IVF November 2022 - thread 2

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Hello everyone, shiny new thread for us IVF warriors.

@Crystal88
@Jx3303
@LF82
@Hopewishprayer
@Foreverhoping33
@Cat89

Hi @Jx3303 im good thanks! Yes that’s right transfer is tomorrow afternoon.
im excited about it but definitely more nervous than I was last time I had a transfer guess I’m more aware of everything than can go wrong…
my work is also super busy and stressful right now which has me worried it will impact on implantation but we will just see how we go.

how are you? Have you managed to book a holiday yet? We are off to Italy on the 10th June which will also be official test day for me, so I think it will probably be good timing allow us to celebrate or cry together and away from other stresses. Xxxx

@Foreverhoping33 sending you so much luck for tomorrow. I will have everything crossed for you.

@Jx3303 @Foreverhoping33 not good news for this cycle I am afraid. They recommended cancelling as my follicles have not responded the way they did the last two cycles. Although it’s hard I think I prefer this than doing egg collection and get no eggs/ no embryos. I have to wait for my withdrawal bleed, then start the pill for 3 weeks and then have a scan day 2 of my next AF. As long as the follicles from this round have all gone we can then start stims again and go again. Will find out this week how much this cancelled cycle is going to cost. Trying to be positive …. It’s my DH birthday at the weekend so I can have a glass of wine for that at least. xx

@Foreverhoping33 can completely understand the apprehension but you've fought hard to get here, your lining is where it needs to be and you've done amazing with what's been thrown at you. One step at a time. I'm really sorry work is very busy too, that doesn't help when you're trying to get through this.

I'm doing ok, didn't have a great day yesterday and I'm getting bad cramps and bleeding again which I thought had tapered off. But I managed to take the dog a gentle dog walk myself this morning which I haven't done alone in weeks so little steps. We've not booked yet but I think we will soon. I'm glad to hear you've a nice holiday to look forward to and to be away for OTD x

@LF82 I'm so very very sorry. It's unbelievably disappointing after all you've been through with your last cycle too. I really am very sad for you. But I think I would feel the same, no eggs / embryos is very very tough after a full cycle and they want to give you the very best care and chance at getting some more embryos safely into the freezer. I know it was meant to be transfer this cycle too and for me that was extra tough when our cycle was cancelled, but you will get there. Definitely have yourself a glass of wine with hubby this weekend. Plenty rest and be kind to yourself. These hurdles really test us, we are all here for you and I am sending so much love xxx

@Jx3303 thank you so much, this is such a hard journey. I know you know it’s more than most. I have spent the day trying not to think/over think it but it’s so hard. Completely forgot to ask at the clinic if they had received my MRI results earlier so will need to deal with that this week. How are you feeling? Have the cramps and bleeding stopped/reduced? X

@LF82 it is such a hard journey, it breaks my heart we are all going through this. I am the same - I overthink everything. Of course, understandable you'd forget to ask about that given how your appointment went. I know the added worry of money with a cancelled cycle really doesn't help matters - we lost a lot when our cycle was cancelled mostly due to the fact we'd had to travel/pay for accommodation and then I had added blood tests etc up here, all I can say is money can be earnt so try and put that down the worry list if you can, easier said than done but your physical and mental health is more important.

I was happy with myself for my solo dog walk but I then had a big meltdown this afternoon as I just feel so rubbish and exhausted and bloated and crampy. I really had thought the physical part of it was easing up - which in one way I felt weird about, like once the pain went physically it was like it almost hadn't even happened if that makes sense, but now it's back it's a constant reminder. I had really hoped to do some work this week perhaps the end of the week but not sure how likely that is now. I hope you had a restful afternoon and work isn't bad for you this week xxx

Mentally the pain is there, ten times worse than the physical, but I mean when it's physically gone it's strange, my body felt like it was moving on faster than my head and my heart x

@Jx3303 it will take you a long time to heal - both mentally & physically but I am sure that you will get there slowly. Don’t rush it & don’t worry about work etc. just try to take one day at a time. Sending you lots of love & strength. Xx

@LF82 thank you ❤️ how are you feeling today? Do you have something nice planned for DH's birthday?

We booked a holiday last night, a week to east coast of Majorca just for a chilled week all inclusive. I really hope in a months time I'll be a bit better and won't spend the holiday crying! Now I need to try and lose some weight!! Xx

@Jx3303 that sounds like a fab choice & so well deserved. And don’t worry about the weight- enjoy the All inclusive!

We are going out for dinner at the weekend and I will now treat myself to some wine to go with it. I am ok- but up and down last night but feel ok today. It’s one of those there’s nothing I can do about it situations - which is basically infertility and ivf summed up x

@LF82 I just hope by then I'm feeling more myself. Feeling physically ill and sore again after a few days of being ok-ish isn't helping and I so wanted to wake up in a better mindset today but sadly didn't.

Yes definitely add some wine to your meal and enjoy it as much as you can. I am glad you are doing ok, and yeah that really is ivf and infertility summed up isn't it xx

@Jx3303 You will start to feel like yourself when your body & mind are resets it’s just going to take time which after all you have been through is so understandable. Thinking of you x

@LF82 I lay in bed for a little longer than usual and couldn't quite bring myself to do yoga but did a sound meditation instead. Little steps. I spoke to my boss to check my holiday too and she reiterated not to rush back and take my time. I'd said I'd really hoped to this week but wasn't feeling up to it yet. I'm going to meet for lunch at her house next week along with my other work friend as it's my friends wedding that weekend which I've said we'll go to as I really don't want to let her down and not be there on her big day, best to see them before it and try and get the tears out of the way x

Did the clinic get back to you about the MRI results? X

@Jx3303 Little steps are good 😊 Uoid boss sounds really nice and understanding which is good. Lunch with her and your work friend will be good- a bit of normal I guess. Glad that you are going to go to your friends wedding too. no not heard re the MRI, have sent an email to the patient co- ordinator to check they have had the results and if they can tell me what’s going on! X

@LF82 I am very lucky in that she's been amazing throughout our whole time doing IVF. She knows it of course rather be happy and working than not. Yeah I'd feel terrible if we didn't go so we will and if we need to leave early then I'm sure that would be ok. I hope you hear back from your patient coordinator soon! X

@Foreverhoping33 I am so sorry, I meant to wish you the very best of luck today for transfer. I hope it all went well and you're at home resting up and your embryo is getting cosy. Sending all the love 💕 xx

@Jx3303 ah that’s so sweet of you. The transfer went well thanks, definitely slightly more painful than I remember and I was definitely more stressed but been chilling on the sofa since.

glad to hear you have a great boss who is giving you lots of support! Definitely don’t rush back to work, it’s all such an emotional toll and we all need to look after ourselves where we can!

I’m watching Alex Jones making babies show about ivf have you guys watched it? If not I would recommend, though it’s also at kings which is my clinic so fun to spot nurses I know.

@Foreverhoping33 I'm really glad it went well and congratulations on being PUPO. I'm so happy for you after what you've went through the last few months x plenty rest and I hope for a fast tww with a very positive outcome. I'm sorry that it was painful and stressful though but glad you're now resting.

I watched the show, I think I cried at every episode. It was really good though and the clinic, Drs and nurses all seemed lovely. It must be strange seeing people you know and rooms you've been in. My mum and sister watched it too, I think it was good for them to see it from others points of view and to see everything that goes into it.

@Foreverhoping33 congrats on being PUPO! Glad it went well today & I have everything crossed for you that you get a positive outcome. Hope the next 2 weeks goes quickly!

I haven’t watched that yet but it’s on my list of things to do! X

@Foreverhoping33 congratulations on your transfer!! 😊😊 So glad this cycle turned around and you were able to go ahead in the end. Fingers crossed for you now for the wait 🤞.
When is your official test date?

@Jx3303 Glad you've got a holiday booked, it definitely helped me to escape. Sounds like you're doing better day by day, but don't rush anything and take your time xx

@LF82 sorry to hear about the cancelled cycle 😔. You're taking it well though so well done on seeing the pragmatic side. Hopefully you can get more info soon xx

What a long day. Was up at 4am with the worst cramps, along with the heavier bleeding and not feeling well I was a bit worried as I've gotten worse physically than better the last few days, so called EPU and they said to go in. We were there 11-5pm and I had an examination, swabs, bloods and urine test. When it got to about 4pm I had said to a nurse we really needed back for the dog. They wanted a Dr to scan me but said I could be waiting a few more hours so have given me an appointment time tomorrow at 4pm for a scan. They said I did the right thing going.

How is everyone else doing? Xx

@Jx3303 hope you feel better soon and doctor get to the bottom of it

@Foreverhoping33 good luck, praying it a sticky egg

@LF82 how are you feeling now, any news on your MRI

I’m just waiting now for my cycle to start probably about 15 June feeling impatient just want to start now xx

@Cat89 and @Crystal88 thanks both! My test date is the 10th June and my birthday is the 14th so very much hoping for an early birthday present!

@Crystal88 exciting that your cycle is coming up not long now!

@Jx3303 oh gosh I hope you are ok! Good job for going to the doctors and getting it checked out. Hope tomorrows appointment goes ok! Xxxx

@Cat89 thank you.

@Jx3303 think you definitely did the right thing going back? How are you feeling now?

@Foreverhoping33 got my fingers firmly crossed for you! Will you be having a blood test or home test?

@Crystal88 not heard back from the ivf clinic yet about the MRI results, will try calling tomorrow if I don’t hear from them. 15th June isn’t too long now! You don’t have too far to wait 🤞xx

@Foreverhoping33 everything crossed for the best birthday present this year 💕 do you have some nice plans over the tww? I hope work settles down too for you.

@Crystal88 not long now! The wait always seems so long doesn't it! Hope the next few weeks fly by.

Went and had my scan today, there's still tissue and blood clots. There looked like an empty sac too. I have to go back next week to the appointment I already had for post surgery. She said they could do surgery again but given they weren't able to reach something the first time, there wouldn't be much point. So I just have to wait. I just badly want this over. That was the whole point of going down the surgery route 😔

@Jx3303 oh I am so sorry this is happening to you. I am so clueless … I just assumed the surgery you had would be the only thing needed. The wait must be awful. Sending you love & strength x

@LF82 thank you 💕 I know, so rubbish. I'd hoped whatever they couldn't get to would pass and hope it still will, will see at the next scan. How are you? Xx