August IVF

[Mseddy]

Had a quick look through but can't find an existing thread. Anyone due to cycle in August after a bit of moral support?

We are due to start our 2nd cycle of icsi for male azoospermia and my premature ovarian aging (full house for us!)

@West2401 so sorry for your and your DH’s loss the clinic changing their mind about freezing must have been really hard for you as well xx

@Mseddy I hope you get a clearer idea of what’s going on soon, but there are lots of things that could effect it

@StayingPositive8 I know how scary a bleed can be at that stage, it is fairly common though (I had small bleeds every few days for my first trimester) fingers crossed for you with your scan

@Elly1685 so sorry to hear that but at least it’s not ectopic, hope you enjoyed you bath and wine xx

@kikisparks I’m so sorry you’re going through that

@Lepatz sorry to hear you’re having a bad few days, when’s your OTD? Relationship wise it’s a bloody stressful thing to go through without a pandemic! Try not to second guess him too much just yet

@Lepatz I'm sorry you are having a tough time. This process is so hard on every aspect of your life! You are not out at 8dp5dt, try and hang in there until OTD.

@kikisparks I really hope you manage to get your clinic to do bloods today. Its so tough that they leave you in limbo.

Hope everyone else is doing OK. Its been a tough couple of days for everyone on the thread I think!

Thanks @Mseddy there is nothing I can say, they are just not going to do it :( I feel so let down by them. I’m so so sad today and I had to get up in the night for paracetamol as I couldn’t sleep due to the pain.

Sending love to the people who are struggling today Those who are living with uncertainty I hope you get some answers soon

I'm 6pd5dt today and trying not to test. I ran to the bathroom and peed really quickly this morning to "waste" the fmu. I'm not ready for bad news yet. I'm not ready for good news either in a way. I know that I won't hold out to OTD next Sunday but today, I want a bit of hope.

Hello, I lurk here but never want to jinx myself and post just incase.
I'm currently 5dp5dt (last two blasts put back as they were frozen together). I've just tested stupidly and it was a stark negative. I don't know why I did it, I don't know what to think now. I feel like at this point I'd at least have a squinter.

@CardboardCat my OTD is on Sunday to and I'm also desperately trying to hold out from testing, I feel like you, just not ready for either result.
Welcome @Pinkstars2501 I'm no expert as this is my first time but maybe its still a bit early for you to test and get a reliable result?

@nextweek I really don't know to be honest. I suppose "technically" I'm not quite 5 days because transfer was about 3pm last Thursday.

But I've got stage 3 Endo plus a frozen pelvis, so I think that might be another obstacle as we tried for 3 years before we had our first failed transfer last year.

@Pinkstars2501 I wish I'd held out from testing early. My negative test yesterday at 8dp5dt really bummed me out (after a couple of difficult days anyway).

I didn't test again this morning, and not sure whether I will tomorrow or not. No real spotting or cramps since Sunday, which I guess could be a good thing backing up a late implantation theory. But weirdly, almost all of my cyclogesty side effects that I've had since trasnfer have all but disappeared i.e. tender swollen boobs, cramps, 'bungedness'. I have had a headache since Sunday though.

Bloody hell. I've been trying so hard not to be an obsessive symptom spotter - but it's hard when it's actually happening!! I think I'm going to go and do a meditation and let it go for a while.

Wishing good thoughts to everyone who's having a tough time at the moment. Seems like there's a few of us. Virtual hugs to all who need it xx

For an oversharing giggle - tbh, half the reason I tested early is because I wanted to know when it was safe to DTD again ;) And I do think the lack of physical intimacy puts an extra strain on the relationship - it's usually a big part of it for us... 4 weeks is so long!

Yeh I wish I hadn't. Especially because just now I had some stabbing pains in my lower tummy.
Cyclogest already had me feeling a bit sicky and my boobs were sore. Not so sore today, though I could be imagining that.

I'm just going to leave it now until Monday OTD.

@Pinkstars2501 welcome. I tested at 5dp5dt and it was stark white. 6dp5dt solid no denying it BFP. So I wouldn't worry. My line was loads lighter the morning of 7dpt but darker in the afternoon. I've not tested today because I need a day off from the rollercoaster! Don't give up hope just yet.

@CardboardCat well done for holding out. My resolve wasn't as strong as yours!

@Lepatz I'm reeeally struggling with that too. I really nearly caved the other night I was like, fuck it im done!! Let just do it and whatever happens happens. And then I realised that I'd just put my beaver bullets (our nickname for the cyclogest) in and couldn't anyway! I don't think we will hold off much longer. I've read a few things that say it can help bring blood flown to the uterus and is positive.

@Lepatz @Pinkstars2501 try not to get too down, it's still very early! I've got everything crossed for you!

@kikisparks I hope they test for you today, let us know.

Really finding today tough. We've got our consultant chat in the morning to discuss next steps and then I have to go in to sign permission for frozen embryos. My husband is understandably very zoned out so I feel very alone. Trying to cope with grief and fertility is a struggle. The thought of having to wait another two months for transfer is so disheartening.

Sorry to be a downer, I hope everyone else is doing ok xxx

Thankyou both, really appreciate it.

Hi girls,

Been off this for a day or two, I'm so sorry to hear the sad news about father in laws passing away, declining pregnancy tests and others. I hope you can all find a way to keep spirits alive and look forward.
Sending you all massive hugs.

With regards to the fertility journeys not going as planned for some, we've all been there at some stage or other. 2 Failed FETs for me in 2018 & 2019. Took me a year to build up confidence in between to do it again and it's my biggest regret. I should have pushed ahead the next month or 2 afterwards as the outcome would probably have been the same and I might have been further down the road than I am now!

My heart hurts for anyone going through a bad time just now. I really hope you get some good news soon

I'm just keeping my expectations low for 7 week scan next week, been so disappointed past few years I can't bear to get my hopes up

xxx

@CardboardCat well done on being so strong, 6dp5dt was when I cracked! Fingers crossed for you for good news when you do test!

@Pinkstars2501 sorry to hear that. Although my pregnancy doesn’t seem to be working out so probably isn’t the best example, my BFP at 6dp5dt was a squinter, I don’t think it would have shown before that day. I think it’s really common not to get a BFP until later, you’re definitely not out yet! Are you using a FRER?

@nextweek good luck for Sunday, fingers crossed for you.

@Lepatz sorry to hear about the BFN meditation sounds like a great idea. I haven’t DTD in about 2 months! We stopped once I went on the norithisterone as I wasn’t feeling up to it and then there was always something else like the injections or the anxiety in the way, I actually really miss it. I’m not in the right place to do it just now either with the pain I’m having and often feeling so sad, thankfully DH is happy to wait too.

@West2401 sorry to hear you have yet more waiting, waiting is just the worst! I’ve heard FETs can have better success rates as a possible small positive.

I had a tiny amount of pink spotting today and the shooting/ stabbing pains have gotten worse, they are also now TMI stabbing pains around where my cervix is. I called the GP again and they’ve referred me to the EPU and I feel so so much better. They’re getting me in for a scan tomorrow, though they probably won’t see much at 5 weeks (especially if, as I very much suspect from the lighter tests, I started miscarrying a couple of days ago) and they’ll do a blood test. They want to rule out an ectopic. I’m feeling so much better, even though I think it’s the calm before the storm and I’m going to be devastated when it’s bad news, but at least someone is doing something and I’ll get some answers.

@kikisparks so glad epu are seeing you tomorrow. I really hope for good news 🤞🏼 but at lest you will have answers either way. Sometimes the unknown is worse because you can't just get on and grieve when you are in limbo

@West2401 I hope you are hanging in there. This journey is tough enough at the best of time. Sending lots of thoughts your way for you and DH

@kikisparks hi, I used a boots early test this morning. Tbh my it was on a whim because I happened to be in boots. About a 2 hour hold wee and I suppose my transfer wasn't until 3pm so not technically a full 5 days I guess.

I'm clutching I think....

@Pinkstars2501 honestly mine was stark white with a FRER on day 5 fmu. So I wouldn't stress too much

@Pinkstars2501 I‘m by no means an expert but I think most people would be very unlikely to see even a squinter testing very early unless they use first morning urine and a First Response Early Results test or something similar- I don’t know how sensitive the boots test is but FRER are usually the most sensitive. Good luck, hope you get a better result with the next test.

Thank you both. I'm so tempted to test in the morning, but I don't know until I wake up. I think I should leave it until OTD now.

The boots one says 5 or 6 (can't remember) days before missed period.

So I ended up giving in and testing today, I was so adamant that I wasn't going to this morning but I had a moment of weakness in the bathroom (and I brought FRERs on holiday so it was almost inevitable). I'm very cautious but excited as it's a bfp. I can actually feel myself having some hope, a dangerous place to be but I'm going to let myself go there.

I haven't really talked about it on here but my husband and I lost our first baby at 24 weeks last year in September, a little girl. It was a stillbirth and it was devastating for us. I think it's only now that I'm actually, emotionally ready to be pregnant again (and strong enough to deal if it doesn't work out). Sorry, I hope you guys don't mind me sharing that, it's just the timing is all so emotionally loaded.

My heart goes out to those struggling, grief can lie at every stage of TTC. Sending lots of love

@CardboardCat

So I ended up giving in and testing today, I was so adamant that I wasn't going to this morning but I had a moment of weakness in the bathroom (and I brought FRERs on holiday so it was almost inevitable). I'm very cautious but excited as it's a bfp. I can actually feel myself having some hope, a dangerous place to be but I'm going to let myself go there.

I haven't really talked about it on here but my husband and I lost our first baby at 24 weeks last year in September, a little girl. It was a stillbirth and it was devastating for us. I think it's only now that I'm actually, emotionally ready to be pregnant again (and strong enough to deal if it doesn't work out). Sorry, I hope you guys don't mind me sharing that, it's just the timing is all so emotionally loaded.

My heart goes out to those struggling, grief can lie at every stage of TTC. Sending lots of love

Firstly, congratulations on your BFP! That's fantastic news. Keep up the positive thoughts!!

Secondly I am so so sorry to hear about your little girl, that's absolutely devastating. Can't even begin to imagine how you're feeling or the emotions you must have (and still be) gone through. Life is very cruel sometimes.
I wish you the healthiest and happiest of pregnancies. You deserve it.

@CardboardCat congratulations on your BFP. Fingers crossed for a sticky little one. So sorry to hear about your daughter that must have been really tough Of corse we don't mind you sharing, I'm glad you feel supported enough to share with us. I've got everything crossed for a healthy pregnancy ahead.

I haven't tested today and I'm really proud of myself. But I'm freaking out because as soon as I took the triggershot I got really sensitive sore nipples, they went back to normal after the trigger was gone and stated up again a few days ago just before my BFP. They have totally gone back to normal now so im 99% sure I'm out and it was a chemical. I don't even know if i can bring myself to poas tomorrow just to confirm what I feel my body already knows. I'm emotionally exhausted from all of this!

Thank you @Bruce2 and @Mseddy

Strangely, I had really sore nipples after my trigger shot, that then turned into generally sore boobs and today they've both totally faded and my boobs feel normal. I do know that symptoms come and go, I remember freaking out about it in early pregnancy last time if that helps any. Such a fucking rollercoaster though.

@Pinkstars2501 Hi there and welcome, sorry the testing has been so stressful. I hope you get positive news soon.

@Lepatz Sorry you've had a tough few days The kicker really is that through all of this hard stuff we can't physically have that connection with our partner. We did crack and have some non-penetration fun the other night, I got cramps immediately afterwards though and freaked myself out and cried so not sure it was worth it.

@West2401 Wishing you all the best for getting through tomorrow, it's so hard and unfair. Sending hugs xx

@CardboardCat congratulations on your BFP! Thrilled for you!

I’m so very sorry for the loss of your baby girl last year I can’t even imagine.

I really hope for a happy and healthy 9 months for you, you truly deserve it.

@Pinkstars2501 I don’t think testing that early and not first morning wee will be reliable so don’t give up hope just yet!

@West2401 hope your appointment goes ok tomorrow

@Bruce2 Good luck for next week

@kikisparks I’m so glad you’ve been referred to EPU, I’ll be thinking about you tomorrow

@CardboardCat Congratulations on your BFP! I’m so sorry to hear about your little girl, that must have been awful