IVF/FET October/November 21 part 2

[paintfairy]

The other thread is full so I'm hoping everyone will find this!

@CycleGirl20 yep and worrying that I've drunk too much water and diluted my wee too much but then also wanting to drink loads to keep my body good 🤣
Yes we have 9 more frosties too so you're right there is the long game and we can always try again! Just I pray we don't have to 🤞

@ExhaustedPigeon1988
Omg I hope it's twins I will cry everyday with gratefulness 🤣 as I write these posts I realise I sound crazy but I'm so happy with our lines so far and staying positive that this time will work! No our first cycle fresh cycle was abandoned due to ohss so then went on to fet and we transferred 1 which ended in chemical we were then offered the chance to transfer 2 this time, we thought about it alot the pros and cons and I just couldn't say no as I felt it was meant to be and didn't want to turn the chance down so we're leaving it up to fate to decide. I get myself in such a state too I wish I could turn off my mind whilst going through the process as I drive myself mad but it will all be worth it in the end for all of us!
Good luck with your transfer hope it brings you good news, mine was so much quicker and less stressful this time I think that's due to knowing the procedure so it made it slightly better x

@Infertilitywarrior 9 frosties! That's amazing. Are they blastocysts or there abouts? We have one day 5 and 10 frozen day 1 fertilized eggs. I live in Germany and they can only develop enough to day 5 to make one baby at a time so hoping there's something good in my remaining 11!

@ExhaustedPigeon1988
I'm at BH Cambridge, I've been following for a while with some people having issues with BH Norwich. Its a shame as Cambridge has been amazing. As AF was late my last buserelin is due on 3rd Dec, still hoping transfer and OTD will be the same as I have planned Christmas around it 😂 i should have known! This is my first FET after a fresh cycle in aug/sept was a BFN! We have 2 frosties at unknown grades, they have told me but I don't take the grades in usually knowing how little they mean in the grand scheme!

I was okay on the drugs during my fresh cycle but this round seems to be kicking my butt big time! Cranky, anxious, tired, hungry and loss of appetite, feeling like I need to cry but can't, feel like I'm constantly on at my DH. I feel sorry for him. Oh and the bloat, and the dreams 😂

@CycleGirl20 we had 21 collected 18 matured 12 fertilised and yes 12 made it to blastocyst (or so I believe they could have told me anything on the phone that day and I wouldn't have taken it in properly as I was so excited so many had made it) so we've been really lucky in that respect let's hope we're lucky with these 2.
Wow you've got a good amount too, good luck its interesting how different countries have different rules for ivf x

@Nerdalert I'm glad you are getting on ok with cambridge, maybe norwich could learn a thing or 2 from them ;-) sorry to hear you are struggling with the drugs, I feel you. I am angry and crying at the same time, absolutely exhausted (I also work 10-7 5 or 6 days a week as I run my own salon which is pretty intense at the best of times), and the headaches have done me in. I do feel for the other half, but I also feel very alone in the process, not his fault, but he thinks I'm ok most of the time when inside I am driving myself crazy going round and round over everything. It's hard that our results will be so close to Christmas isn't it, I feel I can't plan a drunken Christmas, which I would really love to. Just in case.... I don't want to plan seeing people or having people round. Just in case.... it's how I seem to be living life atm which makes me even more frustrated.

@Infertilitywarrior I'm so happy for you, I hope our double brings us luck. I would be the same, super excited :) I think I would need to test every hour just to check it's really real lol x

@ExhaustedPigeon1988
My other half has been really good, most of my family and friends know we are going through the process. Its been better for me having people know when I'm having good days and bad days, they're always really supportive. Work have also been really good. I have a training schedule and the long hours usually come every 8 weeks or so!

I haven't had the headaches this time round thankfully but I had them last time I know how you feel. Do I remember rightly this is your first FET too?

@ExhaustedPigeon1988 I keep checking the tests in my draw just to check the line is still there and I haven't dreamt it 🤣
Hope your double brings you double luck xx

@Nerdalert a training schedule? I'm going a bit mad having not done anything high intensity since transfer. Is your training exercise related? How are you finding it?

@CycleGirl20 apologies, I'm in the military and I teach other people, my actual physical exercise regime is minimal during a cycle. I find it hard to get up and go, as it were but feel okay during and after

Ah I see. I'd love to do some weight lifting or some more intense cardio!

@Nerdalert tbh my other half had been amazing, I wouldn't have got through it without him. But men are men, and he's easily distracted and forgets things that are important to me, even if they are really trivial to others. So I find myself feeling alone, mainly my own doing as I am definitely over sensitive! Yep first FET, having a double, been told 45% success rate, and 25% chance of twins. Would like just the one ideally as dream is a home water birth. But now at the stage will be damn happy with any positive outcome lol

@Infertilitywarrior haha that is exactly what I would be like lol. Thank you, have fingers crossed tightly x

I’m feeling much less tired and more like myself - worried this means it’s all over. 6dp5dt today and up to yesterday was feeling really rough but today I feel pretty much my normal self. . Not that I want to feel like rubbish lol but at least it felt like something was happening 😱

@Gensola I'm finding it goes in cycles. I felt awful on Friday and then yesterday I was convinced it'd not work. Now I have sore boobs which at 12dpo/6dp5dt would be unusual for me, or about to start going at least. I think a lot of it is the progesterone suppositories anyway. Our real symptoms this early might be quite subtle or non existent until a little later. I've realised I'm only on 90mg progesterone which I take in the morning, so been trying to work out if that's enough to keep my boobs sore all night 😅

@Gensola @CycleGirl20 I’m the same, I feel normal sort of but also like AF is round the corner.

I woke up in the night because I was really hot and I feel really weepy. Also can feel subtle cramps, I’m so scared it is my period rather than symptoms. I feel like I’m coming down with something too 😢 xxxx

I don't feel a lot of symptoms and I test Wednesday. I am getting little sleep but purely through anxiety of it not working I'm constantly dreaming about it, I'm convinced now it hasn't for some reason. Maybe I'm just preparing myself !? I don't know where my positivity has gone, someone give me theirs !?

@makeithappen2022 yes the coming down with something! I have night sweats. On Saturday night I was sure I'd caught Corona. I thought I was doing it to myself by obsessing about my symptoms. I've done a really good job of not crying since Friday when a horrible bus driver emptied the contents of a large puddle over my head. I'm holding it back several times a day at the moment

@IVFGotThis05 I'm fairly sure it's not worked too. But then the next minute I start to wonder if it could have because my boobs are sore or the likes.

Can I join please? I’m 2dp5dt. We had been trying for 3 years before IVF. We never found the reason for our infertility though I had very slow follicle growth during IVF and all but one of our embryos was less than 6 cells on day 3 so maybe we have an explanation now. I feel very lucky we got to transfer an embryo on Saturday.
I’m feeling my breasts all the time and they aren’t sore, then I’m feeling slightly crampy and thinking it’s my period. I usually get intense period cramps that have me in extreme pain for about a week before my period so I’m nervously anticipating them. I think I’m so used to failure I can’t believe it could go well. I want to snap out of it and be positive but dark thoughts of it all not working keep seeping through. I have a day off work today and I thought I’d watch Netflix and eat all day to distract myself!! I’m going to watch crap that DH doesn’t like to feel like I’ve treated myself!

It’s an emotional rollercoaster. I feel more negative than positive. I think I’m trying to protect myself but also am such a positive person normally. I am dreading doing a test and seeing a BFN, I think it will break me this time.

I also can’t work out when my period is actually due, is it 4 weeks from my last one or will that have changed due to treatment/meds etc? If it’s 4 weeks it is due on Wednesday but my otd isn’t until Sunday which seems quite a long time after. My transfer was last Tuesday so I’m sure 6dp 5dt with test day 12dp 5dt? Does that seem right that I would test 5 days after period is due?

@makeithappen2022 was it a fresh transfer? If so then EC would technically be ovulation. So if your LP is usually 14 days or whatever, then that's when your period would be due. My OTD was 3 days after when my period would have technically been due. I was therefore pretty sure I'd see a reduction in symptoms in those last few days.
The daft thing is- I'm still doing the same thing every day. Do my boobs still hurt. Oh no I'm sure they hurt less than yesterday etc. The craziness doesn't actually stop. 🤦‍♀️

@SunsetNights 👋. I'm 7dp5dt and had cramps the first few days after transfer. Several others said they did too so I think it's normal and not AF related.

@makeithappen2022 infertility is a bit of a dark hole that you end up sitting in alone. Even if you're normally positive and happy with a supportive DH or friends/family. I find trying to focus on longer term goals like "this cycle" or "the next X transfers" sometimes helps, or at least saves my total meltdown up for a few months

Thank you @paintfairy that makes sense. My EC was on Thursday 11th so Thursday I guess is my due date so test day is therefore the same as you, 3 days after it’s expected.
Yeah I can imagine, I would be the same.
How did you feel the few days before AF was due? X

@makeithappen2022 I thought exciting would be settling down. But it just didn't. I Therefore started to allow myself believe it had worked. 2 days before test day though, I suddenly decided it hadn't. My otd was 13 days after transfer but I tested on day 12 as I needed to put myself out of my misery. I didn't want to think it might have worked and then get a horrid shock it hadn't. I would have tested day 11 but DH was out all day and late, so it didn't seem sensible. But I was still bloated, not sleeping, with hurting boobs.

@CycleGirl20 yes I agree as this will need to be next cycle for us if this doesn’t work. It’s so difficult when we have these emotional spirals alone and it’s hard to catch yourself sometimes. I often feel better once it’s out. So this group is so helpful for that. Thank you x

@paintfairy I was excited too until yesterday but already feeling better just from getting everything out there. I think I’m seeing symptoms that are usually before AF and having a bit of a panic about them, but they are also pregnancy and pessary side effects! Thank you… going to try to get back on the positive train x

@makeithappen2022 I totally know how you feel. This is my third cycle and each one has been a bit different. Infertility is the worst and the tww is just a b*tch. Each moment drags. I try to remain positive but then wonder if I should be realistic so I don't come crashing down should it not work out.