories of her. Love to you both xx

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I’m so very sorry for your loss. I know your darling girl would want you and her babies to embrace your lives. Celebrate her glorious memory in all you do. God bless. Xx

Just read this update before going to bed, and now I won't get a wink of sleep knowing about beautiful Pamela. What a wonderful, very strong, amazing woman she was. I'm so sorry to hear such a sad update, I was so hoping she was having good treatment that meant she could turn a corner.🥺

Rest in peace, sweet Pamela. And all the love and blessings to your wonderful family and Kerr 💔😭 I am heartbroken for you 💔

I’m so sorry for your loss Kerr, Pamela has been an inspiration to us and will live on through your memories.

Sending you and your gorgeous boy so much love xxx

Rest in peace Pamela free from pain
Forever young

Rest in peace Pamela - such an engaging and gifted writer. How amazing she was to be so open and vulnerable, letting us be a part of her journey. I hope she found comfort in how many people she has touched with her heart and words.

This is hard to write, but I’ve been friends with Pamela since 1998 when we met online through a shared love of Prince..I feel I should put something down whilst this thread has space.
I have plenty of memories..though I last saw her in person at a Prince concert nine years ago we kept in touch intermittently as our lives diverged..it was clear she’d found great happiness with Kerr and Jacob as the bedrock of her life.
She had moments of joy that I’ll never forget, like the time she ran to the stage and danced with Prince alongside a handful of other fans in 2002..yours truly was blocked as I attempted to follow of course but she was in her element.

She messaged me on Twitter out of the blue just as she started this inspirational thread to reveal her diagnosis. I wish we’d written more..she was the most erudite and engaging person to exchange words with that I’ve ever met.
Eulogies for the departed are sometimes filled with platitudes and sentiments that aren’t wholly reflective but are just said because that’s the done thing.

I want to assure you that Pamela was just like you read here, and more. She WAS a special person, a personality beyond measure and a dear friend. I have tears now that I’ve not shed even since she first told me. I knew writing something down would get me emotional! She left a legacy of love that stretches far beyond her time on earth.

You know, her last message to me was on 15th July to wish me a happy birthday. Always thinking of others.

To Kerr, Jacob and everyone else in her family, I have so much sympathy..I can’t imagine what these last few months have been like. She loved you fiercely.

You can’t summarise someone like Pamela. She had too many qualities. This thing called life, it’s meant to be a mighty long time..hers was far too short, but she burned bright. I’m hugging my wee boy extra tight with my free arm as I type this because of her.

RIP Pamela, you’ll never be forgotten. x

I'm so sorry, I don't know what else to say. How can a woman I've never met move me tears this morning? Her strength, courage, infectious humour and beauty shone through all of her posts.
You and your family remain in my thoughts. Thank you so much for thinking of us at this time. It was an honour to be part of her life, even in this tiny way.

Beautiful words. I have to say I am startled by your writing prose. You write in the same creative expressive style as Pamela. Great taste in music 🎶 xx

RIP Pamela. Your love for life and genuine qualities as a human shone through in your posts, even though these were your darkest days and you were often in immense pain. Your love for Kerr and Jacob, and their love back, was clear- how wonderful to have had a life filled with such love.
Although you are gone far too soon, you will live on in others.

So sorry for your loss. Grief is the most terrible pain.

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful and brave Pamela. Sending love to you, Jacob, Pamela's mum and your wider family and friends. xx

Thank you Kerr for updating at such an awful time.

Pamela sounded such an incredible, amazing woman and I hope in time you can look back at these threads and smile with pride at how she affected and inspired hundreds of strangers, it's a rare gift.

I'm another who would have loved to know her in real life, she was such a genuine soul and the world is a much darker place without her.

I wish you and Jacob so much love and hope for the future.x