Continued chat of all things IVF, FET & to feel sane...cycle buddies August/September -

[Bluemeadowbaby]

Hey ladies ☺️

A new thread to continue the one we've maxed out from the FET cycle buddies May/June. Anyone wishing to join no matter what stage you're at we're here to support you along the way.

A little background around me - I have a little boy who's 16mo from my second IVF round in 2019. I'm just embarking (restarting after covid setback) on my first FET cycle with the embryos I have in storage in the hope for baby #2 🤞🏼
I have severe endometriosis, hydrosalpinx tubes which have been removed so my only hope is for IVF to work again. It's been a long old journey but if I can give any hope, faith and a tonne of support to anyone who needs it I'm happy to share my story, updates on my cycle and be there to have a general chin wag ☺️

We've got this! ✨ x

@Bluemeadowbaby that's crap. Totally messing with your emotions as you set yourself up for these milestone moments, scans, transfers etc. I would have been mega pissed off too and cried. When our treatment got pushed out earlier this year, I was devastated. Just keep yourself busy over these next few wks. It will pass soon. Never feel guilty that you have a little sunbeam - so lovely you got the toddler cuddles. I bet that helped!

@Verbena87 the whole pharmacy part of this ivf is a complete rip off. I just don't get how they can charge so much for all of it. Is it gold plated? So far for what we have paid - I could have put an extension on our house probably! That pisses me right off!!
I would however pay Tom Hardy. £45 to drop off my pessaries ;-). He's so fit!

@2mumlife have a nice time in Scotland. We are off to my parents this weekend - so poas at their house... the pressure !!!

Back to the walking dead for me- series 9 now...
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A bit TMI but I have had a little bit - just a little bit of a discharge.... didn't have this on last cycle so it's thrown me. Waiting on clinic to call me back..... google isn't helping me! X

@Pingupp try not to worry. I had slight bleeding early on with my successful cycle, nothing bar a bit of pink/blood-streaked discharge after transfer on the failed one, weird discharge with both. It’s one of those hold-out-for-OTD situations I reckon. Sending hugs xxx

@Pingupp I actually live in Scotland, but yes will have a nice time up north. Gosh POAS anywhere you don't have real privacy is tough I feel. On one of my IUIs I had to do it in a hotel room and that was bad enough. How many days are you and is the discharge red, pink or brown? I had watery brown discharge on my chemical pregnancy, and my period started before OTD on all my other unsuccessful attempts.

@2mumlife hi it's like old watery discharge - not bright red. It has stopped now. Clinic called and said it could be a no of things and to try and take it easy today....I am day 10 today - nurse said to test tomorrow - so will do it in the morning. I don't have any cramps or anything which I am hoping is a good sign..... so hard!!
@Verbena87 yes I suppose each one is different - I have made the mistake of comparing both transfers and that hasn't helped me at all.....
I am also thinking those bloody plastic pessary applicators aren't that nice and I could have shoved it up a bit to aggressively last night !!!
Xx

@Pingupp keeping my fingers tightly crossed for you!! Things are sounding promising given the dull ache the other day 🤞🏼 keep us posted! X

@2mumlife @Verbena87 just to add to the face palm of life atm...got a call from the clinic this morning to say zoladex injection is 23rd September and transfer date estimated w/c 1st NOVEMBER 😂🙈🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ feels like when I create these "join us for X month" threads I'm literally 3 months behind each time! Ahhhh I'm laughing because I genuinely want to cry 😂😭 bastards!! They're my embryos! I want them!! I have told the clinic I'm not paying a penny more and they did agree that it's on their heads. Sticking to my guns! X

Oh @Bluemeadowbaby it’s rough, glad they seem to have admitted responsibility a bit at least. Sending a huge hug.

@Pingupp how’s it going? Not long now - thinking of you lots.

@2mumlife is your highlands adventure this weekend? Enjoy if so.

My period is here (2 days early just to keep us on our toes) so it’s go-time here: starting estrogen tonight and crossing everything like mad.

@Pingupp Hoping for a positive outcome for you

@Bluemeadowbaby Good on you for telling them they can fork the bill. If all goes well for us I might be having a FET about the same time as you then 🤞🏼 🤞🏼

@Verbena87 No trip isn't until October after were done with this cycle. That's exciting you're getting going.

We've officially started stims here. Have a headache but also had a lot of meetings tomorrow, so we'll see. Have to wait until next Friday for forst scan which feels forever to know if I'm actually responding well this time or not

@Bluemeadowbaby just catching up on messages. That's awful about the wait when you just want to get going - but you now have a date to work on. Get crossing those dates off the calendar. I know how disappointing it is to get set backs on timescales. We'll all still want to chat - don't worry!!! In this together Good for you - telling them no more cash. Makes me so cross.
@Verbena87 how are you feeling? Nice news you have started the drugs again- well side effects are not nice but you know what I mean!
@2mumlife fingers crossed your scan next week shows good results and your cycle can progress.

So did the test this morning at my parents at 5.30am- and we got the bfp ( shocked as feel totally different to last time ) and we are fully aware we lost our last embaby before 6 wk scan so not getting ahead of ourselves this time. Get to scan and take it from there. Realistic hat firmly on but typing with a smile on my face. Now need to get rushed drugs order through as run out of lubion on Mon- god knows how much the robbing b&stards are going to charge me for that!!. Hoping Tom Hardy is doing his delivery rounds ;-)

Have a lovely weekend ladies. We have got this xx

@Pingupp that’s such lovely news! You’ve given me a boost of hope - keeping everything crossed for everything continuing to go well.

@2mumlife I’m not even on buserelin so can’t blame my crappy memory on hormone-fog even! Wishing you all the best for your scan and lots of lovely eggs.

@Bluemeadowbaby crossing off on a calendar sounds good, and maybe book in some kind of treat while you wait?

@Pingupp Congratulations! Will your clinic give you a beta hcg test to check levels are good?

Thanks for scan wishes. I'm had a total "please, I can't eat any more protein" moment at lunch so I'm not sure how I'm going to get on keeping up the high protein intake until collection.

@Verbena87 thanks lovely hugs right back! I think the treat sounds like a fabulous idea 🥰 X

@2mumlife aw this is excellent news! I'm sure it'll fly round for us 🤞🏼 I feel like September seems to be like the shortest month in the lead up to Christmas 😄 x

@Pingupp this has made my day!! Tom hardy definitely needs to bring the drugs 😄 sending my congratulations & hoping things stay smooth running for you my lovely! Truly have got this x

@2mumlife oh god, ducking protein! I’m on a mission to push my BMI up a bit before transfer so downloaded my fitness pal (which I hate, because calorie tracking saps joy out of life and brings out my obsessive side - but needs must) and discovered I don’t eat enough protein so have been trying to up it a bit, but honestly I think I am built to run on carbs. We don’t eat much meat and it really is tricky. High protein calorie-dense meal ideas very welcome here!

Here for a moan I’m afraid. I’ve had 2 days of estrogen (progynova) and I am so incredibly tired. Don’t remember this last time, is it a thing? Have just slept through DH ripping out a fireplace in the room below me ffs! Still feel like I can’t wake up - am usually up at 6 on work days and 7ish otherwise. Someone tell me this will pass?!

@Verbena87 try these yogs for breakfast lindhals kvarg -4 for £3 in Tesco - really nice - I have been having these and they are full of protein and keep you full. Also check out bbc good food website and type in high protein recipes- loads on there x

Thanks your messages @Verbena87 @Bluemeadowbaby @2mumlife it was a shock for us both!

Bloody pharmacy 2U not open yesterday so clinic cannot get me lubion for Tues so I have to drive to Southampton tomorrow to collect it - just a pain in the ass I can do without - 2 hour round trip - chris can't go as working so I need to do it.

I woke up at 2am with excruciating ( period type pains ) that lasted 20 mins last night.... really worried now as I had same pains on day 10 and 11 post transfer last time and pregnant ended in miscarriage.....
Any words of wisdom ?? I will mention to the clinic tomorrow.

This is so hard - you can go from being so incredibly happy to feeling shite in less than a day on this fertility journey - it's so demoralising :-(

Xx

Sorry for the late response, I've been on a well needed family break. Hope you're all ok and having a lovely weekend.
@Pingupp What amazing news! Congratulations on your BFP 🥳
Thank you for the booze free recommendations and for the reassurance!. The viability scan is on the 14th Sept when id be 8w2d. Currently taking utrogestan pessaries, lubion injection, estradiol patches and estradiol tablets. I'd be finishing the drugs at 7w5d. Apparently they usually see you before you finish, however it's just the way my dates have falled.
My plan was to call the clinic again next week to double check before finishing everything, as it's a nerve-wracking thought.
The whole IVF process is such a rollercoaster.. Having any pains like that is terrifying as it takes us to thinking the worst. I had a similar episode 4 days after our positive test, woke at midnight to pain that lasted 20 mins. The pain felt the same as bad period pain. It eased and i fell back asleep. No blood so i made a note of it and tried not to think too much more of it. I hope this may help.

@Bluemeadowbaby Glad you had a lovely time on your date night!
Thank you for the reassurance too, it feels better knowing someone else has experienced a similar time line for these things before.
Sorry to hear about the crap you've been getting from your clinic? If you don't mind me asking, which clinic are you using?

I've had stronger than usual back ache this morning, then some dark red blood and period like pains when i got up. Feel like my worst fears are coming true, but trying to brave it out as there isn't anything that can be done to change what happens. Spoke to the on-call clinic nurse who advised i can ring the clinic first thing tomorrow and see if they want me in for an earlier scan. Now there's the wait to see how the rest of the day goes.. this whole process is indescribably hard to handle 😔

@Verbena87 Well I'm trying to up protein without increasing my BMI so slightly different. I've been having quite a bit of smoked salmon and omelettes. Love nuts but stopped buying cashews as they have a bad protein to carb ratio. I felt thirsty on the estrogen pills but that was it. I'm definitely having headaches on Ovaleap though

@Pingupp @Millie029 No words of wisdom other than take it one day at a time. Remember we are now all highly sensitive to every feeling and symptom

All's fine here, just ticking away with stims until Friday and hoping for the best

Thanks all.

@Pingupp I had such bad period type pains with my pregnancy I was sure the embryo must’ve implanted in a tube so went to my viability scan convinced they’d find an ectopic pregnancy. Nope. All good. Really hope it’s the same for you.

Lots of luck to @Millie029 too - sounds so scary. I think @2mumlife is right about one day at a time.

@Millie029 hi - I hope all is ok. I can imagine you are worried.
My partner keeps telling me I can do nothing to change things now and we just have to see what happens on 15th.
Fingers crossed for us both x
@2mumlife you are so right- every twinge, pain etc is now ringing alarm bells!! It's a nightmare x
@Verbena87 I am going to try and be a bit more positive.... x

@2mumlife Thank you, you're so right there - One day at a time. Very true! I didn't think of it like that at all.. the sensitivity to it is so bad. There always seems to be something to worry about. I think i need to work on that!
Luckily the bleeding turned brown and slowed yesterday.. got some brown still today and some new aching back and hips, but trying to not worry about it. I went in for a scan this afternoon after speaking with the clinic again. They saw an embryo measuring within range and with a heartbeat..Such a relief. No obvious cause of the bleed, so just hoping it doesn't happen again anytime soon. Grateful for what we saw today, trying to focus on that.
Everythings crossed for your stims working their magic for you x

@verbena87 Thank you, it really was scary! X

@pingupp Thank you.. you're partner is right, it's just hard to keep positive isn't it. Everythings crossed for you too x

@Millie029 excellent news!! Try and keep positive and enjoy being pregnant now

@Millie029 Just try to embrace the miracle of getting to the stage of hearing a heartbeat!

@Millie029 there's so many bumps in the road before during and after along with many aches, pains and weirdness! We can never rest easy sadly 🙈 but so great to hear you've seen a heartbeat! Take it easy and one day at a time, but at the same time take comfort that things are looking promising. I know from experience you'll feel on edge until you meet each milestone scan, kick and not feel settled until baby is in your arms but always follow your gut. If something doesn't feel right make sure you get checked, they'd rather see you a million times and everything be okay than not see you at all 💕 x

I am having a wobble today - feel nothing. I feel like it's stopped again like last time and when we get to scan embaby won't be there.....
I am officially 5 wks today and have zero symptoms apart from bloating from the drugs.
Hope you are all having a better day and have managed to enjoy this lovely sunshine.
Pity party over! Xx

@Pingupp stay strong lovely, I know it's very hard but hang on in there. I too remember feeling this way and know the stresses. Sending you big hugs and a big bar of chocolate if I could x