Starting the journey thread 3

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Don't want to lose touch so new thread ready x

@GreyC gd stay in touch x @BambiOnIce80 yh my OH tends to b more of an optimist we had fun im just tryin to keep him realistic he can get carried away sometimes lol im waiting on a phone call 2day they said itd b in the morning wish theyd hurry up😒 ET is tues providing its gd news 2day @CloudsSway just fot another thing is dnt wear perfume lotions or anything strong scented to the clinic i dunno if theyv already told u that💦im always paranoid that i ll sweat more without deo lol

@VenusStarr @squirrelnutkins1 hope ur both okay? X

@GreyC sorry to hear that! There’s still a chance test day isn’t till tomorrow isn’t it?

@2fingers22018 how are you feeling? I hope they call you soon

@FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF they still havent foned im wondering if i should fone them the more i think bout it she mightve said we might call on sunday and have u in if not itl b tues. It wouldve nice to have an update on the embryos tho maybe its a gd thing if they dnt fone? My vagina is gettin sore tmi and so is my stomach i feel like the progesterone makes me feel worse than the injections so far i mean i was really lucky i didnt get major side effects. How are you feeling? Hope your k? X

@2fingers22018 I see you’ve started a thread. How many pessaries are you on? If just two then you don’t need to change when you taking then? If 3 what times are you currently taking them? Xx

I take 2but i normally take them 12afternoon and 12 at night my ET is at 12 typical eh

Oh I see is just take it before but do it back door as they clean your cervix before transfer! Xx

I'm really sorry @GreyC ❤️ take some time, I hope you do stick around though xx

How are you doing @FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF? I hope you and your dh are OK. I saw earlier in the thread you said you can't go again now for 18 months? I hope you also stick around xx

How are you getting on @2fingers22018 have you called?

How are you doing @BambiOnIce80, lots to think about from your last appointment! How you feeling about things? I know it's hard to think things are so far away (I feel the same about my operation) but hopefully spending the time doing nice things will help the time pass in a good way.

@CloudSway how are you? When are you starting the drugs?

Nothing much to report from me, dragged dh swimming yesterday and off again today. I think I've improved in my confidence. I think I've ovulated this weekend, it's weird to not track or take notice. Still trying to get an earlier rmc appt, called on Friday and there had been a cancellation but it had already been given away.

Feeling very frustrated and angry with my sister. I sent her an article about miscarriage last week and she ignored it. I asked her if she read it and she replied saying yes but nothing else. I can't articulate what I want from her, but I'm not getting what I need.
Had a nice weekend with dh though, so trying to focus on the good things. Xx

Argh! Got an rmc appointment for next Wednesday! Something was telling me to call. Now just need dh to be able to swap his shift 🙏 🙏 🙏 I could cry, but with relief 🙂

@VenusStarr my sisters the same with the infertility she always brushes it off as if im being dramatic its caused a big rift between us shes not the person i thought she was and that hurts. You sound like you just want some compassion or even a sign that shes interested. Glad u got ur appt sorted even tho its horrible maybe u can finally get some help or answers xxa

@2fingers22018 I think that's it. Some acknowledgement that this is happening. It's like it's uncomfortable for her so she just ignores it. Every so often she'll text to say how are you? It drives me crazy. I really want to reply well my babies are still dead and we're struggling to conceive, how the fuck do you think I am?! Which I don't because I don't want to upset her.
But I struggle to answer and then I'm holding onto all that frustration. I don't know how I am, just getting up and trying to get through the day. But that reply gets old quick.
I hope that hasn't upset anyone x

I just want to get started with tests, even if we don't get answers, it's something. This is the ideal time as we aren't currently ttc. I'm so glad I called x

Hi @venusstarr!
Il stick around! You guys are like my extending friendship group who don’t judge or tell me to go on holiday as that’s when they conceived their twins; first month trying... oh and to get drunk!!

Just got off the phone and as I’ve not started to bleed I have to stay on the horrible progesterone untill Wednesday and do another test just incase... not hopeful obviously and just want it all finished and done so I can take time out; start saving and enjoy myself and start back exercising as these drugs have made me put so much weight on.

Great news about the clinic too! I hope you get the answers you need xx

@VenusStarr i cant even begin to understand how hard it must b to lose a baby its soo sad..but you know we re all always here to listen. Like you said maybe they just feel awkward but i dnt know if it is even that with my sister shes just like it WILL HAPPEN if your more positive i feel like sayin well i was positive for the first yr and a half of tryin but after 4yrs you realise theres only so much positive thinking can do lol anyway ive got my ET 2morro and im not looking forward to anyone looking down there😳i feel itchy and gross with these pessaries 😝

Glad you're sticking around @GreyC 😊 sorry you're having to wait until Wednesday. Does your clinic not do blood tests? Can totally understand the feeling of wanting to pick up and move on / forwards. What exercise do you enjoy?
We saw some friends over the weekend and they're doing slimming World and cooked for us. I think it's given dh food for thought (😋) as he was looking up recipes last night and asked how much it would cost to join. I think we both need a kick up the bum. My clothes are all a bit tight and I had to buy the next size up in some new jeans (and they're snug and dig in my tummy when I sit down!)

@2fingers22018 thank you, it's good to have some space just to say what I really think and feel. If people haven't experienced what we have, they just seem to insensitively miss the mark. They can't know it will happen (just because it did for them) and it's how consuming it all is. If only it were that easy to think positively and hope... But there is hope for us all, even if we can't reel it ourselves all the time ❤️

Eek, you'll be in your tww then won't you? Aw, I understand feeling self-conscious about it all, but I bet they've seen it all! What time are you transferring? I'll be thinking of you 😊 xx

I have horses and enjoy bootcamp type classes especially boxercise both of which I was told I couldn’t do from the start due to risk so I cant wait to get back on my horses and go for a ride. I’ll probably cry then as my last ride I said to my safe old girl next time il ride you I could be pregnant and as I’m not it’s abit emotional.
Looking forward to getting into a routine again. Me & DP have decided to try again naturally for aslong as it takes us to save up for more ivf and get some new fertility vitamins etc. As DPs count has improved we are in the unexplained group now rather than MFI. So let’s pray 🙏🤞
I did slimming world and lost a stone - I’ve put it back on now after ivf but hoping to get back on it in a couple weeks. Some fantastic recipes. The pinch of nom website is great!

Thanks for the tip on the website @GreyC, I'll take a look.
🙏 For you trying naturally too. What's your cycle like usually?
❤️ For you and your horse, it will be bittersweet but I hope getting back in the saddle does bring you some comfort and joy xx

My cycle is usually 25-27 days. Always get a positive ovulation strip. However; I didn’t get my tubes tested to see if they are clear so I might beg my gp to refer me. I have low AMH so I’m hoping ivf hasn’t refined my ovulation cycle etc
Yes it definitely will; I can not wait - just wish it would stop raining!

@GreyC 12 tomorrow thanks for getting it i know the dreaded wait begins ive got a hair and nail appt booked sum diy planned and some obediance classes for the dog fx that keeps me sane lol did ur oh go in with u? X

Sorry that was for @VenusStarr lol

@GreyC ive been to a couple of different boot camps theyr brutal u must b soo fit lol

Similar cycle length to me @GreyC definitely worth getting your tubes checked, although its unpleasant, it's worth a shot 🤞

Sounds like you'll be well and truly distracted in the tww @2fingers22018 :)

@2fingers22018 good luck for today!

I will catch up properly at some point just need to take a bit of a step back sort my head out! Will still be reading and watching lol!
Hope your all ok xx

I'll be sending you positive vibes today at 12pm @2fingers22018 💓🍀💓🍀

Absolutely understand you needing some headspace @FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF.x

Excellent news about your rmc appointment next week @VenusStarr 🤩 I'm alright thanks, just feeling a bit flat now that the appointments are done and we've got another 2 months to wait 🙄 I did order an EC nightdress from t'internet which arrived yesterday, but doesn't live up to the expectation of the picture online (I hate it when that happens! This is why I very rarely buy clothes online!😤). Guess I'll just have to go on that shopping trip after all 😉

I love that you're shopping for egg collection @BambiOnIce80 😊 shame that it's not lived up to expectations though. I'm going to treat myself to some new pj's for hospital, even though I'm not staying in (well, hope not, but they said pack an overnight bag).

Sending positive thoughts @2fingers22018 hope it goes well. Let us know xx