Well I think I am out. Have had pink spotting the past two days - right around the time af should have been - and I was holding onto hope it was breakthrough bleeding (which I did have with first pregnancy), but this evening it has turned to red. Am thinking it is af, just delayed a few days by the cyclogest. I am obviously gutted and so miserable.
I allowed myself to feel positive and happy yesterday and just went with the idea that I was actually pregnant .... and it was wonderful. I loved it....all the plans for the future, mat leave, how it fitted in with work and of course, the main bit, growing that lovely little baby inside me and then finally holding them in my arms.
Back down to Earth now.... sorry to put a downer on things. My test date isn't until Monday which seems ages away, but I have heard lots of people bleed before despite the progesterone. I must be one of those.
I have never been on such an emotional rollercoaster. I range from apathy one minute to absolute devastation the next. I can't keep up with myself. I will ring and find out about counselling at the hospital when I tell them my test result on Monday, as I think I really really need it. Part of me just says, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again.....which I had planned for anyway. But another part just wants to scream and die. This is so hard
Good luck to everyone else waiting (the hardest part) x