Keith's BPG II

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@Mrbay I'm so sorry but glad you are able to move on. Look after your DH as well. It's almost better than the other way; if you were in pieces and he was quoting statistics at you, that would be very difficult. Strength to both of you x

Take care Mr Bay, you seem to have a very realistic approach and I hope that continues to help you get through the tough times. Be there for your DH which I'm sure you are already :) take it easy now and know that we are thinking of you here !

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@Mrbay I’m gutted to read your news. I hope you and your husband are looking after each other and getting plenty of support. You sound in a good mindset which I always believe is half the battle.

Hope everyone else is doing well.

@Mrbay I'm sorry to read all of this. I hope you are being kind to yourself by resting up and you and your husband are taking some time out together. I am glad you seem to be in an okay place emotionally but it is okay to grieve and be upset. Look after yourselves xx

Hey girls, thanks for your kind words. I left DH with his Xbox for a good few hours and he has processed it all, today he seems much brighter about it all. He had a few pints with his mate today, following the remembrance service and they chatted things through which has sorted things in his head.
The clinic has been great and we'll be seeing them in a weeks time to talk things through.

@Mrbay how are you and partner getting on? Sending love.

Hope everyone else is feeling ok, some of you must be looking very pregnant by now. Hope you aren’t feeling too exhausted.

I’m 9w3d, had successful 9 weeks scan. Still bleeding on and off lightly -spotting really. Wish it would stop. Typically got some the morning after my scan too. Think hopefully I’m just a bleeder tho and all ok. Harmony scan and blood test next wed-time just seems to be going so slow. I’m fairly lucky only really noticing nausea the last week or so, gets worse in the evening and can’t stop stuffing my face with carbs and sweets, did you guys do that? My healthy fertility diet has gone!

@Mouse1234567 I remember having all of these plans to eat healthy...
they are now long forgotten. Today, for example, I’ve had two bags of malteasers, a big bag of white buttons and a magnum. I’d love to say this is not common but I’d be lying. I’m disgusted by all vegetables but can eat as much fruit as I like as a positive - I think Pip just wanted sugar.
I’m glad your scan went well. 22 weeks tomorrow here and I still think time is passing incredibly slowly, so does everyone around me too, possibly because I told them all immediately rather than waiting until 12 weeks.

@Mrbay how did your appointment go at the clinic? I hope you’re doing as well as can be expected, and your husband too.

@mouse1234567 I am exactly the same. Not so much sweet things, although still about 3000% more than usual but I'm all about the carbs and beige food.

It was my viability day yesterday (24 weeks) and is my 40th birthday tomorrow. I'm celebrating both of these with a little trip to New Zealand with my friends from Sydney. Having an amazing time although the flight was not the most comfortable.

@Cauliflower82 great to hear from you and good to hear Pip is getting on well. Sweet little boy!

@Mrbay hope things are going ok with you. Take care x

Hey all, yea we are all good - part of me wants to tell everyone the reason for my absence was due to miscarriage but I still feel its a taboo subject, so IDK.

My DH has gotten his head around it all now, hes the more emotional one. This may sound harsh but it was a collection cells at the point I lost it, so I don't feel overly negative about the whole experience. I managed to finally get pregnant and I'm excited that next time may be our time.

Wow - @KittyKatSmile - New Zealand is on my go to list. It sounds like an amazing place to go - have fun!

@mouse1234567 - I hope you are starting to be able to enjoy pregnancy and starting to relax.

@califlower82 - a girl after my own heart! I love a good sweet binge!

@mouse1234567 so glad everything is okay. The bleeding must be your 'normal'. It is good you have been checked a few times though. May I ask why you had a 9 week scan? You are so lucky with the nausea just in the evenings. Mine hits at anytime...mostly the mornings and then goes but sometimes lasts all day and I have been sick too.

@cauliflower82 I would loveeeee to eat all those foods! Before getting pregnant I would binge on those things too but all I can stomach now are bland carbs. It's the only thing I can trust my body to hold down.

@KittyKatSmile Happy 40th birthday!! What a lovely way to be spending it!! Amazing and I bet it is nice and warm there too! How long are you out there for?

@mrbay I am glad you are doing okay :) I know what you mean about things being taboo, it's so so hard. I think being open encourages more people to be open too but equally it can be quite personal and invasive having to share these things.

My update: I have my scan next week and apparently I will be nearly 8 weeks then. As others have said, time is going by so so slowly. I know I could pay for a scan now and it would be pretty definitive but I think I would rather remain ignorant! How many weeks/days was everyone's first scan? Even though I am nauseous and have been vomiting, I won't "let go" until I have a clearer idea of what's going on!

Nearly the weekend everyone!

Hello everyone. I lost you all again as the thread slipped off my "I'm on" list - glad to have found the thread again! Haven't read all the way back through, but can see that lots has been happening.

@Mrbay sorry to read your most recent posts, but you sound really positive. I hope your DH is doing ok. Everyone processes things in different ways and at different speeds so I'm sure he will come through the other side when he is ready too.

@Zest11 congratulations to you - not sure how long I've been off the thread for but I don't remember reading a BFP news from you, so huge congratulations.

And to @mouse1234567 as well.

No IVF news from here. DP and I have decided to give things another go. It's early days, so no idea what will happen. I can't help but think that we've got an embryo in the freezer and what a waste it would be not to at least try, both in terms of our relationship and further IVF. That's a long way in the future at the moment, though.

Hope everyone is doing ok!

Belated birthday wishes @KittyKatSmile, hope you had an amazing 40th!

@KittyKatSmile happy happy bday! Lovely that you will be bringing a baby into the world in your 40th year!

@Zest11 best of luck for your scan.
Because of bleeding -I had a scan at 5.5-they just saw yolk sac. Repeat scan at 6w5 to see progress. Both of those EPU. Clinic sign off scan at 7w5 and then I booked a private scan at 9 weeks because I’m so anxious. Still bleeding on and off and for the time being scans every 1-2 weeks is what I need. Next one -harmony on wed! I’m lucky with nausea -def get it through day now but it’s very manageable and feels more like low blood sugar. I haven’t been anywhere near being sick tho.

@AliciaWhiskers so pleased to hear that DP and you are giving it another go. Hope you are feeling in abetter place. IVF is so much stress for a couple.

@AliciaWhiskers welcome back lovely. What heart warming news that you're giving it another go with DP. I hope it's all going ok so far.

@mouse1234567 @Zest11 those early days are so scary. I just lived from scan to scan really. It's so much easier once they start to move so you know from day to day that things are ok.

I had my whooping cough vaccine today and got the form you need to give to work before you go on mat leave. It's due on Wed so thought I'd leave things down to the wire

Really not at all excited about going back to work tomorrow. Can't be bothered and totally just going through the motions to get to Christmas then reckon it'll pretty much be handover time.

Thinking of you all x

@AliciaWhiskers So pleased to hear you back and glad things are looking up. I'm glad you and your partner are giving things another go. After all the two of you have been through I really didn't think it would be "the end."

@mouse1234567 Yes I completely understand the need for the scans. Good luck with the harmony test tomorrow. Let us know what happens. I am considering that one but my husband doesn't like the price! Will you find out the gender? I think they can do a blood test or something to find out?

@KittyKatSmile Eeek you must be 25 weeks now...that's exciting! I hope work today was okay. Did you manage to get to the gym to break up the day at all? I'm on countdown until we break for xmas too. 4weeks and 2 1/2 days

We had our viability scan today and right now everything is looking perfect :) My husband had tears in his eyes and when I looked in the mirror later I saw my mascara was all smudged so I must have been crying too

Yay @Zest11, yay! I'm so so happy for you. That scan is just amazing isn't it?! If you're young, probably no need to do the Harmony test. Just make sure you get the NHS one as early as possible and then you still have time to do the Harmony afterwards (as it's more sensitive).

Didn't make it to the gym as I'm too jet lagged (is my excuse!) Work are stressing me out at the moment. I'm trying hard to be zen. I've been here for 11 hours today. Not good. Time to leave.

Much love xx

@KittyKatSmile yes the scan was so wonderful. I was in shock! I think you're right about the tests, I think I'll just wait. Work sound like they are being tough! Are you feeling better today? The jet lag must be awful, especially being 25 weeks pregnant.

May I ask any of you when (for those of you that had it) the sickness subsided?

@Zest11 no, work are still being fairly terrible. 14 hours yesterday

I didn't really get sick because I was on so many steroids although that has changed a bit recently. I've got terrible acid reflux at the moment. Have been at one of our airports today and heading home now. Am hoping to be asleep by 7:30pm

@Zest11 yay, congratulations - I’m so happy for you :) you’ve done so well and you’re so resilient.

@KittyKatSmile happy belated birthday 🎁

Zest, my sickness has never really ever went away, possibly it started to get a tiny bit better round about eighteen or nineteen weeks - I still have the weirdest thing about toothpaste and chicken 🤢

@Cauliflower82 sorry to hear you have felt sick the whole way through. Toothpaste I like but oh my sometimes the thought of chicken freaks me out -although last night I quite enjoyed some so maybe I’m over that.

@Zest11 super pleased your scan went well. How exciting. Will you try and hold out for the NHS scan now?

@KittyKatSmile sorry to hear work is such a slog -must be exhausting. How many weeks will you work till? I’m quite luck post Ofsted I feel like my worklife balance is restored a little. I am finding work very tiring at the mo tho. Need to think about Christmas presents too before it becomes a last minute panic.

My 10w3d scan in prep for harmony test went well. I was nervous but unexpectedly she had the sound up and as soon as she put ultrasound thing on tummy we heard a good heartbeat which was exciting. All measuring ok so we are very happy. It was the first time I think I really started to enjoy it. Still got quite a way to go and of course the harmony blood test could show something but I’m trying to make myself feel more positive. Just got to get through next week and then my nhs scan is Monday 2nd December. Will be glad to hit that milestone. Have parents meetings next week so thinking as tiring as they are that will make the week go quick!

Hope everyone has great days. I’m so so happy the weekend is almost here.

Also to say I’m still spotting on and off and the sonographer saw the haeomotoma and said it looked more like a scar but that I should expect to continue to spot. She said she wasn’t really worried about it and that it would have caused a prob if it was going to by now and that hopefully in time it absorbs. I’m going to try and relax about the spotting now and accept it’s just my preg experience.

Did some of the other pregnancy bleeders have haemotomas?

What a positive update!! I cannot wait to hear about how everything progresses.

@KittyKatSmile - Happy belated birthday! Please don't push yourself to do those hours, pregnant or not, that is ridiculous.

@Zest11 - I am so happy to hear that you are able to start to relax about it all.

@AliciaWhiskers - please to hear that you on your DP have found a way to move forward.

DP and I had a catch up with the consultant this week, went really well and has put our minds at ease. He confirmed that their clinic has a 90% live birth rate after 3 transfers and he would hope that our final embryo (from this collection) would be genetically normal. If it fails on my 3rd transfer, we'll have further tests.
Due to Xmas, I won't be transferring before the end of the year but on the plus side that does mean I can have a drink! Every cloud and that!
I've opened up to a few of the ladies at work and I am surprised at how many people have suffered a loss and yet we still don't talk about it. My Directors have been very lovely, but being asked if I am ok each time they see me is a bit much but I suppose it shows that they care.

The other positive is, I've manage to park my jealousy over pregnant friends, them having a baby doesn't stop me from having one. I had to be pretty direct with my friend about it as I was really upset that I wasn't supporting her through hers.

Also, did any one have injectable progesterone? I didn't get on with being one of Keith's BPG or FPG - I am mildly allergic but I am wondering if the cost of the injectable drugs would be better saved for mat leave and I need to just get on with it!

@KittyKatSmile oh goodness. I hope you are able to rest now and have a relaxing weekend. Have you got much planned?

@Cauliflower82 thank you lovely! I am sorry the sickness has not really gone away for you. I wish I never asked now! How are you finding work these days? I've had to leave a few times because when it's bad, there's nothing I can do except wait for the day to end and hope the next one is better! Even being sick doesn't actually help!

@mouse1234567 Thank you for telling us about your scan and I am glad everything looked good. I am so pleased to see you a little more relaxed now. Regarding the haematoma I think cauliflower and @ginandtonic31 had them so they would be good to ask. Like you, I do find having little milestones to look forward to help. I'm counting down until the end of November and then moving on into December! We have Parents' Evening next week too and I'm really worried because the sickness is so unpredictable. Will you start telling people at 12 weeks or have you already? I think my husband wanted to tell some people after the scan this week but I am not ready yet.

@Mrbay I am glad your consultant appointment went well. I think the cumulative odds of IVF are very successful (wish I could have seen that when I was struggling with the failed one!) and so the consultants are quite relaxed and there are things they can keep trying with. I guess because of your hubby's work it's reassuring that you have so many goes but at the same time very testing with patience! Definitely good about the drinking and also, if you're waiting until after Christmas you could have a September baby and he/she will be top of the year group (there's the teacher in me)! Re. the progesterone, it's probably worth looking at costs because you have to have it up until 12 weeks when you get pregnant. I never became a member of Keith's BPG and was with the FPG both times. To be honest I think it's all horrible. I did think the crinone gel was better when the IVF had been successful rather than failed but it's still horrid.

@Mrbay I think you can also take progesterone tablets, I'm sure I've read that somewhere. Leading me to question why any of us are ever shoving that stuff up our arses but anyway...

I took the day off today and went to Kew Gardens with friends and their little ones. It was a lovely day although my anxiety is creeping back in now. Will go to sleep and see how I feel tomorrow.

Sending love ladies x

@KittyKatSmile I hope you are doing okay and work is much calmer and the anxiety didn't come back. Kew Gardens is lovely, that must have been a welcome break.

@mouse1234567 good luck for your 12 week scan tomorrow. Thinking of you xx

@Zest11 sadly work remains terrible. I got some legal advice last week as I felt so sure they were either going to get rid of me or sideline me while I'm away. I feel so down and alone. Trying to keep my focus on what's important but it still feels so far away when every day I feel like I'm being betrayed.

@mouse1234567 hope it goes well today xx