August IVF

[Mseddy]

Had a quick look through but can't find an existing thread. Anyone due to cycle in August after a bit of moral support?

We are due to start our 2nd cycle of icsi for male azoospermia and my premature ovarian aging (full house for us!)

@kikisparks Thank you so much kiki, that means a lot. I feel like we all deserve a happy and healthy 9 months, it just sucks so much when things don't go to plan. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow.

@Custardandcream Thank you! It's been a tough old year but maybe things are about to turn around, who knows.

@West2401 Good luck for your meeting with the consultant today

@kikisparks That's good that you've been referred to EPU, will be thinking of you today

@CardboardCat So very sorry about the loss of your baby girl, that must have been awful. Huge congrats for your BFP, fantastic news!

@Mseddy beaver bullets just made me laugh so hard, so thank you, that's what I'll be calling them from now on!!

Gosh, lots of messages to catch up on.

@Lepatz - hope you're doing okay with wherever you are now. I think it's so hard for both people involved in this process, us because we have the physical onslaught of the injections and the cramps and side effects and the emotional irrationality that this all brings, and our men folk because they don't experience any of that and they must feel pretty helpless at times. My OH is a 'fixer' as I think a lot of guys can be, and so if he can't help me he finds it difficult.

@kikisparks - I feel so cross at your clinic for not doing that blood test. So glad you get a scan today, let us know how you get on. My heart broke a bit when I heard that your DH had been in tears. It's so bloody rough.

@Mseddy - I have no idea how you resisted testing today but well done! When is your OTD? Is your clinic one of the ones who will do a beta test?

@CardboardCat - you are my inspiration today. To think that you went through such hell last year and you're here again is just awesome. And HUGE congrats on the BFP!!

@West2401 - I hope you can get through your appointment today and come out feeling reassured. As *@Bruce2 said, life can be so cruel. Fck 2020 - we've all had quite enough of you, thank you.

@Pinkstars2501- welcome! I didn't test until I think 7dp and have also heard that the First Response are the most reliable. I do think you get what you pay for with HPTs!

@StayingPositive8, @Bruce2 - how are you doing, symptom-wise? I was really hoping for some morning sickness by now, as a reassurance, but have only had a couple of moments when I felt a bit light-headed, as if I'd just stepped off a rollercoaster, which went away when I ate something. Boobs were pretty sensitive but feel fine today, so the changing symptoms are really freaking me out and I'm too scared to do a test in case I've miscarried. If I do, this will be my fourth in a row. I have my first scan on the 8th and I feel so anxious.

@MrsT36 - Was it transfer day yesterday? Hope it went well!

Sorry if I have missed anyone, but hope everyone is coping. It strikes me just how resilient and strong woman are and this group is no exception. xxx

No idea why certain bits are in bold!

@loulamay none really which is worrying. Bit of cramping here & there but that could be the cytolgest.
Still going for my workouts most mornings, took it easy last week but training a bit harder this week (still not crazy amounts) felt more out of breath than normal.
Would rather be struck down with morning sickness all day as I think I'd feel better that it was working. That's me 6+1 today and the countdown to next Thursdays scan is going very slowly.

@nextweek Thank you so much

@loulamay That's really sweet thank you. You're totally right about the resilience though, I think women going through infertility and/or baby loss develop a strength that most people can't comprehend. I see it in this group with every post and it's amazing.

@loulamay my OTD is Monday. I held off yesterday but tested this morning at 9dp5dt and it's darker than 7dp5dt. It's also slightly darker than my 6dp5dt. No idea why my 6dp5dt one was so dark! The test screen has gone really yellow on that test so I think it might have been a super strong pee!! I'm feeling a little more relaxed today. Don't think I'll test again now until the weekend and then monday for my OTD. This process never gets any easier does it!!

How is everyone doing?

@CardboardCat My god what a strong woman you are! I can't imagine how hard the loss of your baby girl must have been last year. Huge kudos to you for having the strength to go again and the biggest congrats on the BFP!

@kikisparks I hope the scan at the EPU today gets you some much needed answers. Not an easy day, sending hugs

@West2401 Hope the appointment goes ok for you today and you get a clear plan in place. Emotionally for you and your other half, must be awful. Thinking of you

@Bruce2 @loulamay still just sore boobs and the joy of not sleeping properly! I was really dizzy last week with a bit of nausea but that worryingly disappeared after the bleed. Also still having cramping on and off. Just got to wait for the scan tomorrow to see if we have made it through this stage....

Hi all,

Thank you for all the support. Had a call this morning to confirm we have 2 embryos being frozen. Not back in for an appointment until the end of the month and then have to start hormones again. Looking like i won't have FET until at least November. Devastated xxx

@StayingPositive8 - I am also not sleeping properly! Am normally a really good sleeper. Not sure if it's the anxiety or the hormones or what. Good luck with your scan!!

@West2401 so sorry to hear your FET won't be until November. Maybe the fact you haven't made this decision and the clinic did is a blessing in desguise that you've not had to make this desicion with everything you have going on. Did they say why they changed you to freeze all?

@loulamay it was. I was trying to stay off here so I could keep my mind off it but I’ve lasted all of 24 hours!!! Let the TWW begin...

@CardboardCat I can’t imagine what you’ve been through, losing your daughter. You’re so incredibly strong and I couldn’t be happier for you and your BFP ❤️

@West2401 sorry you’re having the freeze all and it’s delaying you starting. It’s so frustrating feeling powerless. 2 in the freezer is amazing news.

@kikisparks good luck today, I hope they can give you some answers

@Mseddy that’s brilliant news! Got my fingers crossed for you that it’s a sticky bean and that line keeps getting darker.

Hope everyone in the TWW isn’t driving themselves crazy with symptom spotting and early testing. I know I’m in trouble when I’ve already been googling 1dp5dt symptoms 🙈🙈

Hi guys thanks everyone for the thoughts, much appreciated.

Just back from the EPU and unfortunately the scan didn’t show anything in my uterus but did show a “mass” in my ovary which the nurse said may or may not be an ectopic pregnancy. My ovaries are apparently still (3 weeks after egg collection) very overstimulated.

I then had bloods taken and spoke to the midwife who said that they’ll need to do another blood test on Friday to see what my hcg is doing and another scan and that’s when I should get answers.

I’m so very grateful to them for seeing me and they were very nice and at least I’m on the path to getting answers. I’m trying to stay as detached as possible just now and just keep busy with work as we don’t know for sure what’s happening yet. I’ll get the call with my first blood result later.

@kikisparks I'm so sorry to hear that. Is there still a chance that your hcg could rise and the baby is just too small to show on scan?

@kikisparks so sorry they didn’t give you the answer you wanted. It’s still really early, is there a chance it might show on a later scan?

Guys I need some advice, just been to the loo and (Sorry TMI!) has a small amount of dark brown discharge. Is this just from the transfer or could it be implantation bleeding?
I’ve only had spotting once before at 7 or 8 dpt and I did get a BFP but it was an early loss.
It feels like it’d be too early and I don’t want to get my hopes up. Anyone got any experience with this??? X

@MrsT36 I didn't get implantation bleeding but it sounds like it could be!!

@Mseddy @MrsT36 thanks for your messages, I just got a call and my HCG is 22, the nurse said at 5 weeks they can say it’s not a viable pregnancy and it’s most likely not ectopic but I’ll have another blood test on Friday to rule it out. Much as I’m glad it’s probably not ectopic I must have still been holding onto some hope it wouldn’t be another miscarriage as I feel pretty broken. Thanks very much for everyone who has thought of me today, it means a lot.

@kikisparks so sorry to hear this, sending lots of love.

@kikisparks im so so sorry treat yourself to a hot bath and a cuddle with your DH

@kikisparks So sorry to hear that but glad the EPU have been lovely and helpful. It's the not knowing that's the worst so I'm glad you'll get some answers soon. I understand wanting to stay detached, hope you and your other half are holding up ok.

@MrsT36 Congratulations on your transfer! I don't know about the brown spotting, I think 7dpo is about the earliest that you could expect implantation on a non-IVF cycle but I don't know if that translates to an FET or if it could be earlier. Fingers crossed!

@kikisparks I'm so sorry, I didn't see your latest update Sending hugs. You may be broken now but you can put the pieces back together, wishing you strength xx

@West2401 I’m sorry you won’t be able to do the FET until November, must be so upsetting when you were ready to go on top of everything you are going through, but 2 in the freezer is really good news xx

@kikisparks it must have been hard to have it confirmed even though that’s what you suspected xx

@kikisparks I'm sorry about your news, that must have been so hard to get the confirmation, take care of yourself x

I hope everyone has had an OK day today.
Been thinking of you @kikisparks

Thank you @Mseddy I can’t seem to stop crying, I really wanted to be a mum, I’ve been dreaming of it every day for nearly 4 years and I don’t know where to put these dreams any more, all I can find is pain. I started to bleed heavily last night which I’m glad about as I just want that part over, I’ve still to go to the hospital for the final blood test to make sure it’s not ectopic but I’m pretty confident now that it’s not.

I hope everyone else is doing well and sorry to be so negative, it helps to put it on here as my poor DH is struggling with his own grief and wanting to make me feel better so I don’t want to put it all on him all of the time.