August 2020 IVF - continued

[Lepatz]

Morning ladies!

We hit our 1000 limit on the original thread! That’s 1000 messages of support and advice, celebrating every happy milestone, and being there for uncertainty and bad news too. Thanks @Mseddy for setting up our little cohort :)

Will try to tag the regulars, apologies if I miss anyone. @Custardandcream @nextweek @kikisparks @StayingPositive8 @Bruce2 @CardboardCat @MrsT36 @loulamay @MsNoons17 Argh, my phone is refusing to autocomplete properly - I hope that works.

Wishing everyone heath and happiness - whatever stage of the journey you're on xx

Thanks both! I also didn't know about the possible bleed once you stop the hormones. God it never ends! I am having slight pulling feelings around my bikini line, trying to just ignore them. Have also had some brown/pink discharge this morning which my Dr thinks could be further implantation bleeding but also who knows. Nothing I can do but keep an eye on it and hold out until my scan! It's such a trying time. x

It really is. Not sure I'm ever going to settle and enjoy pregnancy! Every little twitch frightens the life out of me. The constipation I have makes things worse becuase I wake up with a sore tummy and I'm never 100% sure if it's baby or bowel! So I stress about it until it clears and then feel silly for stressing about it! I'm 10 weeks today. 20 days until my 12 week scan at 12+6. It feels like a lifetime!

Happy transfer day @kikisparks

@loulamay thank you!

Gook Luck @kikisparks thinking sticky vibes!

Good luck today and the next couple of weeks @kikisparks! Xx

Thank you @Mseddy @MsNoons17 that’s me PUPO now 😊 hopefully this is the one!

Woop, congrats on being PUPO @kikisparks. Sending sticky vibes :)

@Mseddy This whole process kind of steals the option of 'normal pregnancy' away from us I think. I never used to consider myself an anxious person, but when cycling I become so hyperaware.

How are you doing @loulamay? Did the slight bleeding stop?!

Happy Valentines day everyone :)

It's been an interesting time! The backache I had was worrying me a little but it's eased off with the spotting (of which there was literally one wipe when it was a bit pinker and the rest just dark brown - I think that's just old blood) so I don't know what to tell you! I spent a sleepless night worrying about it especially as I've had no other symptoms, but then the past two days my boobs have been quite lumpy and sore and this morning I felt like I was going to throw up after my eggs and bacon.

Just going quietly mad over here.

How are you doing @Lepatz - when do you get started?

Congrats @kikisparks - good luck for the TWW!

@Lepatz yeah I feel like I never really had the option of experiencing a "normal" worry free pregnancy as being a NICU nurse I know to much! But this process has definately made it worse!

@loulamay when is your scan? You might have had it and im having a total brain fart! (Baby brain is such a thing!)

@kikisparks how are you feeling?

@Mseddy I’m ok thanks, day of transfer and 1dp5dt I was really positive, yesterday 2dp5dt I felt ok, today 3dp5dt I’m back at work which I’m finding stressful, wish I took the 2WW off, and trying to resist the urge to test tomorrow as some people get their BFPs early. I really want to wait until the weekend (OTD is 24 Feb and I definitely won’t wait that long!)

@Mseddy Thursday! Feeling very apprehensive 

@kikisparks it's so so easy for me to say but hold out as long as you can! I tested on 5dp5dt, got a stark white result and felt so depressed. 6dp was a SUPER squinter. I wish I'd waited (I have zero self control )

@loulamay thanks! 4dp5dt today and I was tempted to test this morning but didn’t. Saturday will be 8dp5dt and if I can wait til then I should get a fairly conclusive answer. Good luck for the scan on Thursday!

Good luck for your scan tomorrow @loulamay got everything crossed for you. I'm starting to get nervous for my 12 week one. I'll be 12+6 and I'm 11 today so still another nearly 2 weeks to wait.

@kikisparks the tww is so hard! I got bfp at 6dp5dt on this pregnancy and my chemical last cycle, but honestly as soon as I got the bfp the worry started for having another chemical. So I felt like it didn't make me feel any better! It's such a hard process

Good luck tomorrow @loulamay!
Stay strong @kikisparks 💪🏻 Not long till the weekend.
Hope everyone else is good!

Thanks all! 2 hours to go. Of course I woke up this morning and boobs weren't as sore so that's set me off! nearly threw up in the shower but that might just be nerves!!

Hey ladies - well it has been such a long time since I last came on here, I hadn't seen any of the updates! Sounds like it has been a really positive time for so many!

@loulamay very best of luck with your scan today, sending lots of happy vibes to you

@kikisparks keeping everything crossed for you for a really happy result whenever you decide to test

@Mseddy massive congratulations on your happy news! I remember the wait for my 12 week scan was so tough but can't wait to hear your good news!

@MsNoons17 and massive congrats to you too! Hopefully you have your scan coming up really soon?

All good this end, currently 31 weeks and feeling quite big! I echo all your comments about not being able to relax into pregnancy once it finally happens. It has taken me a long time but I have finally got to the stage where I don't panic all the time! Sending best wishes to everyone x

Hi @StayingPositive8 so nice to hear from you. Wow 31 weeks, so exciting! Glad your are getting to enjoy your pregnancy now.

Thanks very much. Am currently 12w+6 &
I have my scan on Monday evening. 😬

Just wanted to update you all quickly - scan went well and I saw the heartbeat. Cried to my Dr who was lovely. OH wasn't allowed in because of COVID but drove me and waited in the car. Such a relief! I go back in 2 weeks for another scan but so far so good. Feel like a can just breathe a little even though there's a long way to go. xx

Great news @loulamay! Relax & enjoy the rest of your day!! X

Amazing @loulamay so pleased for you!

@loulamay fab news! Seeing that little heartbeat is amazing isn't it.

@StayingPositive8 31 weeks! Wow that's gone quickly. So glad you are enjoying pregnancy.

@kikisparks how are you doing?

I had a majoy wobble last night. I was watching firefly Lane (so good) but there is a part about miscarriage and I just totally lost it panicking it was going to happen to me again. I'm feeling better this morning and trying to be positive again!

@Mseddy sorry about your wobble, glad you feel better today. When/ if I do get pregnant again I know I’m going to be so anxious too.

I’m ok, I’m 7dp5dt and not tested yet. Work is so busy and stressful so I really think I need to test at the weekend when I’ll have time to deal with any resulting emotions. I’ve gone from feeling super down and negative at 5dp5dt to really positive yesterday to just feeling in between today. It’s hard as my friend who started TTC baby number 1 after I did is about to have baby number 2 and I still have no baby, just feel so jealous and I know that’s going to be worse if it’s a BFN.

Also I know it was only a chemical but it breaks my heart a bit that in theory I could have been at about 7 months pregnant just now and instead, especially if this is a BFN, I’m still so far away from a happy outcome. So pleased for all of you though.

So after that big pity party yesterday 🤦‍♀️ I tested today and it’s a BFP! It’s so early and obviously my chemical from last time is playing on my mind already so I’m sure anxiety will kick in soon but for now I’m absolutely over the moon, DH is really happy too.

Pregnancy after infertility is hard but pregnancy after miscarriage is ten times worse. I have to keep telling myself that there's no real reason why this won't work out, for any of us, but then a little voice whispers negatively in my head. Hard to silence sometimes.

@Mseddy we watched Lupin last night which was like a French 'Thomas Crown Affair' and excellent with no emotional subject matter, in case you need an alternative 

@kikisparks I have my fingers and toes crossed for you 

@Lepatz hope you're doing ok lovely x