IVF/FET October/November 21 part 2

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The other thread is full so I'm hoping everyone will find this!

@Hufflepuff1 exactly that. This is my second. My first worked first time but ended in mc and then the frozen one didn’t take. I think those sad experiences particularly the mc have just left me scared. This second cycle I only got one 5 day so it was transfered fresh and a 4aa so amazing quality but has put the pressure on it as we will have to go for cycle 3 if it doesn’t work and it’s the emotions and money and highs and lows all over again x

@exhaustedpigeon1988
I totally get it, my DH is amazing but sometime just doesn't know what to do! Ill have everything crossed for at least 1 sticky embaby for you! 🍍

@makeithappen2022 mc anxiety is something else!
On my second cycle we had a hatching 5AB transferred and we miscarried two days before the 7 week scan. It was absolutely devastating and took me 18 months to get in the right mindset to try again. This time it's worse because the embryo is a bit lower in quality - which I know means nothing - but the anxiety over the tww is something else. I want it so bad it hurts.

I'm stressing already, it just never gets any easier, does it? Worrying about getting to the next stage.

@exhaustedpigeon1988 Everything OK here, I am significantly behind the rest of you! I start my contraceptive pill early December. Egg collection is not till end of Jan! Just waiting patiently (yeah right) for things to get moving! Thanks for asking! I continue to read through the threads regularly and wishing the best for all of you.

@Hufflepuff1 it sounds like we have had a really similar experience, I lost at the same point and I have really had to build up to doing this again, 2 years for me with the frozen that didn’t take in the middle. I’m desperate for this to happen too. The support on here really helps to get some of this out.

@paintfairy I know it’s such a roller coaster. But you also have to enjoy the success you are having at the moment, you are keeping our hope alive that the BFPs are waiting for us all! X

@lucymills1234 I am so sorry, what an utterly rubbish year you've had. Only you know if the pain of continuing is greater than the pain of letting go. It's so hard and your last cycle sounds like an epic fuckup. Time to grieve and think and process sounds good, as does getting answers from the clinic about how the screwed up so badly.

@MrsC2018 - sorry, that sucks. I hate how this is so unpredictable with so much to lose.

Congratulations to all those with BFPs, however.

I'm on day six of Stims today, after cyst drainage on Thursday. Sadly we had our cat pts today. He was the best cat in the world and only five and half, but he had acute renal failure. We loved him very very much.

My Dad's also ill with pancreatic cancer and having palliative care. I told the clinic all this, and they gave me a two week sick note. I was scared of falling to pieces in front of a customer at work. Wondering how I'll use these two weeks as a time to recover - maybe just walks and reading and writing and making our flat lovely and cosy, though it will be so weird being there without Olives always following me around.

Looks like ER will be twenty ninth for me now.

@theotherfossilsister I have been looking forward to your update, I wasn't expecting to hear such sad news! I'm so sorry to are dealing with all of this on top of IVF- as if that isn't stressful enough! I really feel for you losing your 🐈‍⬛, we have 5, lost our 6th a year ago, it's awful! My heart goes out to you! What does this mean for treatment? Couldn't you make it to EC then freeze? Saves the ttw and stress that causes, but saves you going through stims again? Or is all that just far too much? Really hope things get easier for you x

@Jazz234 I think your boring bit will fly by as you can enjoy Christmas, the rest will creep up on you and be happening before you realise :) x

@Nerdalert thank you, dreaded scan tomorrow, hope everything is working as it should!

@ExhaustedPigeon1988 good luck with your scan today!
I have been awake since 0353 😱💀 totally wide awake and couldn’t get back to sleep so ended up getting up.
Is anyone else here on Lubion injections? Mine have suddenly started giving me giant bruises now, when they weren’t before. I think it’s because I’m injecting into areas that have recently had the drug in and it’s so gloopy and viscous, so it’s hard to even get it to go in sometimes. Just wondered if anyone else is having issues with it?

@theotherfossilsister so sorry you are going through so much at the moment. That is a huge amount of strain to be under.

@gensola yes I’m on lubion and have the same thing. Tried upper thigh but that was worse. It’s a big volume to inject subcutaneously and like you said very viscous. I’ve been involved in the vaccine programme at weekends this year (it’s actually paid for quite a lot of my ivf!) and have done literally thousands of injections so it’s definitely the drug not the technique . I am also exhausted but at the same time can’t sleep properly.

I caved and tested yesterday at 4dp5dt . There was maybe the faintest of lines which may or may not have come within the right timeframe so not really any wiser, just poorer as I know this will mean at least one FRER a day for the next week

I do have nausea, and am hungry and completely exhausted. But am on loads of progynova and progesterone so it’s probably that. I’m getting my hopes up massively this time though which is scaring me. I was completely detached last time which is probably not healthy but made the result easier to deal with.

@Tinyhappypeople omg congratulations! I almost caved today when I woke up for my 0353am wee 🙃 but didn’t and now I’m safe til tomorrow as I’d only want to use FMU. No chance I’m making it to Saturday which is OTD, hoping to last until Friday which will be 10dp5dt.
Do you think I could inject Lubion (ie get DH to do it) into the top of my bum cheek? Or would it not be absorbed there as well?

@Gensola thank you. Been up since 5 worrying about it, really am dreading it, don't know why I have gotten myself so worked up over this one, feeling physically sick at the thought of it!

@Tinyhappypeople even a faded line so early is incredibly amazing.... defo need to check again tomorrow ;-) x

@ExhaustedPigeon1988 good luck for today.

I'm not on lubion but it doesn't sound like fun at all. You're all amazing. @tinyhappypeople congrats!

@theotherfossilsister sorry to hear all that you are going through xx
@Tinyhappypeople omg congratulations let's hope today has an even clearer line because as you say you know you won't be able to resist testing everyday🤣🤞
@ExhaustedPigeon1988 good luck with your scan today xx

@Tinyhappypeople congrats! I really want to test early but today I've woken up thinking it's not worked. All symptoms have disappeared so think I'll hold out a little longer.

@Gensola I am on lubion injections and have the same. If I inject into the same spot without realising it hurts and there's a bit of blood after.

@Hufflepuff1 that was me yesterday wasn’t it, today I have woken feeling so much better. I had a dream that our baby was here and I was wrapping her in a blanket and it has given me a bit of a boost. My sore boobs seem to be back too and I’m very tired, could all be AF symptoms I know too but going to hold onto the better feelings today.

Did anyone get a video of their embryoscope? They are sending me one of it developing.

@makeithappen2022 I woke up today feeling a bit empty and kept waking up to stretch last night? Lol what even is that. I had a few twinges and cramps up until yesterday and today nothing.
What a lovely dream to have! And glad you are feeling better today. Fingers crossed that rubs off on me too, its my birthday tomorrow too

Thanks @ExhaustedPigeon1988 - he was the best cat and such a friend. I know people sometimes think he's just a cat, but he was so much, and with the infertility and my dad being ill it's just too much. I feel like I'm taking the piss being signed off, and especially stressed as my direct manager was on leave yesterday so had to speak to another manager, who was really nice but still waiting for my manager to call today.

They suggested that I could possibly have a freeze all cycle to take away the stress and also in case I have to drop everything and go to.my family if/when Dad deteriorates. Dp thinks this is delaying future cycles potentially, and we're getting older but I just think a failed transfer on top of this would be unbelievably shit.

Really great luck for all waiting on results and scans and egg retrieval. And thank you for all the lovely messages. I can't believe Olives has gone xx

@theotherfossilsister sorry to hear your having such a rough time. Look after yourself and your mental health especially during this time x

Well I think I'm out, had brownish discharge when I went to the loo just now, never happened before except for when I previously miscarried. Devastating. Good luck to everyone else 🤞

@Hufflepuff1 this could be implantation though? When is your period due? The rollercoaster is so hard x

@makeithappen2022 I literally have no idea re period. I have pcos so I don't have a regular cycle so I don't know how I would calculate that.

Ok normally will be about 14 days after your egg collection date

@Hufflepuff1 so sorry, it’s all so up and down isn’t it. Fingers crossed that it’s something like an implantation bleed.

@theotherfossilsister such a beautiful cat 🐈‍⬛ 💕. In your position I can see why a freeze all would appeal, and although you will be older the embryos won’t if that makes sense! It is a huge amount to be going through and a transfer on top sounds like a lot.

Thanks for the congratulations . It’s so early I’m not sure if I can count it yet, but there is a definite (very faint) line there today at day 5. I started bleeding around this time last time so not relaxing yet, but I am quietly hopeful. Haven’t actually told anyone yet (no partner) and probably won’t for a few days.