FET cycle buddies May/June

[Bluemeadowbaby]

Hi ☺️
Just starting up a little thread if anyone wants to join me on their FET journey for May/June. I've never had a FET cycle before and wondered if anyone was or is on their way with this journey to offer support and guidance x

@HopingForRainbow2021.. I can't resist at all. As I'm stuck in the house, I literally wanna test every time I go to the toilet! I can't escape it and it is making me worse. I keep googling about all these early BFPs with FRERs... I'd never used them so I amazon primed a couple (another danger when nowhere to go!) which came today... So obvs I used one and it was completely white.
Anyways what is javelin bum pain?! Lol... I don't really get period pain anymore... She just usually rocks up with warning!... I've had a couple of symptoms which I thought were good... I had a bit of "lighting crotch" today which I don't think I've had since being heavily pregnant with my DD. I wouldn't of thought it would be pregnancy linked this early tho... I feel "full" in the lower region and a little bloated and had stabbing boob pain. Oh and I am eating everything is sight but that's likely due to having no where to go!
A little party sounds great... Mmmmm party food!! ... U sound like ur holding it together better than me!! xx

@firefly37 it’s like a weird shooting pain in your bum. I’ve had it a couple of times before. I only got the term javelin bum from on here 🙈

Time on hands is the worst. This week has been good as planned some from scratch curries for today, and a pretty table / decs etc, and cake, so kept pretty busy. I’ve been glued to my phone since family left tho 😆 honestly just want to feel positive but also really scared of another fail. Your symptoms sound so promising - especially the lightening one! I’m also eating everything… but I’m terrible for eating my feelings and eating just to keep my hands busy x

@HopingForRainbow2021 I know this javelin butt pain 😂🙋🏻‍♀️ literally every time I have my period..a real period I get it! For me it is my endo 🥴 but even with minimal endo the pain is still there. It's like a shooting pain right in the bit between your butt hole (sorry! 🤣) and your vag? When I've just had this AF I had no cramps other than butt pain - OH thought I had lost it when I needed a hot water bottle on my bum 🙈 however....this was what happened with my little boy too, so I'm hoping this is a good sign! Signs and symptoms are so weird, really feeling for all you ladies in the tww I think the final stretch is definitely the most frustrating part x

Coming to the conclusion that one of three things is going on here.

1. it has actually worked

2. it did work but is now failing

3. hormones have reached some kind of critical mass in my system and are doing kind of turbo-charged messing with my body

4. I am coming down with covid/other unspecified nastiness.

2 naps today, utterly knackered. Gurgling guts. Queasy. Hot flushes (no temperature, have checked, but feel as if I’m boiling). Weird pokey ache around my ovaries off and on. Argh.

Saw a double rainbow after the thunderstorm earlier though. That was a nice thing.

Also apparently can no longer count to 3 properly despite holding a postgraduate qualification.

@Bluemeadowbaby aaah so may well be a sign AF is on the way? Or does it happen during AF? Hope you don’t mind me asking.

I’ve woken up with cramping this morning too so a bit worried :(

@Verbena87 that all sounds pretty positive to me!

@Verbena87... Sounding good!!
@HopingForRainbow2021... Cramps are good. I remember feeling like AF was coming with my positive first time. Fingers crossed!!
The only thing keeping me hopeful is the stabbing twinges I got on day 3dp. I got stabbing on both my previous positives at day 3... My sensible head says that if that was implantation HCG wouldn't likely be high enough for a Frer until 7dt (tomm)... Desperately hoping xxxx

Feeling way more normal again today, just tired to the core of my bones but I think that’s more of an emotional thing at this stage. The temptation to test is not going away but feel like I’m almost there now.

@HopingForRainbow2021 I had a lot of cramping with my first cycle - the result is now on the sofa watching Lego animations so don’t put too much store by it (says the woman analysing every fart, twinge and mood swing)

Keeping everything crossed for you Verbena!

I tested this morning- 9dp5dt and absolute stark white bfn. AF cramps are very bad now (maybe some of the worst I’ve ever have) but they’re very on and off.

I did my pessary this morning but don’t think I will tonight. It’s over and I want my period to start so I can make a start on the next cycle ASAP.

@HopingForRainbow2021 I'm all over the shop when I have my periods because of endo so tbh I'm not much help 🙈 but I do remember with my little boy I just had the same feelings as my AF and that included the butt strike! X

@Verbena87 sounding good!! 🤞🏼the hot sweats were a tell tale sign for me...no zoladex or menopause weird crap used with that cycle so here's hoping the sweats are a great sign and the rest for that matter 😄 x

@MaggieMoo86 oh no!! I'm sorry to hear this, are you sure you're going to stop the pessaries?! I'd hate for you to stop and not be reaching test day to be certain x

@MaggieMoo86 sorry to hear about your negative. I think I’d hold on for test day too but understand absolutely the need to get out of waiting and start dealing with whatever outcome you’re looking at.

@MaggieMoo86 I’m so sorry about your negative test. This is such a difficult and cruel process. Sending all the best wishes and support your way xx

@MaggieMoo86... Sorry for your BFN :( x
@Verbena87 @HopingForRainbow2021... Hope ur holding up OK in this hideous wait!
@Bluemeadowbaby... Hows u?

I'm doing a frer in the morning (7dp) as I'm convinced it should show by then. I've had some signs I thought were positive but obvs seemingly from what I've read it could be just the meds ... I had the slight stabbing for 40 secs on day 3, I've got tender boobs, I've got a heightened sense of smell seemingly (apparently I keep commenting about smelling things... I didn't realise), I've got a heavy feeling down below and aches both sides of my lady part/groin and maybe lower back. I haven't had period pains since having kids so I can't remember the symptoms I used to get! But I imagine these are all AF symptoms too xxx

@firefly37 go for it lovely but just remember this is still early however I have all my fingers & toes crossed for you! I'm doing okay thank you had yet another busy old weekend and it's just dawned on me I'm starting my estrogen patches tomorrow 🥴 I'm not sure if I'm doing it on purpose or I'm genuinely just being a bit forgetful, kinda think I'm doing it on purpose so not to get my hopes up possibly? I am a bit concerned I will genuinely forget and bugger it all up 🙈 my little boy is being a bit of a bugger in the night with sleep regressions at the moment, last night I was sat up with him for 3 hours and then back up again after 2 hours...Throw in some major hot flushes, feeling totally gross, very tired and man the side effects of meds is really hard to deal with but I know I've got to just troop on 💪🏼 however I do wish I could have a little day to myself to just feel gross lol x

@Bluemeadowbaby... Omg thank god we didn't have sleep issues with ours! I cannot deal with no sleep so if my kids wake up with no good reason they are sternly told to go back to sleep! And they actually do!

So pretty sure I'm out... 7dp6dt and massive BFN on a frer. I know people will say it's early but realistically when frer measures 6.5mlu it really should show up by now. I've been through this process enough to know when it's done 😔... I'm a bit shocked as felt I had good symptoms but clearly is progesterone. All the stress of travelling out the country and still being in poxy quarantine for a negative is so hard to deal with. A positive was going to make it all worthwhile. I will take my meds for a couple more days for the 0.1% chance they I'm wrong.
Really don't know what to do now... My fertility is nearly over but probably still there for a short while. I don't know whether to just try once more because when it's over it's over and I don't want to look back and regret not doing everything I could to complete our family as I dream it to be. I know our family will not support and partner is not keen but I think he understands my reasons.
Anyway baby dust to all... I really hope we get some BFPs here soon xxx

Not pregnant today on my digital OTD and FRER much fainter so looks like a chemical. I’d rather it had been a straight no.

Hopefully now I’ve had three losses in a row they might do some more testing.

@Mancbear88 I am so sorry. I know it’s been said before but this IVF journey can be so cruel. I hope you can take some time for you. xx

Did u say u went to Czech ? Me too I got back on Wednesday 30/6 which clinic did you go to ? Sorry haven’t seen all the thread just seen that you had been to Prague ?

@Mancbear88 Where in Prague was your clinic I got back also from Czech 30/6 transfer was Monday 28/6 - curious which clinic you were at and if was same one and what protocol I had failed cycle in May went straight back over for this transfer so hoping it takes this time

@Mancbear88 sorry just seen your post today so sorry it’s a hard journey to be on have u any Frosties? Sending hugs x

@Mack262308... I went to Brno, CZ for a frozen transfer on 28th June... Reprofit was my clinic x

@Mancbear88 sending you lots of love and hug im sorry it hasn't worked for you x

@HopingForRainbow2021 thank you - just feeling a bit fed up with it all. I think I’ll go straight into the next cycle to get any eggs as early as possible but then might have to give myself a break.

@Mack262308 I’m Manchester sorry not Prague.
No Frosties but one more NHS cycle - I got 4 (3 5AA and 1 6AA) last time so I’ll hopefully get some eggs but 3 out of 4 ended in miscarriage (chemical, mmc at 13 and 7 weeks) and one failed.