I feel absolutely shattered. Done embryo transfer and the embryo thawed fine. I know we are all super hormonal, and I was really missing someone to hold my hand, and I know it's made me really over sensitive, but it really upset me.
When they did the transfer the nurse played it back on the screen to show it happening. Now, I know they have to give us records of things or tick boxes to say we've been told/shown things; I do get it. But she printed out the image and gave it to me, and it's like the print-out you'd get for a pregnancy scan, and I just felt there was no need for that. I do not understand why that couldn't have been emailed or whatever, so you're not walking around with what looks like a pregnancy scan.
Anyway, that set me off, which is stupid, then after they'd done their talk about medications the nurse gave me a little box of chocolates. And I know - that's so sweet, it's meant to be nice, but I am trying so hard to control how I feel, and I just felt, in combination with the non-pregnancy-scan picture, really shit. Because I've got to hold it together for two weeks, and I really don't want to sit around eating chocolate and pretending this is a lovely happy time.
On the top of that, the doctor wrote me a prescription for two new medications. Last time, I had problems getting medications from any of my local pharmacies, so this time I asked about it and also asked how much they'd cost. She said she had no idea about costs but Morrisons across the road would have them. Well, they didn't, nor did my local pharmacy, so I guess tomorrow I look again.
I get it: they are obviously not trying to be actively crap, but why on why not spend the money on basics like knowing how much medication costs and where people can quickly and easily pick it up, rather than messing around with chocolates?