Good luck today @VenusStarr, I've been keeping everything crossed for you x
@lucymills1234 I am gobsmacked and livid and heartbroken for you. Surely they are going to refund you your money? Did they say what stage/grade the one they actually transferred was at?
@MrsC2018 and @paintfairy how are you two holding up?
I've been away from these boards for good reason during the end of stims/ER/updates/ET - the whole thing has been a complete emotional rollercoaster for me and to provide 'live updates' would have been even worse
so forgive me for brain-dumping the whole previous week here:
My ER last Friday yielded 7 eggs, the same as last time, which was kind of disappointing as I had been on an increased dose of stims and I appeared to have more follicles this time around. I also had fainted about an hour before ER as the first attempt at cannulation wasn't successful - I came to with two very worried nurses over me! I've said it before - Bourn Hall may not be the best at comms but their in-person clinical care is excellent.
During retrieval the embryologist was saying to the doctor that they hadn't got any eggs out of several follicles that had been aspirated. Yet again, one of my ovaries was hard to access and the anaesthetist had to press down on my abdomen to allow the doctor to reach it - eventually the doctor gave up on the remaining follicles as he explained that they were of too small a size to be worth it/yield a mature egg. @ExhaustedPigeon1988 I had the same deal as you in the Norwich clinic - it is no longer policy to give a relaxant beforehand, so I had two paracetamol beforehand and everything else given via IV. I concur that this time round it was a lot more painful, although not unbearable (although I did get told off for clenching my buttocks during
).
As my last round ended up with zero fertilisation, I was dreading the embryologist's call on day 1, but luckily I got a very chirpy call that 5 out of the 7 had fertilised - I was over the moon! Apparently one egg had not survived the ICSI injection and another one that had been injected degenerated overnight (it was 'dark' looking, apparently), but the rest were 2PN and looking good. I asked for a day 3 update, and everything was still looking relatively good on Monday: one had not divided and was still 1 cell, one was at the 4-cell stage so a day behind, but the rest were 8, 9 and 10 cells respectively and all looked pretty symmetrical and not too fragmented (one was more fragmented than the rest though), so I was due to come in about midday on Wednesday for day 5 transfer.
I had been steeling myself for the worst-case scenario at every point throughout this process, including having nothing to transfer at day 5 - they told me if they rang on day 5 before my appointment, then it was going to be bad news and I wasn't to come in. Lo and behold, I got a call at 9am on the dot, where they said it was bad news - everything was behind where it should be, the best one was only a grade 1 blast, so barely a blast at all, and the other two were compacting morulas which looked heavily fragmented and poor quality. However they asked me to come in anyway as they were likely to transfer two? Which confused the hell out of me, as if they were so shit, why bother transferring them? There were a a lot of tears and a silent car journey on the way there.
However, when we arrived into the room for transfer, the doctor said "Better news!" - apparently there were now two actual blastocysts (one better than the other) and this had happened in the last couple of hours???
And then they wanted to give us the pros and cons of transferring one or two: two, you get the risk of a multiple pregnancy; but if they transferred the best one, then there was always the chance that the other two they left until day 6 wouldn't be good enough to freeze and I would lose any NHS funding for a subsequent FET as there wouldn't be anything to transfer. They all left the room and gave my husband and I a few minutes to decide, and we both decided to transfer two pretty much immediately. ET itself was completely painless. I asked the doctor if it was true that he wouldn't transfer anything that he didn't think had a chance of making it, and he said absolutely, this was in no way a hopeless endeavour. I still have no idea what the actual grade of what they transferred was, but at this point I don't think it especially matters. The other morula they were keeping an eye on until day 6 obviously crapped out as I didn't get a phone call saying they were going to freeze anything, but then the embryologist said it wasn't likely to do much on the day of transfer.
So now I'm 2dp5dt with two somethings that may or may not be the sad fragmented sweepings off the embryology floor. I've awoken inconsolable from nightmares of disembodied voices calmly telling me that my embryos are already dead and that I'm not meant to be a mother, and been pretty much sobbing constantly during the daytime as well, but I'm guessing the Cyclogest isn't helping there 
Isn't the 2WW great!!