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Starting the journey thread 3

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squirrelnutkins1 · 02/08/2019 20:02

Don't want to lose touch so new thread ready x

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squirrelnutkins1 · 15/10/2019 11:31

Hi all. I've been reading your messages but have taken a step back to try and get my head together. It's such a bumpy road this infertility business. I hate how up and down I am but it's to be expected I guess. Just been trying to do a bit of self care. The woman at work is being a total bitch again. I HATE how she speaks to me. I've never dealt with someone like this before. It's really horrible. I'm actually off sick today with d&v 🤢 well today I've been ok so hoping it's over 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 isn't it sad I'd rather be poorly than have to be with her.

So sorry about the BFNs 💔💔💔💔💔 @FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF @GreyC

All the best for ET today @2fingers22018

So glad you've got a cancellation appt!!! @VenusStarr

Sorry I've missed people but thinking of each of you 💐

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willithappen · 15/10/2019 11:49

I hope you don't mine me popping in here. We are in the middle of the start of our process (waiting on fertility referral to come through)

I'm waiting on day 21 bloods coming back and partners SA came back with everything normal/above average except the morphology (it's at 1%)

I have to go in and get an MMR injection in two weeks time because it doesn't show on my records if I had one or not and fertility clinic like to see you have. Apparently rubella can cause miscarriages? I had a miscarriage when I was 17 so worrying maybe that was why!

2fingers22018 · 15/10/2019 13:23

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF take as much time as u need dnt lose touch tho❤thank you for the support x @BambiOnIce80 thank you! Yh the choice is better online but sumtimes its just more hassle returning stuff isnt it?

2fingers22018 · 15/10/2019 13:27

@VenusStarr thank you too hun! @squirrelnutkins1 i wish i could tell her to back off that really annoys nasty bitch especially when your soo nice. Have u told ur boss? Hope u feel better soon💞thank you all of you for the support it really helps to spur me on xxx

GreyC · 15/10/2019 13:53

Lovey to hear from you @squirrelnutkins1 I have been thinking of you.

To top the shit storm of a failed transfer; I have bronchitis. Ringing the clinic tomorrow to confirm I’m still not pregnant and AF is trying to show her face - looking forward to moving on and moving forward. DP and I are planning on going abroad in Feb for some winter sun ☀️

2fingers22018 · 15/10/2019 17:07

@GreyC oh no i hope ur resting and taking care of urself..its prob exactly what yous need..a break from all this x

2fingers22018 · 15/10/2019 17:09

Welcome @willithappen 😊

CloudSway · 15/10/2019 18:00

@willithappen welcome! Sorry you're here, but glad to have you if you know what I mean. Have you discussed the results with anyone yet or will that be with the fertility consultant?

@squirrelnutkins1 so pleased to hear from you, not at all impressed that the knob at work is back on bitch mode 🤬 that is the absolute last thing you need, and it is just not right to rather be horribly I'll than have to deal with someone!! Can you escalate the problem to someone? Or better yet, any way of avoiding her completely?!

To everyone just lurking for a bit quietly, it's all fine to take time, it's a long old rollercoaster, just let us know from time to time that you are still fighting the good fight 🙂 (@finallytakingtheplungewithivf!)

Bit of that rollercoaster for us too. So after the meds came Friday (Woohoo!) and I went pale over how much there was, we were all good to start Thursday. DH had last test yesterday of DNA fragmentation so they get as much info before the big day, gets a call before he even gets home and they are seriously concerned because the count has gone down for the 5th time in a row, now has less than a million!!

Thank God this embryologist is on the ball, he has got us in on Thursday to do consent forms and to freeze a sample, because the way things are going DH might not have any left 😢

He has also contacted our GP in a different county to get a referral to the hospital in Cambridge, booked us an appointment with a consultant on Friday, and by then will hopefully also be able to get some investigation done into why this is happening.... I can't ask for more from the clinic, but I'm really worried about what the cause might be. Blockage? Hormonal? Cancer? Glad no-one has told me to relax recently or I'd bloody deck them 🙁

GreyC · 15/10/2019 18:10

Does anyone here have experience with create at Birmingham for their natural/modified natural IVF? It says it’s good for women with low AMH and that’s me!

FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF · 15/10/2019 18:35

@greyc that’s who I’m with!

squirrelnutkins1 · 15/10/2019 19:28

I've been look at their website too. I like the sound of their natural cycle ivf.

Thanks ladies. She's a real piece of work. Her contract ends in December so I'm just holding out til then! Seriously hoping it doesn't get made permanent 🥴 @2fingers22018 @CloudSway @GreyC

How'd it go today? @2fingers22018

@willithappen welcome. I didn't have MMR on my record so had to have it too before my referral. That slowed things down a bit as had it in two parts, but good to have as many bases covered as poss.

@GreyC oh no that's rubbish, hope you feel better soon Thanks some winter sun sounds like a good plan!

@cloudsway I'm really glad they are so on the ball. Is it this Friday you'll be seen? Really hope you get some answers soon 🙏🏻

What a rollercoaster for us all 😖😣😫

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BambiOnIce80 · 16/10/2019 07:58

Welcome @willithappen 👋 This group of lovely ladies definitely help make a hard journey more bearable ❤️

How did everything go yesterday @2fingers22018? Please do tell all! How was the transfer? Did you end up with a football team in the freezer?! ⚽😉

Oh, I'm all for decking people who tell me to " just relax and it will happen" @CloudSway! 👊 Sounds like your clinic are on it like a car bonnet, thankfully 😪 Will it be this Friday that your DP is seeing the specialist? That's impressively speedy, if so 👍 Hopefully they'll have some answers for you and it'll be some benign gubbins causing a slow blockage that they can sort out pronto 🤞🏻

So sorry to hear that you're still having a rough time at work @squirrelnutkins1 💐 I can relate 😔 Have a colleague how's awful to everyone on a rotational basis, but they seem to do it to me permanently 🙄 Sadly they are permanent though, so I'll either have to leave or wait until they retire before the torture will stop 😒 I swear they play a major part in my toppy prolactin level! 🤯

GreyC · 16/10/2019 09:33

Why do some people have to be mean for the sake of it? I don’t understand it.

CloudSway · 16/10/2019 09:54

All work places have that one nasty bit of work, thankfully ours has just left - she thought everything you did revolved around her and we were all doing things just to make her life worse 🙄

@squirrelnutkins1 @BambiOnIce80 Yes we are back in this Friday, goes to show they can be quick when they want to be! We go in tomorrow for the freezing then Friday the consultant. Just had the email confirming i should go ahead with my injections from tomorrow, he has said that worst case scenario if they haven't found a solution for DH then the eggs they take can all be frozen until they can get the best sperm from DH, either fresh or using what's frozen tomorrow.

I suppose that's good that they seem to think they can fix whatever it is and still use fresh at some point! 🤞

GreyC · 16/10/2019 10:17

Great news cloudsway

My very best friend at work - we regular go out socially too is currently pregnant (she has no idea about my struggles) so no awkwardness between us. However someone else is pregnant and due the same month as her and I’m jealous. I know they meet up regular and talk about their babies. I just feel that I wish it was me or why should I not be included because I’m Not pregnant? Infertility brings out the demons inside doesn’t it.

2fingers22018 · 16/10/2019 14:11

Sorry bloody message deleted again🙄@CloudsSway sorry about ur OHs SA but its gd theyr being soo quick about freezing it u must b soo worried gd luck for today💞 @squirrelnutkins1 soo true about the work situation i had to have it out with a woman i worked with a few yrs she was soo agressive and rude and the management seemed to be scared to say anything to her! Total nasty bully im a big believer in karma she ll get hers @BambiOnIce80 and @squirrelnutkins1 oh i had it in my mind the ET would be easy it wasnt terrible but it wasnt pleasant maybe just the way im feeling with all the hormones but i felt very vulnerable and almost numb i fot i wouldve been excited but its soo clinical(obvs) dnt know what i expected but if i was to do it all again al def be taking more time off work my workload is very stressful and i was exhausted by the time i was finished today which wnt help tww @GreyC dnt worry its normal hun its not that ur being nasty its just whens it goin to b our turn and its not nice feeling left out im the same i dnt work with any other women my age who dnt have kids. I dread monday mornings when theyr all telling tales of what they were up to with the kids😟

CloudSway · 17/10/2019 08:40

Quick bit of advice if anyone is about - first injection of Buserelin today, did anyone else get a crazy itchy rash? It's only about the size of my fist so I don't think it's like a big allergic reaction, but I did it at 8 and it's still itchy..... 🤔

2fingers22018 · 17/10/2019 08:49

@CloudsSway when i took my fyremadel injections i had the exact same thing and my nurse said it was normal so try not to worry just give them a quick phone call to double check..how did the find the actual injection did u have a pre filled syringe? X

2fingers22018 · 17/10/2019 08:57

Sorry *u find the injection?

CloudSway · 17/10/2019 09:08

No I have to get it out of the little bottle. I just sent them an email because they don't do phones until 9, but it's actually starting to shrink and definitely itch less. DH is a nurse but I never trust what he says 😂 he said it's fine and if it happens again tomorrow take an antihistamine... Thanks for the quick reply!!.😙

FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF · 17/10/2019 09:18

@cloudsway completely notmal! Mine are always itchy to start with and I used buserelin it gets better after a few days! HTH Smile

2fingers22018 · 17/10/2019 09:36

@CloudsSway i was the same worryin bout it lol do u have to snap open the little glass vile its soo fiddly isnt it? Thats gd OH is a nurse means he can help with ur injections thats soo handy!💉😊

squirrelnutkins1 · 17/10/2019 12:37

@BambiOnIce80 urgh sorry to hear that 🙄 it's just soooo unnecessary - I just want to do my job and then go home, not bring the drama home with me cus I'm so wound up. The woman at my place has ruined many of my evenings because she's been so horrible in the day 😡 I hope yours retires soon!

@GreyC aww big hugs. That sounds a really hard and sucky situation 💕 totally agree, this journey has brought out emotions and feelings I didn't know I had!

@CloudSway that's true actually, I've only ever worked really for two companies and had three different jobs within them and each one has had a problem person who inevitably gets away with their bad behaviour because management are too scared to do anything 🙄 so pleased yours has left 🥳

Let us know how you get on today and tomorrow. So pleased they are moving quickly on this for you 👍🏻

@2fingers22018 well done for having it out, takes a lot of guts! I thought we'd got past it when I confronted her a while back and she even suggested first that we put it behind us but she clearly hasn't 🙄
Oooh glad it went well for you. How are you feeling today? When's your test date? How's your OH? It feels like you've been waiting forever for this, can't believe it's finally here!

Big hugs to everyone. Nearly the weekend 🥳

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2fingers22018 · 17/10/2019 15:32

@squirrelnutkins1 how are u feeling today has your bug cleared up? Yh i dnt like to be nasty to ppl she just keep pushing me to my limits ppl like that arent worth your time/energy they rarely change sadly..my stomach has been cramping alot but they said at the ET my ovaries were still swollen from the egg retriaval and the pessaries dnt help i can test on the 24th it has taken FOREVER to get here im tryin my best to stay busy but its hard. This baby shower is nxt wk aswell i dnt want to go at all but its family i cant get out of it x

2fingers22018 · 18/10/2019 21:37

This tww is drivin me nuts!!🌰