3rd or more time lucky - IVF cycle buddies October

[Hobbes39]

Hi Just wondering of there are folks on here who are about to go through their 3rd + time of IVF who want a cycle buddy? I dont mean it badly towards anyone who is starting their IVF journey for the first time, (i was there just this time last year after all) but I feel a bit like I cant be as optomistic about it as I was, so dont want to drag any first timers down? Hope that makes sense!
Anyway, just to explain about me:
TTC #2 for over 2.5 years now
Unexplained Secondary Infertility (have 4 year old DS)
Age 40.5
AMH: 15.4
2 failed fresh and 1 falied FET (with single frozen 3BB embryo we got from 2nd fresh round)
about to start 3rd fresh round when my period starts in approx 7-10 days, so will probably be late october EC.
anyone else a bit jaded, but still vaguely hopeful want to join me?
xx

Thanks hobbes otd tomorrow. But think i’m out as started bleeding last night. Tmi but was a bit of brown but this morning has turned to red. I cannot believe it, yet again I have got so close. I guess there’s still a glimmer of hope until I only see one line but i am not holding out hope. I don’t know if we can go through this again.
Lots of luck for your cycle, praying your embie will stick for you.
wanda how frustrating - you can have my period if you want it!!

Oh @bjonesreborn - I am so hoping that your period stays away. It's so f&xking unfair, will keep everything crossed for you xx

bjones hope your bleeding has stopped. Is your OTD tomorrow? Praying your little bean has stuck on.
wanda, hope you get to start soon & good luck to you and wombats for a successful cycle.
X

As expected i’m Officially out. Last time we got to 9dp5dt and this time to 10dp2dt. I don’t understand why I get so fucking close and then ‘boom’ hopes and dreams shattered. I really thought it would be different this time.
I’m going to disappear from mumsnet for a while I think so for all those of you that are about to start again I have everything crossed that this is your time and to those of you that are busy growing little babies I hope your pregnancies continue to go well. Thanks again ladies for support and thinking of me xx

Oh bjones i am so so sorry! It is just shit and unfair. Take care of yourself, will be thinking of you. X

Oh @bjonesreborn - I'm so sorry...I know how utterly shit it feels. Sending you & thinking of you xx

So sorry to read your news bjones. It's a rubbish place to be.

Hobbes, hope your lining is thickening nicely
on the progynova.

AFM, still no period. Day 42.

Hi all. Just checking in to see how you guys are doing?
hobbes hope the lining is getting nice and pillowy?
wanda has your period started?
Will go back to lurking now, just want to wish you lovely ladies all the best. X

Hi @Decafplease - hope you are doing ok? Thanks for checking in - nothing much to report here - hopefully lining is building ok - my clinic don't bother to scan much for Fet - so just the one at the beginning, then I'm to go back in on Wednesday (after 2 weeks of the progynova) then, if I haven't ovulated 🤞 and lining looks ok, I'll start the progesterone and then transfer will be 5 days later, so waiting til Wednesday to know how things are...
@1Wanda1 - hope period has arrived - if not, they can bring it on can't they? It's so frustrating - if this doesn't work part of me will forever wonder if my body might have been able to do t by itself if I just hadn't meddled and thrown everything out of whack doing IVF - my cycles weren't clockwork since having DS, but only varied by about 3 days either side of 25 days, but are longer since starting this process - only time they are shorter is when I've bled before OTD... typical isn't it? X

Hi there. Hope you're feeling well decafplease and not worrying too much about things. I imagine that every day that passes, it feels a bit more real. Hope so.

Hobbes, when will your ET be? How are you feeling?

I still have no period and today is day 46. I am starting to wonder whether all the messing with my hormones could have tipped me into peri-menopause (I am 42). I know they could bring on a period with more medication, but I can't help thinking that surely it is better for my body to do it naturally. Before our failed cycle in Feb, I had been on the pill (to synchronise cycles with DW). The withdrawal bleed before the cycle started was really light and then the period I had after stopping meds was unusually heavy - makes me feel as though my body is completely out of whack with all this medication.

Hi all, hope everyone is ok?
@1Wanda1 - any sign of your period yet? I think it can just take time for our bodies to recover after messing about with hormones... i suspect almost everyone in our age bracket is probably peri-menopausal to a degree tbh, but until you are actually menopausal there is still hope... x
AFM - had scan this morning - lining at 10.8mm so looking good, so transfer will be early next week - I'm to call this afternoon to check what time and day.... last chance saloon here we come 🤞🤞

Hi everyone, don't know if folks are still coming back to this board, but hope you are all ok? @1Wanda1 - any sign of AF? @Decafplease - hope everything is progressing well?
AFM - it's transfer day today and I'm feeling nervous. Just had a nice long shower to try to relax but feeling jittery. Think it's prob cos I'm getting closer to accepting this is our last chance, but I'm not quite there yet, hence the nerves....
Anyway, should be PUPO by this afternoon as long as my embryo defrosts ok... as it took longer to reach blast that the other one, I'm slightly more worried about that happening than I was before too. It would be utterly heartbreaking if that happened... trying think positive tho! 🤞🤞

Hi Hobbes39. Good luck today, I hope everything goes smoothly (am sure it will). I can understand your jitters. Try not to overthink it - the embryo transfer process has worked out fine for you before and there's no reason to worry today.

No period for me still so tomorrow I have a scan to see what's going on.

Will be thinking of you today. What have you got planned for after ET? Back home to relax a bit?

Good luck hobbes everything crossed for you
wanda how frustrating for you.
Afm awaiting follow up appt on 18th May, seems way too far away but originally it was the 5th June so it’s better. Not sure they’ll have any answers for us though.

hobbes hope ET went well and you are now PUPO!
wanda how absolutely frustrating! Hope the docs can figure out what’s happening & get your cycle back on track.
bjones good to hear from you, hope you are doing ok? Are you considering another cycle?
AFM, i have my final scan with the IVF clinic this Thursday, and if all well will discharge me to NHS. As usual am totally bricking it that they will discover something wrong! Dont think this fear will ever go away.
Love & good wishes to all. X

Hi! Good to hear you have your follow up soon @bjonesreborn - hope t proves useful - what are your thoughts on the next stage?
Sorry AF still isn't here @1Wanda1 / so ridiculously frustrating - hope that the scan gives some answers.
And good luck for your scan on Thursday @Decafplease xx
AFM - I had taken today off work and we had a nice relaxed lunch in the sunshine (!) after our transfer (all went fine supposedly) and then I came home and laid down for a bit... and promptly fell asleep for 2 hours! Think the worry just made me knackered! Feeling reasonably good, and trying to be positive without getting carried away... it's impossible tho isn't it? This will be another loooooong week!

decaf good luck for Thursday
hobbes congratulations on being pupo. Really really hope this is your time.
wanda hope you get some answers from your scan
Afm I don’t think they’ll be able to tell me why it didn’t work as it was supposedly a top grade embryo that went back in. My oh is ready to go again, I am just trying to work out if I can, I have found it much harder this time round than the first. I know you ladies have been through many more cycles than me so I salute you. But equally if I say that’s it then that’s kissing goodbye to having children which I don’t want to do. I’m hoping that after the follow up appt i’ll Have a slightly clearer head.
Loads of luck ladies xx

Oh @bjonesreborn - am thinking of you... it's so so hard. I know if this doesn't work for us that I'm not keen on going again, despite the obvious implications... my DH though would keep going until the money runs out.. others may disagree with me, but I do feel that as it's your body that undergoes the procedures and hormones being messed up, the final decision has to be up to you. I know that the only thing that keeps me going is I still hate the alternative, where we never have another child, more than the shit we are going through, but I'm definitely getting closer to that not being the case. I know it's different for me though as we are lucky to have our DS. Sending you love and xx

Hi again. bjones, hopefully by the time of your follow-up appt, you will feel more reconciled to what you want to do next. I can definitely understand reluctance to go again, but also not being ready to give up. This process really takes its toll on you.

Hobbes39, hope all is well?

At my appt yesterday (cycle day 55 with no period), they said that my lining was very thin - as thin as it should be at start of a cycle. They took blood to test FSH level to see if lack of period could be a sign of menopause, but said it wasn't as FSH was 10. They couldn't explain lining being so thin but just said it was as if I had skipped a cycle. And that if I wanted to start FET cycle now, I could.

Hi everyone - @1Wanda1 - will you start now then? That's good that there's no indication it's due to menopause but frustrating they can't explain what's up. I'm often frustrated that we seem to know more about the surface of the moon than we do about women's reproductive organs!
AFM - I'm now 4dp5dt and have been ok so far but now feeling the nerves kick in as we are getting into the possible testing time now and I'm scared to test as a negative will be so hard to take this time... so trying (but failing) not to think about it. Thankfully I have no tests in the house!

have been feeling no symptoms at all so far, and this morning I had pink when I wiped...which shouldn't happen as I'm on progesterone and oestrogen, so was told 'it's v unlikely you will bleed before test date' and I didn't on either of the other FET. It doesn't 'feel' like implantation spotting... I don't know why. I so hope I'm wrong. I'm 6dp5dt... pregnancy tests arrived this am in the post. Considering testing tomorrow am, but scared to as won't cope if BFN. It's going to be a long couple of days...

Decided to test as thought I was feeling shit enough already, as was assuming I'm out... but there's a 2nd line!!🙏🙏🙏 (and I'm not religious at all)🤞🤞🤞 this isn't another false start. Having had an ectopic and CP and a MMC surely...this time??

hobbes eeek so so hope this is your time. Sounds like it is implantation then. Keep us posted xx

hobbes 🤞🤞🤞 this is the one! Xxx

Thanks guys - not getting too excited yet, trying to just stay calm and positive... roll on Thursday which is my blood test....
have you started your FET @1Wanda1 ? X