Continued chat of all things IVF, FET & to feel sane...cycle buddies August/September -

[Bluemeadowbaby]

Hey ladies ☺️

A new thread to continue the one we've maxed out from the FET cycle buddies May/June. Anyone wishing to join no matter what stage you're at we're here to support you along the way.

A little background around me - I have a little boy who's 16mo from my second IVF round in 2019. I'm just embarking (restarting after covid setback) on my first FET cycle with the embryos I have in storage in the hope for baby #2 🤞🏼
I have severe endometriosis, hydrosalpinx tubes which have been removed so my only hope is for IVF to work again. It's been a long old journey but if I can give any hope, faith and a tonne of support to anyone who needs it I'm happy to share my story, updates on my cycle and be there to have a general chin wag ☺️

We've got this! ✨ x

@firefly37 Oww gosh that sounds awful. I hope you are all feeling better soon! Noro is just the worse, and so exhausting even without the family to look after.
My pads are covered in a thin coating of bright red blood every time I go to the toilet but my tests aren’t getting any lighter yet. It’s been 8 days of bleeding now, nothing like my previous miscarriages which is my I’m so confused. I haven’t spoken to community midwife as I wasn’t sure they’d have anything to add. Maybe I’ll call them tomorrow if my clinic still has nothing to add. Eh!

@firefly37 you poor, poor thing! Noro is brutal, you must be utterly worn out. Sending hugs. Thanks for the kind words. I’ve got an urgent counselling referral from the clinic and a follow up call at the end of the month, then I’m putting it right out of my head until the new year. I’ve reached the point where I’m genuinely unwell mentally now and my work and home life are both suffering enough for me to think it’s time to rest and regroup for a couple of months.

@PinkRose100 those tests do look good. Hold tight! I feel like after my crappy weekend one of us deserves a win just in the interests of balance - keeping it all crossed for you. It’s tricky because if it’s a cervix thing (what they used to call an erosion, but now has a fancy name I can’t remember - basically a delicate but but not harmful) then an exam will spot it, but will also risk irritating it more. The not knowing is a killer. Xxx

@firefly37 oh no!! That sounds like my worst nightmare kinda weekend 🤢 my little boy has it a couple months back and while I dealt with it at the time it was horrible for my anxiety as I have emetophobia and it still doesn't get any better 🤣🙈 hoping you all get through it soon! Thank you, feeling much better from the cold today x

@PinkRose100 definitely worth a call to the clinic, sorry I forgot you're still with them. Maybe they could do a little scan to see what's going on? Lines are looking steady which is great! Hoping little one is just getting snuggly like really really snuggly. Are you cramping with the bleeding? X

@Verbena87 this sounds like a perfect plan, definitely time for a bit of rest mentally and I'm glad to hear you have a counselling call on the cards. Keep us posted with how you get on in all areas, will be thinking of you x

@Verbena87 my all time favourite quote which I look at often when times are hard - a little quote to share together ❤️

Amen to that @Bluemeadowbaby (though I bloody love a mountain).

I also like Dorothy Parker’s ‘Resume’:-

Resumé
BY DOROTHY PARKER
Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren’t lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

@PinkRose100 how are you doing today? Xx

Hi everyone, so sorry I've been quiet. Just catching up on everyone's updates.

@Verbena87 so sorry to see your news. I hope you can get some r&r. You could book yourself a massage or a spa day to get away from it all.

@PinkRose100 keeping everything crossed for you that it's all going well.

@Bluemeadowbaby how are you doing?

We have our eligibility appointment on Thursday. I had a (ridiculous) bad dream about it last night and I think I am feeling quite nervous. I don't really know why. All the tests are things we have had before. I don't know whether it's because it's all becoming quite real and I still want to be in denial that everything will just right itself without intervention! Stupid I know!

Hi everyone. I've been away from the board a bit, as have been too angry/frustrated at lack of communication from clinic and fertility in general. Was away last week with DP which helped.

Sounds like a few of you hage really been through the wringer the past week.

@Bluemeadowbaby I've been needed that quote! thanks for sharing. I think we all need a bit of self care by the sounds of it!

My clinic had me in for a blood test to look at my HCG levels again, not that I think that will tell me much. They’ve said 6 week scan is end of next week so that’s the best time to look at what’s going on. The consultant has offered me a zoom call later when he has the results but the nurse said he won’t really have anything to add. My test lines are slightly lighter today so I’m not sure if that’s just because my wee was less concentrated or if it’s a sign I’m now loosing it.
@seathistle sorry to hear about your bad dreams, it’s amazing how it takes over our minds even when we are sleeping. I hope Thursday comes quickly for you and gives you what you need xxx

@seathistle a massage is a great idea actually, good shout. Going to try and get a haircut booked in as well as I’ve been avoiding ‘unnecessary’ contact during treatment so it’s looking a bit straggly. Kind of feeling I might as well try and get covid out of the way before our final attempt now.

@2mumlife really glad you got away together, and sorry everything’s been so frustrating. Am sending you good wishes.

@PinkRose100 I’m sorry stuff is so scary and uncertain for you. Did your beta suggest anything definitely wrong? Really hope the scan is conclusively good news for you, and hope you get through the wait with some sanity intact. Xxx

Clinic just called and HCG only 59 so pregnancy isn’t viable so I have to stop the meds. Over £10k spent on miscarriage treatments and still having miscarriages (plus IVF costs). So hard to think this will ever work for me. They are saying it may have just been a dodgy fresh embryo so month after next I will try with my one PGS tested frozen. At least I know what’s going on now as I was losing my mind for a while. Thanks to you for all your support xx

@PinkRose100 I'm so so sorry. You must be exhausted after all the waiting too. Thinking of you.

@Verbena87 that's a good idea. Doing "normal" things might help make you feel a bit more like yourself. Having to be cautious because of covid is stressful in itself. Hope you feel pampered after the hair dresser. I'm getting mine done today too! 💇🏼‍♀️

@PinkRose100 omg I also sorry to read this. There are no words. Massive hugs.
It's such a massive emotional and financial strain - I know as been there. Take your time and don't rush the next steps. Xxx

@Verbena87 Thanks. How you doing?

@PinkRose100 I'd read some of your messages over the last week or so, and sounds like you've been through a really tough time. I remember the hcg limbo from when we had a chemical, but at least ours was straightforward. Its horrible being in limbo, but no one wants to hear the outcome is not what they'd hoped either. Hopefully you get some answers in the future and have success with with a frozen embryo when you're ready

@pinkrose100 I am really sorry to hear. Be strong, get all the answers you need and when you are ready start again.

Here to support when you need to vent, cry or whatever you need.

Oh fuck @PinkRose100 - I am so sorry. Sending you a rib-crushing hug and pouring you something boozy and delicious. There are no words really. Xxx

Thanks everyone. I actually feel okay as I’m pretty used to this so know how to manage it. Weirdly it was the hope that was hardest to cope with. I just can’t wait to get on and try again now xx

@PinkRose100, @Verbena87 so sorry to hear your news...

@2mumlife, can relate to the utmost frustration with the clinic. I changed the first clinic after dealing with their the horrible planning (or absence of planning in fact!) but still get angry when I remember all the nerves they caused me.

@TheDutchess3 I feel a bit 'stuck' as we have an Access Fertility package with the clinic. I also feel like its a bit late to move now, as there's only 2 FETs left to try. I'm just frustrated - it feels really hard to have to be pushing for treatment that I don't even feel is going to work at this stage. I'm just fed up of trying and getting no where.

@Verbena87 @PinkRose100 my heart feels so sad for you both, I hope you're both okay. There really are no words I can give which will make everything better but know I'm thinking of you and sending you massive hugs, big glasses of gin and so much bloody solidarity 😔💔 xx

@2mumlife I love that quote and carry it with me often for times of need so I'm glad that helped you too 💕 sorry to hear you've had a shit time with the clinic, it sounds really frustrating and being in that part of just feeling, well, just feeling shit with it all I totally understand. Sending you a big hug, I think it's needed x

Hi everyone. How's everyone doing?

We had our eligibility appointment yesterday and got funding which is good. The results of my ultrasound showed that clomid doesn't seem to be working so I'm kind of glad we progressed onto IVF when we did.

Appointment with the consultant will be in about 4 weeks time. Any advice on any important questions I should be asking?

Thanks everyone. Thinking of you all.

Hi @seathistle that’s brilliant news, and not long to wait. I’m not sure on exact questions but have you decided if you want to test your embryos as that was one of the main things I spoke to my consultant about. And my other tip would be to write everything down in the appointment, there will be a lot of info so you’ll appreciate having notes when you get home after it xx

@PinkRose100 Thanks so much for your reply and advice. What does it mean to test the embryos? Also how are you feeling?